To say I miss this would be an understatement but to say I’m ready for it would be a lie
Prep is a full-time commitment and although it is not extremely different from my ‘normal’ day to day life, it’s just a different level of investment
I don’t take prep lightly and I feel this mentality is harmful for some but helpful for me
By seeing prep as a serious commitment, I then feel personally More responsible to take it more seriously
Which is probably why I am able to be 110% in and have never struggled to follow the plan perfectly
Why then am I not ready to recommit to a prep?
Well it’s crazy because mentally, in regard to food and my body I’m in one of the best places I’ve ever been
Really the perfect place to start a prep from given it would be out of pure love and passion for the sport and my goals not for the physique changes
But my body is not in a place to prep again YET!
I also am soooo happy bc this year my family is taking some trips together and it’s been so long since we have done that so I feel super blessed and grateful for what’s to come
While I can prep when traveling, it’s not my fav thing to do. I prefer to be a hamster in a wheel on prep. I don’t want any new variables comin in. Blinders on
I made a post to update more on what’s goin on right now and what my goals are that I’ll share tomorrow.
Honestly though, people who love the stage but can’t get off it won’t win like the people who love the stage yet know when it’s time to walk off for a bit and make positive changes
I have full belief that my time will come again and I believe even stronger that my body will support me along the way
I believe that my best is yet to come and is coming because of what I’ve been through and where I’m at now
I see every aspect of this as a gift & a choice
There’s a picture I took after my show in 2017 that I snapped to some of my Snapchat bffs & it included “I feel like myself again”
This sport didn’t cause my problems, it just revealed the problems that I already had and those that I am capable of solving
What’s something this sport or a passion has taught you? I’d love to hear
Bookmark this page or screenshot this image for the Next time you’re not feeling confident about your body!
Whether that’s feeling like you’re not seeing any progress, not ready for a show, feeling like you’ve fallen off track, or when you are just adjusting to some more or less body fat, ask yourself these 4 questions!
Hope this helps bring you more peace in your body!
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One of the highlights of the speaking engagements I do at the Online Supercoach events in NY are these amazing signed frames
My mission is always to make an impact whenever I go to speak.
To be able to see it on paper, reconnect to it anytime I’m feelin bleh, and using it to anchor deeper into my purpose is so priceless to me
I’m excited to be cohosting an event in San Diego with AJ Camila Fandino and Rachael Takesaka for boss ladies who want to step into their power as the female leader they are meant to be, connect with other amazing women, and learn tools and knowledge to implement in your own business!
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I Was So Ashamed of Myself
After I got back from working a booth at the Olympia I found myself going back to old habits
➡️comparing myself to other athletes
➡️feeling like I had to work off or justify anything extra
➡️completely skewing the way I looked in my mind to be much worse than reality
➡️focusing on the numbers
➡️wanting to control EVERYTHING
➡️letting other people’s judgments get to me
➡️not giving myself any grace
➡️feeling SUPER ashamed that I had ‘gone backwards’
I knew I had to do something about it
One of the things I teach the competitors I work with is to identify their triggers
For me, & many of the women I’ve talked to, these are a lot of common ones
It was crazy to me though because I thought I “solved” my problems with food
I quickly remembered it has to be a conscious daily choice.
When I was in prep I just followed the plan, so I didn’t have to even think about it
But when you step into a new identity of “off season mode” with entirely different goals & some serious things to sort through
It doesn’t always work like that
I went back to what I knew about food freedom. I thought about what I’ve helped my clients with. I remembered what I did in 2015-2017 to overcome these behaviors
But I applied it to myself as a competitor who truly wants to continue to compete & be damn good
I was able to see where & why these patterns were coming up, what identity I needed to live in to feel better about myself & food, & I HAD to set new goals & standards that spanned well beyond a show day, a photo shoot, or an event
The only way I could release myself from the grips & pain of these behaviors was to let go of control, redefine my needs, & MAKE PEACE with where I was at
Since then, I haven’t had any binges, I haven’t compared my off season to anyone else’s, & I absolutely love the way I look
THIS is a healthy place to not just live from but also prep from
I think most competitors are only living up to a quarter of their true potential.
