Everything amazing in my life has been led by a feeling, discovered through feeling, or decided upon through feeling.
Everything less than amazing has been driven by thought, ego, or negativity.
I remember as a volleyball coach we used to tell the girls 'when you think, you stink'.
In ju jitsu I am told to let go of thought because my body already knows what to do.
When I eat I listen to my body's needs and trust that she knows what is going to sustain me.
In my business I am driven by high emotions and feelings. When it feels good I follow it. When it doesn't I drop it. So when I feel like working with someone I do. When I feel like hiring someone I do. When I feel like changing something I change it. Simple.
When I speak to my clients I don't think rapidly and crazy like. I trust that I already know what they need. I feel into their emotions and tap into the energy of which they are SEEKING to have then I provide this.
When I met Robbie it just felt right. And it still does. And I don't think it will ever feeeel wrong.
When I started lifting weights it felt proper that this become my passion.
When I prepped for my first show. It felt right.
When I wanted to do another show and stopped my show prep it was because it didn't feel right.
Now, I'm prepping because it feels right. It has been the MOST energized and excited I've been in a long time. I feel rejuvenated actually.
Every feeling I get leads to the action necessary, the positive choice, the right step.
It all just starts falling into place.
Because feeling is the gut reacting. 
Feeling is your souls choice. 
Feeling is first nature.
When we feel we have been conditioned to question it. 
As if we are 'not allowed to' just because it feels right. 
If I had listened to all the times people told me it wasn't enough to go off a feeling I guarantee I'd be no where near where I am now. 
It's almost as though we are being conditioned to think that 'feeling like' something is not allowed. And actually should be ridiculed.
God forbid you listen to your soul right? Ridiculous... ;)
Imagine a world where EVERYONE trusted their intuition, their soul, their gut. 
And then even more so, ACTED ON IT!
Wow. That would be beautiful.
I've been really expanding lately within myself and because of it I have been attracting other soul creators, followers, leaders, and seekers.
And let me just say, they are frikkin AMAZING.
Now imagine a world of the...
When you say or hear "I wish there were more people like you in the world" I want you to know IT IS POSSIBLE.
In fact, there IS a world of us out there.
Some of us are consistently shattering the ceiling of the demands placed on our soul. 
And others of us, 
Well, unfortunately some of the world is still stuck, lost, trapped, confined. 
Some are worse than others. 
But no one is actually broken or dead or useless. 
Our differences in imbalances of the soul message we have for the world is what true uniqueness looks like. 
Being unique is a part of you. Just by being YOU. No one else can do that.
When we can embrace the different journeys of all our souls and come together the world produces magic. If you want to call it 'magic'.
You are not meant to live this life outside of yourself. 
You are meant to literally live through yourself.
Because you are a soul. 
A badass soul might I add. 
And you have a responsibility on this earth to release your soul to the world daily. HOWEVER THAT LOOKS FOR YOU.
In order to do that though, you have to take care of the home in which your soul resides.
-listen
-trust
-fuel
-love
When you can do these things you can give the most valuable gift EVER to the world.
Your love. Your soul. Your energy.
YOU.
Because the more love you have within, then the more love you can radiate out into the world and thus the more love you can receive.
I am thinking about running a 7 day Intuitive Living Course to truly help others know and trust the voice inside of them which allows them to live their most empowered, free, and healthy lifestyle.
I wanted to run this course for $97 but I'm thinking about doing it for free..
If you're committed to taking care of your soul, loving yourself more deeply, and trusting your intuition to live from your most free and empowered state of being then this is for you.
Comment below saying 'I TRUST THE POWER AND LOVE IN MY SOUL'
If I get enough people involved then I will run the course for free!
It's time we all commit to loving ourselves and our souls more deeply and make it clear to the universe how serious you are.
Are you in?
💖💖

6 Steps to Staying on Track to Achieve your Goals:
1. Reconnect with your why
2. Align with your bigger vision
3. Become the person who has done this. Identity work. Who do you have to become in order to achieve the results you desire?
4. Listen. To your body, soul, mind, YOU. Just listen, trust, and become more intuitive
5. Increase your Awareness. What could sabotage your journey? How do you normally sabotage yourself? What is the reality of your decisions? etc.
6. Assess and Shift your Beliefs. What do you believe? What do you need to believe?