To truly feel fulfilled and excited by this journey in ways unimaginable peace, fulfillment, and gratitude all have to be found internally before they can be rewarded / represented externally
Last year I was able to keep going and going because I had spent Dec2015-April2017 making peace and being at peace with who I was and where I was
I’ll have longevity in this sport because I work ON myself before I work for anything else
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Some feedback from my last show was to come in “more conditioned with separation in the abdominals”.
Took this photo moments before leaving for show day fun and a second coat of tan
(Peep the sheets covering ALL the hotel furniture lmaooooo looks kind of creepy actually but gotta do what you gotta do)
I have been working my abs consistently over the months off stage and way more so the past 2 months
I’ve never had blocky abs but have always had the side and mid lines w lil dimple lookin things on the abs hahaha
I’m really committed to putting on more muscle and having a solid base to prep from
I’m excited to see how I’ve developed over the past few months and I’m looking forward to continuing to develop muscle for the coming months
No set competition plans right now other than figuring out what type of program my body is going to respond to
I am working closely with my own coach to make sure we find what’s right for me
In the meantime...💪🏻🧠🥩🍚 😴repeat
On another note: some people think it’s strange to train according to another persons feedback.
But honestly, I love the look of the bikini division and the judges know what to look for.
If they have feedback for me, I’m going to take it because I want to look more and more like the best of em
If I didn’t like the look of the division I’d either stop competing or find a new league.
But my hearts in the NPC now and I got big visions and goals
What do you think?
The all too familiar cycle...
So, why does it happen? And how can we make the cycle better?
Well, when you overeat or binge it is likely out of alignment with the version of yourself you’d like to be or see yourself as (your identity)
So, if you take an action that’s not aligned with your identity, say bikini competitor, then you’re going to feel guilty.
Guilt is a phenomenon that describes the feeling we get when we do something we don’t consider normal behavior for ourselves.
So, what do most people do?
Punish / Purge
Restriction or purging can be done in many ways in an effort to “reverse the damage”
Some people do extra cardio or limit their caloric intake, fast, or even try to throw it up
Then what happens?
Hunger sets in and you get a little taste and can’t stop or you make a huge meal because you “haven’t eaten all day”
And the cycle repeats itself...
So, now to overcome it.
Well, I discussed in a recent video getting through phase 1 Overeating and binging (here)
Phase 2: feeling guilty.
Guilt is an emotional manifestation of an identity disconnect.
Reconnect to who you are and forgive yourself by acknowledging what happened, what triggered it, and how you can use that knowledge for prevention now
Phase 3: Punishing is a result of feeling guilty and bad about it.
It’s also a result of thinking that it is going to destroy you, your body, & who you are so you try to cover that up/ make up for it
This is SO important to stop. This phase is what really creates the perpetuation of the cycle
Putting an end to this part though really involves introspection.
It often times comes down to new expectations & standards to meet the needs of your NEW goals
This is something I guide my clients through for objective guidance to discovery
Phase 4: you get hungry because you’ve either done more cardio or you’ve somehow gotten rid of the food you ate or would have eaten.
If you have a binge or overeat, drink lots of water & tune into your body’s needs.
Eat within 4-5 hours even if it’s something light & build up the meals from there.
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The way you look is arbitrary.
Some people will love it others will hate it and many will judge it.
But what matters more than the way you look?
1. The way you feel about the way you look
2. The way you treat yourself on a physical and mental level
3. The way you express yourself, your needs, and your standards to the world
4. The way you treat others
5. The way you handle change
Our looks are guaranteed to always change.
You could wake up with a big ol pimple tomorrow or in 30 years with wrinkled skin.