If you loved these then you will LOVE my book 'Believe your way to Badass' where I provide in depth mindset coaching and step by step processes in this interactive guide to redefining your beliefs, developing your self-love, and manifesting your way to your best, most badass self.

You can get your copy on Amazon here or by searching 'Believe your way to Badass'
What are your goals?
Sincerely, 
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit​

​I LOVE LOVE!!

Love saved my life. 
Love gave me hope. 
Love fuels my every action.
Love feeds me.
Love guides me.
Love fulfills me. 

Everything I do is in love, backed by love, rooted in love, and generates more love.

Love is the greatest emotion to ever exist, in my opinion. 

With Love we can experience all things and love can be experienced with all things.

Love is freeing. 
Love is energy.
Love is abundant.

YOU, my friend, are love. 
At the core of you, is love.

Whether or not you always feel it, I promise you it is there.

The best thing about love is that you can call it in at any moment and feel it deeply.

Love has moved me to tears, laughter, giddy smiles, and even sadness believe it or not.
Love has led me to service, to living fully as myself and show up as me everyday, to friendships, and to romance.
Love gives me my health, my well-being, my inspiration, my decisions, my confidence, and my lifestyle.

I celebrate love daily and love celebrates me. 
I embrace and share love freely and it has become like second nature to me.

What I love about love is that love does not neglect us. Only we can neglect love from flowing freely through us.

I encourage you to love yourself because the more love you have for yourself then the more love you can radiate out into the world and thus the more love you can receive.

So when I am asked, "What do you think of Valentine's Day?"

I know that my answer consists of these cores:
-If a day is meant to celebrate love, why wouldn't we appreciate it?
-If the world emphasizes love in your life, why shame it? 
-If the day inspires more love to shine from and through others than I am all for it. 
-Any day filled with love is a day to celebrate. Some people only experience an excess of love on days like this so we need to really appreciate it and love it and live it out to the fullest.

On this Valentine's Day I not only encourage you to love yourself fully and create loving rituals for yourself through honoring and caring for your body and your soul but I also encourage you to use that self-love and radiate it out to those around you.

Today is a perfect day to express even more and allow this to be your new standard of loving.
So when it comes to a life full of love you are more expressive and more fulfilled daily.

Xx,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit
Building More Than Just a Body

I've decided to launch something new and incredible to really help 5 women embrace, begin, and sustain their lifelong journey of Building More than Just a Body.
I'm really excited to announce that I'll be running a new program. It's my first yearlong program to date and it's going to be epic...seriously. But it's only for a select few.
I absolutely love the connection I develop with all my clients and members but have really wanted to kick it up a notch. Because I love everyone I work with so deeply I want to be able to truly add more to the service and really enhance the level of results, fulfillment, and fun in the programs I offer.
I am truly here to empower other women to live their most healthy, free, and fulfilled life by emphasizing the importance of mindset, self-love, confidence, wellbeing development, and behavior change all coming together with the proper training and nutrition regimen.
I know this is my mission on earth.
I also know I am meant to work with very specific people who:
--Desire results without losing their freedom in their life or feeling like they have to watch every morsel of food they put in their body or track every gym session they have religiously as though that's all they are allowed to focus on. 
--Are focused on sustainable long term success vs quick and non sustainable fixes. 
--Love to connect, empower, and support other women. 
--Want and recognize the need to improve their overall health, fitness, wellness, and confidence. 
--Prefer natural, loving, and positive forms of healing, eating, treating their bodies, and living. 
--Are committed to a plan and can be self-disciplined but are still very coachable and seek growth and knowledge daily. 
--High level of appreciation, longing, and commitment to and for a self-loving approach to life. 
--Willing to invest in their personal development, life, growth, knowledge, health, and overall soul and self. 
--Love VIP treatment. 
--Love the sound of an all inclusive retreat every year. 
--Love and appreciate the idea of truly building more than just a body with specific mindset and self love coaching along side amazing fitness, nutrition, and supporting regimens.
The other day an idea for this new program hit me.
I am now offering year long coaching packages to 5 women (for now).
Here are the different packages:
With your purchase of a Standard platinum coaching package you receive: 
-Access to my VIP membership site for the year + the bonuses which come with it. 
-Monthly mindset coaching calls with me. 
-All inclusive retreat ticket *not including airfare/travel*
Premium package: 
-Everything listed above
-1 VIP 1:1 day (I fly to you)
Platinum package: 
-1:1 customized coaching (my current VIP coaching which includes custom meal and training plans updated every 2-4 weeks based on progress, daily check ins, weekly mindset coaching calls for the first month then as needed or every week after that, 24/7 access to me) 
-Added Membership site access including the bonuses that come with that (Facebook support group too!) 
-All inclusive retreat ticket *not including airfare/travel* 
-1 VIP 1:1 day (I fly to you)
If any of these packages sound amazing to you or you'd like to hear more about them please shoot me a message now.
This program is application only. 
There are payment plans available.
To inquire on how to apply or to hear more information message me now and I'll let you know if you're a good fit after s fun and friendly chat :)
Because this is going to be such an empowered and close knit group of women I am really excited to make sure that everyone is in growth and success mode.
Let's do this.
Are you in?
Message me now for all the details and to see how you can apply.
❤❤❤,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit

​I will make these breakdowns simple and comprehensible so it'll be worth the read.

Let's start with the arm in general.

You have your bicep, tricep, shoulders, and forearms.

Let's break it down to everything except forearms. So everything above the elbow.

Bicep breakdown: 
A. BI-means TWO. There are 2 heads of the muscle (long and short). This means you need to work BOTH heads for your bicep to grow balanced and look bigger. 
B. Long head= outside head of muscle= peak (the part that stands up when you flex) Exercise example: Concentration Curls. 
C. Short head=inner muscle head. Exercise example: Preacher curls. 
D. There is a muscle further in as well but we are talking about these two heads to keep it very clear and concise. And considering both of these muscles attach at the scapula (one further than the other you could guess this based on long vs short) then both come together by your elbow to well bend the elbow.

YOUR ARMS WILL NOT GROW OR APPEAR LARGER, MORE TONED, OR WHATEVER ELSE YOU WANT WITHOUT WORKING TRICEPS. (sorry for yelling, just want to make this clear) Here's why...

Tricep Breakdown: 
A. Tri=Three. There are THREE heads in the tricep which means it takes up and makes up more of your arm than your bicep. Therefore, focus on your triceps for overall growth and arm development. 
B. You need to work all three heads. Let's keep this simple again. 
 1. The long head is the longest and is running along the back of arm and can be considered as the inside head also. Train this first since it's largest and takes up most space and will give you the size. 
A. Exercise example: Dips. 
2. The medial head is very very deep. It's that super deep tricep muscle that you see when women and med get super shredded and flex and you think, 'do I have that muscle?' Yeah that one. ;) 
A. Exercise example: Reverse Grip Pushdown
3. The lateral head is on the outside. And gives us that desirable horseshoe look. 
A. Exercise example: kickbacks.

Main takeaway: Common misconception is to focus mostly on our biceps. Not the case; you need to work triceps (all heads) for more size, shape, etc.

Now, let's talk shoulders.

Shoulders have a LOT goin on and if you don't know yet it's okay!! But all the muscles are all interconnected and work together in the body sooo 

We are going to talk about the 3 parts of the shoulder head only.

Shoulder heads to know: 
1. Anterior Deltoid: the front of your shoulder. Exercise example: dumbbell front raises. 
2. Medial Deltoid: Middle of your shoulder. This part makes you look wider and rounder in a really great way. When you work shoulders and back you create the illusion of a smaller waist. Example exercise: dumbbell lateral raises 
3. Posterior Deltoid: Rear of your shoulder. This helps to create more roundness and overall size and shape. It really emphasizes that final touch of the boulder shoulder. Example exercise: Rear Delt Raises.

I could go on about all of this but I wanted to give you something super quick and simple as well as explain the muscles and their heads considering that is what we are focused on when we workout.

It's also important to know that there are movements which can and do hit all heads of a particular muscle or grouping of muscles if you will. So you're really not limited and should focus on movements that also hit them all together as it is possible.

I love empowering through lessons and knowledge to truly lead you to understand WHY we train how we train or do certain things to achieve specific aesthetics or goals.

Part of my mission is to help you feel confident when you walk into the gym for a kick ass workout. I want you to be able to go in and own it knowing exactly what you're doing and having no doubts, questions, or second thoughts.
You should be able to go in there and feel amazing about yourself and what you're doing.

I don't think anyone should walk into the gym feeling lost or like they don't know what to do or how to hit certain muscle groups or achieve your goals.

This is a HUGE part of why I created the Building More than Just a Body membership site where I share over $50,000 worth of Fitness, Health, Wellness, Self-Love, Confidence and Mindset Coaching for Just a Few Dollars a Day!

Every month I upload a new workout plan which can be personalized to your goals using my Exercise and Fitness Training Module where I share the exact breakdown of what you need to be doing based on YOUR goals.

I breakdown fat burning, muscle gaining, fat burn&muscle gaining, maintenance, and strength training so whatever your goal is, or if it changes, or you see it through and want to maintain it then you can always know exactly what you need to do!

This is about you creating massive result in every area of your life regardless of your current state because everything is customizable and there are always modifications and advancements provided.

There are currently more than 6 months worth of fitness programs in the site and I add a new one each month.

Each exercise corresponds to my extensive and alphabetical (with a search tool) video library so you never have to wonder 'how do I do this?' Or 'why am I holding the weight like this?'

Allow me to train you from anywhere in the world with my mobile friendly VIP membership site. You'll get everything you need and more with bonuses like a Coaching and Support Facebook Group, The ability to ask me anything you want to know so you can request your very own coaching topics and I will cover them, as well as notes with each weekly video.
With people from all over the world changing their life using this site I have no doubt in my mind that you can benefit too.
I'm here for you every step of the way. 

It's up to you to take the first step...
Visit www.celesterainsturk.com to learn more and start your free trial (ALL ACCESS PASS--nothing hidden from you)!
Xx,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit
Building More Than Just a Body
P.S. If you found this post helpful feel free to share it with your friends and family so they too can experience real, long lasting, practical results with you. (Or just grow some nice arms😜)

"I am so happy and grateful for my transformation and happy for hers too"
This came out of me while journaling in gratitude this morning. 
I was really connecting to a feeling and just writing as gratitude flowed through me and I almost crossed this out because I thought, "who is this 'her'?"
Then I realized. That 'her' is my soul.
I am happy and grateful that my soul has transformed with me. 
That she's shown herself. 
That she's opened up. 
That she's appeared in the world and is standing up for herself and her beliefs. 
That she's healthier. 
That she's more free. 
That she's happier.
The crazy thing? 
I didn't consciously think to write this down. 
I consciously thought to scratch it out as a mistake.
I then realized who really wrote this...
My soul took control and decided that she belongs in every aspect of my life.
I thought she had. 
She thought differently.
So she showed up and she made it known that she deserves to be recognized and acknowledged.
I fought the idea thinking, well technically she is me. But this was just to cover up the truth that sometimes my soul and I have space between us that's filled with a bunch of emotion either serving or limiting.
And this was her way of letting me know, "I am here. I transformed with you. Be grateful for me because I am grateful for you."
So it hit me.
When I would and do feel intertwined with my soul it is natural.
When I am only acting from my headspace I do not feel 'one' with her but rather like we are just holding hands on the journey.
That's it.
It's not only about knowing my soul is apart of me and choosing to sometimes showcase her or listen to her or become her.
It's about truly recognizing that she and I are the same. 
Every day. 
Every minute. 
Every decision. 
She's been here.
And I am grateful that she has transformed with me. Even when I neglected her consciously I took the time to connect with her when I felt that I was neglecting her.
This was a beautiful reminder to not just 'connect' with her. But to become her. And truly embody her. Because she is me at the deepest rooted level there is.
I am grateful she naturally came out of me today without me even consciously realizing immediately what happened until she stopped me from crossing it out and I took a deep breath and saw it for what it really was and felt her strong presence actually flow out of me, naturally.
This would never happen if I didn't recognize her power and love and abilities and strength and spirt.
Because I have. She has too.
We are transformed together. 
We are no longer just connected every now and then. 
We now seek oneness over connectivity. Because oneness allows us to show up together consciously and unconsciously;naturally.
❤ Your Soul and she will ❤ you back more deeply than you ever knew possible.
Xx
Building More Than Just a Body