Regardless, if you can be happy with those 5 things and anything else that you hold valuable or meaningful in your life, then isn’t that what matters??
I’m taking care of myself with proper nutrients, movements, and recovery
I spend time on my mindset daily (not talking about listening to a podcast or reading a book—I’m talking about implementation)
I make my needs clear to the world through my actions and the people I surround myself with & boundaries i set.
I have been described by others in positive ways and I go out of my way for other people and would consider myself a genuine and conscientious person
I love change and embrace it. I don’t particularly love a wrench thrown in plans but I can handle it when it happens.
Because of these reasons, when I look in the mirror I can find peace even if I don’t feel it right away
But then again, some days you’re just feelin yourself 😎💁🏻♀️
I’m good so life’s good😊🙌🏻 When was the last time you felt confident or at peace when you looked in the mirror?
What determines that happiness?
Is it the amount of lines on your stomach or the number on the scale?
Or is there a deeper requirement to gain your own approval of yourself?
Take some time to reflect on what truly makes you feel CONFIDENT and at PEACE with great LOVE for your body & yourself
Let me know what it is for you😍
One of the SCARIEST things I’ve ever done...
A year ago I quit my day job to work for myself full time and it was one of the most freeing (yet scary) things I’ve ever done for myself
I loved my jobs but working multiple jobs, running my own business, and being a full-time student, while also prepping for my bikini comps was just crazy
I couldn’t go ALL in for myself in my business the way I needed to to make the impact I am committed to
I stood up in front of a room of people (who I’d just spoken in front of) & promised to put my two weeks in
I wrote it while waiting for my flight to board & legit almost missed my flight from NY to CA 😰
I didn’t tell anyone. I didn’t want anyone’s limiting beliefs or opinions to get in the way of me following my souls calling & true need at the time
Once it was done I slowly put the word out and the responses were mixed but I knew what was best for me
From there I launched my podcast, found my true niche that I love so so so much and just want to serve at the highest level and know I’m meant to be here to help, improved my wellbeing and way of life, and found a happiness I didn’t truly truly realize I could just “decide to have” until I did😍
When I was growing up (lol I’m still 22 and feel like I’m experiencing serious growing pains rn) my parents told me the best thing to do is what you love🙌🏻
I never ever did anything I didn’t love. I lived by this belief that I could make a living, be happy, & change the world by doing what I was meant to do
It’s not always easy
Sometimes I question if I’m crazy & should go back to a “regular” job
Running my own business is really intense. But it’s taught me so so much and I’m always learning
Every once in awhile I think I might just barge into big buildings and take them over (idk why lol)
Often times I cry soooo intensely about the pains i want to heal in the world which lights my fire even more
The best part?
I wake up with this smile every day &
I look forward to every task on my to do list because there was a time in my life I was longing to just be doing more for my mission so now I don’t take a single thing for granted
What’s your big dream? What’s stopping you?
5 Deeper Reasons you are Binge Eating or Overeating + How to Understand & Overcome It! [video included]
Binging and Overeating...
This can happen to anyone and I’ve see it happen to people who never saw it coming
Unfortunately, this is all too common for #bikinicompetitors and usually begins after a season or set show is complete
But why does it happen?
It’s not always because you followed a clean eating meal plan
It’s not always because you didn’t eat x,y,z foods for months on end
It’s not always even because you have “no more willpower”
This happens as a result of the psyche
No meal plan can save you from this
I mean, some people even say “I won’t do it again! Tomorrow, no more binging, or late night snacking, or eating everything in sight”
Which in and of itself is a meal plan
A plan for your meals
Here’s the deal.
Many of the things I listed can cause that or make it worse 100% the stats will even tell you that.
The more you restrict the more you build up the desire to binge
Hellooooo making a list on your phone of all the places or treats you’re gunna eat #postshow
Something I see a lot of girls do is try to attack the problem where they can see it
Like playing whack a mole. Instead of turning off the machine they hit the mole Only when it rears it’s head
So what’s the root of this unfortunate cycle?