The problem never lies within your ability to do something. 
We are all very capable of making things work. However that looks for us, we are made to make things happen, naturally.
Our will to survive is rooted in the depth of our nature. 
No matter how you slice it, your body wants you alive and well.
Unfortunately, you may have lost touch with your intuitive self...
The one who:
--Tells you how much she wants to eat
--Tells you how active she needs to be
--Tells you what she finds fun or draining
--Tells you what serves her
--Tells you what feels good
--Tells you what makes her happiest
--Tells you when she needs rest and recovery
--Tells you when she needs love or support
--Tells you everything you need to know in order to survive in a peak state.
Your body and your soul must work together in order to truly live your most fulfilling and empowered life.
While it is easy to go day by day and just making quick ditch decisions, it is not necessarily the healthiest way to live
We are meant to truly trust, listen, and serve ourselves.
When we fall into limiting patterns of beliefs, actions, and environments which don't serve us, of course it doesn't and won't feel good. But somehow, we stay there.
Why?
Our mind wants to protect us. 
Our body wants to keep us safe and healthy. 
Our soul wants an abundance of all things positive, serving, loving, beneficial, and beautiful.
So our mind says, 'no more change, it will be too stressful, too hard, too scary, too taxing, too tiring. we must remain here and grow this way since this is easier, safer, and more reliable'
Yet, our body is screaming at us, 'Help me, please. Stop feeding me this way. Stop treating me this way. Stop acting like I don't matter.'
Meanwhile, our soul whispers, nudges, and attempts to guide us, 'Wait. Listen. Trust me. You know what is best for you. It is okay to struggle. It is okay to grow. It is okay to be you. It is okay to want what you want. It is okay to achieve more. Change is safe, change helps you to grow. Failure is good, it helps you to learn. Every moment is perfect and every opportunity is yours to take or leave.
Please, trust me, listen to me, and serve me for I am here to bring you peace with your body and your mind, I know you well, I know what you need. Fuel me, serve me, the rest will come by default'
So, why do we ignore this intuitive soul of our being?
Why do we let the confines of our mind rule us when we can seek the open and clear spaces or create them ourselves? 
Why do we ignore the body when it signals us that something is not right?
Most importantly, why do we neglect ourselves. We know what we need. We know ourselves better than anyone every could. We are so much deeper than surface level. We are in touch with our mind, we are protected by our body, but we are whole when we connect, trust, and listen to our soul because that is truly the root of who we are.
When it comes time to change our life, our choices, our behaviors, our habits, our thoughts, or even our appearance.
We must never look outside of ourselves; everything we need is within.
The growth we desire is not as much physical as it is vibrational.
We want to be at a higher frequency to attract the life we desire which has a frequency much higher than that of our current identity.
To grow, to change, to see results.
We must raise our consciousness, change our frequency, and vibrate higher.
The life you desire is not yours yet simply because your identity is not yet in alignment with the life or the results you are seeking.
To truly manifest what you desire. You must become it.
I believe that you can be, achieve, do, and have anything you desire in life with the proper focus and mindset.
I am on a mission to help others start Building More Than Just a Body by emphasizing the importance of self-love, confidence, mindset, well-being development, and behavior change modification planning strategies alongside the proper nutrition and fitness for long term, sustainable results.
I am hosting my first ever Women's Retreat in Malibu, California this Summer, June 29-July 2nd. To apply for 1 of the 5 spots left, please visit: http://bit.ly/2jmE3Mk
This is a transformative experience meant to impact you far beyond our time at the retreat.
You will walk away with clarity, knowledge, and increased confidence to truly carry out the lifestyle that best suits you, your body, your mind, and most importantly your soul.
That's right...
✔️Mindset for healthy living, success, well-being, and positive results in every area of your life.
✔️Nutrition from the inner work to the outside application we are covering healthy eating both on an emotional and a physical level. No confinements or slavery to diets.
✔️Exercise and Fitness. Covering how to create a plan that is perfect for you so you walk out of there knowing exactly what your next steps are. Working out together. Using the beautiful surroundings to enhance our physiology and body function. And lots of cool classes in store...
✔️Workshops. Each day will have deep soul work where we discuss the truth and beauty in living a truly fulfilling healthy lifestyle. Learn and apply. You know me, it's not just about teaching and knowing, it's about action we take with the knowledge and skills we acquire. Wellness, behavior, mindset, fitness, nutrition, life, success, all the works...
✔️One-on-One time. Everyone will get some time with me personally to really dive into whatever it is you choose.
✔️Group support. Building a community of beautiful women from all over the world on the same journey growing together and uplifting one another. Women are so powerful when put together. Women's energies are absolutely amazing and our nurturing, loving, and badass spirits coming together will be unmatched.
✔️Your retreat. Not mine. When you sign up I have an in depth form to fill out all about YOU. So we can get the most out of the experience for you.
✔️All inclusive. You choose/handle your travel. I cover the rest.
✔️More...of course, there is always more... :)
For more information and To apply for 1 of the 5 spots left, please visit: http://bit.ly/2jmE3Mk
Xx,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit
www.celestial.fit