I made an acronym highlighting 5 key components to overeating/“binging” (not always the same thing!!!)
Beliefs: the truths we hold/live by with regard to ourselves and the world around us
Identity: how we have defined and determined ourselves to be along with the behaviors, actions, and rules that fit that mold
Naming: how we label foods, behaviors, and timelines of our life or expectations
Gaps: the pieces of ourselves or our lives that feel void or have a disconnect to where we want to be
Energy: the power we give to everything around us
Now I could leave it at:
the way we think/ things we believe about ourselves is going to impact our behaviors and our behaviors will either create a positive feeling (if it aligns with our identity and naming while usually closing the gaps) or a negative one (if it doesn’t align with our identity or naming and actually widens the gaps all of which creates guilt)
I could also share that we have reinforcement of behavior that happens with our neurotransmitters by which when we perform a natural task, like eating, a reward is provided (such as energy, comfort, happiness, life) that is motivating enough to keep doing it.
This happens with a release of dopamine when we eat
When we eat meals heavy in carbohydrates we actually even release serotonin just from ANTICIPATING the meal itself and then it spikes even more when eating (hence why we feel like la la la la this is all good while we are doing it and then like poop after)
It’s a literal high
But, I can’t walk into your brain with you and turn these natural faucets off
What I can do though, is work with you to eliminate these urges, behavior patterns, and the action provoking beliefs that trigger overeating or binges
I’m not your therapist, or a recovery specialist and am not going to claim to ‘cure’ an eating disorder
HOWEVER, it is undeniable that many of my clients have significantly transformed their relationship with food while working with me in my food freedom, post-show PTG process based programs, and mindset + self love consulting.
Many of whom have actually experienced a massive shift within the first two weeks that they find themselves capable of sustaining with great freedom and ease
Want to experience a complete shift in your relationship with food, your body, and your goals?
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I would love to invite you to work with me
My programs work in conjunction with your current meal plan and coaching. Everything provided is solely based on the inner work from your mindset, beliefs, identity, gaps, naming, and relationship to yourself and your body. I do not write meal plans for this
This is a transformation of within that will naturally allow for the physical applications of work and knowledge to emerge and support you in a beautiful way.
It’s not about putting up more barriers, it’s about taking them down and building peace of mind, greater sense of control, and ultimate freedom of mind around / about food
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Ohhhh boy do I miss competing!
I’ve fallen in love with every aspect of this sport. It’s a commitment day in and day out to be better than before.
When I lift weights it’s not just to show up and workout.
It’s to be conscious about every movement, every contraction, every damn lift.
When I eat food it’s not just a matter of putting a meal together.
It’s being meticulous about how much, when, and why I need it
Every time I pose it’s not just about going through the motions.
It’s seeing the angles, learning more about my body, and allowing my posing to transform as I transform as a person.
Sleep is not just about hoping to get enough rest for the next day.
It’s finding ways to capitalize on it to grow and recover
Even drinking water isn’t to be taken lightly. It’s measured, specific, and has a purpose
And the most important of all? The mindset. Every thought about my body, my food, my goals matters.
Journaling, visualizing, and stepping into my highest identity every day is KEY to making everything else MEAN something deeper than surface level
Every supplement, every check in, every thought, every meal, every workout, every rest day, every nights sleep, EVERYTHING
It all works together to create a new version of ourselves.
And if we can’t commit to growth in every area, then we are shorting ourselves.
To execute perfectly on all the physical work without consistently building ourselves up as a soul, as a human, as a mind;
It would be like having a computer without a monitor; useless...
BUILD. MORE. THAN. JUST. A. BODY❤️💪🏻🧠
👆🏻That is my mission, my purpose, my commitment, To help other people do exactly that🧠