Are you suffering from patterns of:
--self-love
--healing
--relaxation
--introspection
--healthy living
--soulful relationships
--or any other thing which could be considered ‘valuable, positive, ground breaking, transformative, or dare I say, LIFE changing’
?????
If you are then KEEP reading!
Hi, I am the Cel antipode and I like to consider myself a pretty hateful person and I specialize in helping people hate themselves, abuse their bodies, and truly feel terrible and some would even say trapped in their own skin.
You know, I suffered with self-love and confidence for a long time.

I was constantly looking in the mirror thinking all these ridiculously positive affirmations or sometimes even flexing at myself and admiring my body for all that it ‘gives’ to me—yikes!

I listened to it and fed It what felt good and I took time for myself daily. I even trusted my soul for awhile…
I would even go as far to say I loved myself so much that I was radiating love into the world and then I was constantly receiving more love, NO THANKS (amiright?)!

I spent years of my life changing myself to become more loving and now I am thinking, ‘what the hell was I doing, total waste of time you know!’

I mean I was so depressed and anxious and I was even less healthy before I started delving into the dark depths of self love.
Did you know I even started to fuel my body with things that actually made me want to do MORE?!

I even went to the gym or enjoyed the outdoors everyday.

I meditated a few times.

I also took time to put on face masks, paint my nails, get a massage, or sleep. LOL!

I want to make sure that you NEVER have to experience this type of life.

After I spent time truly changing the way I felt about myself I thought to myself, ‘wow, that was the worst decision of my life, I need to get back to my self-destructive ways’

This is when my idea of Breaking down MORE than just your body was born.

I even created a guide all about how to ‘negatively drain yourself to fatass—the interactive guide to destroying all serving beliefs, developing self-loathe, and manifesting your way to your worst most drained self’
I was shocked at the amazing response I got! I actually felt great making others learn to feel worse.

This was the exact guide I used to fuel my own negative self and I just knew I had to give it to others.
Heres the thing.
Hating yourself is actually a lot more difficult than it seems.
I thought loving myself was pretty easy compared to this and we all know I can’t stand that anymore, I prefer the hard road.

Here are some things I do to show my body (and soul) just how much I cannot stand it:

1. Tell it it is ugly, out of shape, and gross. (sometimes I even squeeze it just to anchor these feelings in but that is more of an advanced tip)
2. Feed it a LOT of processed junk. F balance and moderation, I am going all in all the time. I like to spend hours with stomach aches, head aches, and lots of bathroom trips. My favorite part of this is the low energy and fatigue it brings me. It is like I have become addicted to it.
3. When my body tells me it does not want these things I make sure it knows I don’t care by fueling it with even more junk. This is one way I abuse my body. I never listen to it and I don’t allow my intuitive self to shine. Sometimes I don’t eat just to punish myself because I love a good ol fashion punishment.
4. The only time I go to the gym is to compare myself to others. I will go and I don’t ask anyone how to use anything and I sometimes throw around weights or jump on the cardio but I don’t really care if my form is off and I get hurt. I usually just deal with it and try not to ask anyone. I like to consider myself fat, weird, and incapable compared to the others so sometimes I just don’t go at all. It is easier to stay here anyways, you understand. A lot of times I even go on social media and fuel my jealous rage by telling myself I will never be like that. But that’s just because I don’t care anyways.
5. I force myself to listen to sad songs when I am sad or upset. I even will go as far as locking myself in my room and hiding.
6. Whenever I am tired or fatigued I force myself to stay awake and active. I NEVER listen to my body. This makes me perform worse at my job, for my clients (they love it though), and I am a complete Horror to my family (which I love being).
7. Anytime I think of changing my ways its like something comes over me and so I just brush it off, push it down, and continue doing my thing because, well, it is easier.
8. OH, and when I undergo a bad experience I actually thrive off it. I try not to move on and instead I beat myself up over I or I fuel the fire with fire because I can.

 
The list goes on, but I can’t give you all the secrets to this, you have to just get the guide if you are still looking for more ways to do this too.
What I realized is that truly hating yourself is so much more painful than loving yourself. BUT, I love the pain. It feels good to suffer in my own skin and feel myself dying physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
 
I have never felt as terrible as I do right now but it is okay because well, I don’t ever want to have to go through the trouble of showing myself love anyways.
 
This one site I was on that had changed my life for the worst when I was on my journey before this revelation was even trying to encourage me to love and care for myself (GAG).
It was soooo focused on things like:
--Self-Love, Confidence, and Mindset.
--Long Term Success Building
--Wellness Development
--Behavior Change Modification Planning
--Nutrition and Exercise

I just couldn’t stand it. I was like, “WHY the hell are you making me have breakthroughs and taking me through all these empowering exercises and giving me all these strategies?!” I was so done with that, I wanted to be miserable instead. So I cancelled. Luckily there was no added join fees or cancellation fees so I only had the small price to pay (which was even discounted—lame right) and then I left. WHY would I want to do that forever.

This girl was adding videos to it EVERY week. Constantly flooding me with self-love and mindset, and all these tools that I just had to ditch it because, why would I want to feel good anyways. It was such a WASTE of my time and energy and definitely a waste of my money.

Not to mention the other people in the ‘support’ group she had.  Encouraging me, welcoming me in to some sort of loving cult, yeah no thanks, I didn’t want to be a part of that.

OMG she even would ask us what we wanted to see and I was like “I wanna see you get the f out of here with your positive vibes and energies and all that other stuff you have”

Anyways, whatever you do, don’t join www.celesterainsturk.com  it is likely to make you go from loathe to love and we all know that is NOT what life is supposed to be like.

When you have the opportunity to choose between my life and hers, choose mine, it is much safer anyways. Plus, you don’t have to worry about feeling amazing, having better health, or growing in your personal development at all.
I hope you enjoyed my rant full of tips and tricks for a more loathing and crumbling lifestyle.
 
P.S. you are the worst.
 
Hate always and forever,
The Celeste Antipode 

[Vulnerably emotional share]
"No thought, just feel" 
Closing my eyes again I reconnected to my heart and discovered pain which I had repressed for so long and convinced myself it was 'not my pain to feel' despite its immense affect on my life, my beliefs, my choices, and my overall well-being.
I have always known I was afraid of being alone, loneliness, or loss of connection. I knew I had a lot to work through; there was healing to be done.
I always keep things real here and I want you to know, despite the way I show up online, I actually don't have a ton of close friends. And I haven't felt very 'connected' to people in person in a very long time aside from my boyfriend.
There are not a lot of people I can call out of the blue and open up fully to, or at least I haven't allowed myself too (I am going to get into this). My boyfriend is my closest friend of all but I don't really have more then 2 close girl friends who I feel I can really turn to.
This has been hurting my heart lately as I have felt so reliant on myself and I felt so distant from others, even family.
While I recognized this and came to many of my own conclusions I never opened up to the depth of which this pain and this problem stemmed from...
"I sense you still have some depression"
"Do you often get a sore throat or a cough?"
"I am getting sadness and grief around your heart..."
"...Does any of this resonate with you?"
Me: I don't feel that depressed anymore but when I do it is triggered by the potential of losing someone or something or me wanting to run from a confrontation that could cause this in fear of it happening. I don't normally get a sore throat or cough, no. Sadness and grief in my heart, I am not sure.
I knew what was happening. He was tapping into the energies with my chakras.
Then, we went deep. 
Shit got real, real fast. 
Heartache was uncovered.
Attachment was released.
And 3 beliefs were woven into me from all of the breakthroughs and deep discussion through the healing process: 
1. It is safe to trust
2. It is safe to love
3. It is safe to forgive
I am still sitting with all of this but I feel so much more open and light after this healing session.
I realize that cutting the ties between these 2 significant people's energies to forgive them is going to allow me to be more open in life to receive.
Wow? Sound familiar, Celeste? Just yesterday I did a video on "What do you need to release in order to receive what you truly desire?"
Apparently, I too needed to do a lot of releasing, we all do though.
I had to release energy that was not serving me and which I had pent up in what I have always been told to be my strongest chakra--my heart. I couldn't hold that there if I wanted to show up as my highest self...
I feel more open to: 
--New friendships (deep ones)
--Loving new people in my life deeply and strongly without the fear of losing them or going through all the fallouts I used to have. 
--Forgiving more freely and openly with loads of acceptance and true objectivity.
The past month the word "healing" has been coming up a lot for me. Then all these different types of healings have showed up for me, of course.
Today I was grateful to be guided through a Theta Healing Session with Mike Marschhausen. I appreciated his willingness to go all in with me and to create a space for me in which I felt open, comfortable, and confident in sharing deeply so I could heal.
While I am still getting my bearings after the session, I can say I feel there was a necessary shift which occurred for me, which I cannot deny or neglect.
I highly recommend you reach out to Mike and ask him about his Theta Healing. In all honesty, I didn't even know what it was, I just did it. And, I don't think I could even explain it now if I tried! All I can say is massive energetic healing.
Any action towards bettering yourself, your life, your body, your health, and your relationships is an act of self-love.
Every day I have the blessing and privilige of helping others live a life rooted more deeply in self-love while truly freeing themselves from self-loathe.
To care for yourself, to allow yourself to heal, to truly understand and listen to yourself, that is self-love.
When we look at the world we can all have very different perspectives. I respect them all. I find that perspective is highly based on your beliefs, your mindset, and the energy and love in your own heart and soul.
I truly believe that the more love we have for ourselves then the more love we can radiate out into the world and thus, the more love we can receive.
Any amount of outwardly, worldy, universal 'peace' must first come from inner peace.
I invite you to join me on my Self-Love Creation and Self-Loathe Liberation workshop.
All the information is on the page which I am linking in the comments below; you can register there too!
10% of every registration will be donated to YMCA-Miller Family and Big Brothers Big Sisters of Ventura County
I can't wait to see you there...
<3
P.S. If you felt touched by the story I shared and feel like you could really use some in depth healing around this I again encourage you to reach out to Mike Marschhausen he specializes in Theta Healing and does it full time. If you need me to connect you to him I can or just message him on your own :)
Xx,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit