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 One of the worst feelings is being so ashamed of your body that you cover up & miss experiences that would be amazing
I’ve been there though. There were days I would instantly wrap up in a towel or jump in the pool before people could see me I used to sit in a towel by the pool or not even go in I was also made fun of for my size as a kid & it stuck with me I was called fat names that I carried with me into young adulthood I told myself stories like if I wasn’t super lean with a flat stomach or muscles showing then I wasn’t good enough to be seen I used to feel like my body wasn’t aligned to my identity because my definition of the identity was based on expectations I was not ready to fulfill yet When I got really into fitness I thought I had to live up to others expectations Like all the girls on social media who represent fitness I thought unless I look like them then people will think I’m a fraud or a bad trainer or not fit enough to do bikini comps I thought I was supposed to be “the fit one” so I couldn’t have any extra body fat or a bigger waist or legs Or even after a show going from super lean to get in the pool with friends & be like yep so Im not that lean anymore But this isn’t something I deal with as much anymore. Thoughts cross my mind sometimes but I now know how to move through it Even taking this pic wasn’t about my body it was to document the experience Which I enjoyed happily in a bikini as a personal development coach, as a trainer, & oh ya as a HUMAN BEING We are many things all at once I am someone who is healthy, cares about & for my body, but also recognizes that life is so much more enjoyable w/o always worrying about how I look or if everyone is going to think I look ‘bigger’ or ‘smaller’ Funnily enough, the people who truly LOVE & care about me just get so excited about me being healthy, happy, & living my purpose Everyone else’s opinion or thoughts are unknown unless said. If you think someone is thinking something about you it’s a reflection of your own beliefs & thoughts of yourself Email Me 'Self-love Workshop’ and reference this blog for free access to the replay of an exclusive training I did diving into 3 of my favorite self&body love practices
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 You’re not always going to look “stage ready” or “prep lean” or sometimes even the way you want to or hoped you would
BUT can you still accept your body and love yourself anyways? I’ve been leaner & hated how I looked I’ve been leaner & loved how I looked I’ve had more fat & loved how I looked & hated it I’ve seen my body super lean & ready to step on stage & have loved that look I’ve also seen my body super flat & deflated looking All this & I now really know how to love & accept her From alllllll of these phases & changes over the years I’ve learned that it’s easy to go back & forth Love for your body Loathe for your body Even in the same day! & what it usually comes down to is how you treat your body, talk to and about yourself, and how you’re living I snapped this picture this morning, on vacation celebrating my graduation & living life I’m working out every morning with bands & body weight & loving it & we are so active here in the mountains and exploring! I felt so good this morning after my leg workout so I took this pic. I’m obviously super happy Not even because it’s “the best I’ve ever looked” or “better than usual” but literally because it’s my body, we did an amazing workout & I thought I looked awesome I love my body now, & I’ll continue to throughout the remainder of my building & soon into cutting But I don’t do any of this for the look as much as I do for the love of the sport & what this lifestyle brings my brain & my overall sense of self I am so committed to helping other competitors who have been in the battle or are battling with their body image I have girls messaging me daily about their relationship with their body, food, & their goals Post-show, prep, taking a break, thinking about competing ALL of it & I LOVE it It’s truly my passion work So I’m hosting a FREE* event in San Diego on October 12, 2019 for bikini competitors who want to make peace with food, their body, & their goals as well as develop the mindset required as an athlete in a physique based sport I have 7 spots left (forreal), if you’re interested in coming & want more info Email me with subject line 'event' now! *$35 to reserve seat will be given back to you when you arrive 😍  The more gratitude we have for allllll the ways our body works for us, the more we become naturally inspired to take care of it!
Our body is the home for our soul. It is both separate from us and part of us Neglecting it is neglecting yourself Comment your dear body, thank you for ___ statement below! Think of all the ways your body supports you in your life! If you need any examples, I shared a little letter I wrote to my body a few years ago today that still holds true and inspired this post . “Dear body, . Thank you... for carrying me throughout life and doing the best you can with everything that I throw at you Thank you for keeping me healthy and safe Thank you for allowing me to be free I always knew I could be free within you if I let go of the blocks and limits I built for myself within my mind I knew I could love you in all your forms and express that love through mindful living I always loved the way you supported and continue to support me in my journey This space is so beautiful Thank you for giving me this human experience Sincerely, the soul you house💖” . . Comment a statement for your body below!  To be truly free in this life, I believe we must first feel truly free within ourselves
Many things in life can bring us freedom But we are the only ones who can truly choose to experience it In order to experience it, we have to know what it feels like to create it inside of ourselves Life has always been so beautiful to me, no matter how hard the struggles I was facing were I turned to nature to bring me freedom and peace of mind many times I realized nature was always there, no matter what was going on in my world or the world, I knew nature would still be doing her thing I wanted to have that for myself and not rely on anything else When I committed to make freedom with myself and in myself it happened Taking the time to create that freedom within myself, my body, food, my goals, and many other areas of my life, allowed me to become like nature No matter what was happening in my world I could still be free because I had peace within me When you prioritize your inner peace and the relationships that are impacting it the most, you’ll find that freedom truly feels so much more free If you would like to begin transforming your relationship with food, your body, and your goals then shoot me a message now and let’s talk to see if and how we can work together to make that happen PS isn’t this view incredible?! Deer Valley, Utah NEVER disappoints, missed this place and so happy to be here this week. Feels amazing to experience this bliss 🌲😍🌞  When we are in season competing show after show going for the next best placing or finally getting that NQ or for some working their way up to first callouts at a national show or their pro card or points for the Olympia, there tends to be this intense attachment to the end result
When really as competitors, we sometimes just need to make one minor tweak-physically & or mentally Sometimes it’s not a full improvement season and other times it is Sometimes it’s the way your bikini was sitting on your body and sometimes it’s your shape This sport is objective yes, but we can’t deny that we all go into it with a game plan and of course train according to the criteria Maybe your game plan is to do x y z shows because a physique like yours was rewarded in the past then you go and you look too lean or too full next to everyone else This doesn’t mean YOU failed or YOU suck at this and can’t make it in the sport or your physique is not A1 It just means you need to accept that it wasn’t your time at this show, move on, and go back to the drawing board We ALL are competitive We ALL want to win We ALL are working our assess off We ALL have a game plan But there can only be one crowned winner Many champions look at a loss as a variable but not a defining factor They know that there are so many things that go into wining the “game” and because they truly love it, they play anyways They improve their game on all levels They own their mistakes or downfalls as a competitor They keep a level head They LEARN A lot of the ones who really really want it, get tested over and over and over again Some give up Some blame the game Some move forward with a new plan It’s not so much about “not being good enough” or “ready” or “what they were looking for” it’s more about being willing to push anyways and understand that sometimes you just have to bring the right game plan to the right game and run every play with confidence At the end of the day though, even the person who came out on top has to have a game plan for the next show. She just gets to wear a crown while she drafts hers up 😉❤️💪🏻👑 Just keep going! &&& #buildmorethanjustabody  Some days you just require a little more grace and that’s OKAY
You may not feel like showing up every day but when you first acknowledge that you’re allowed to feel that way then you can begin moving through it The worst thing we can do for ourselves is beat ourselves up for having emotions Feeling = healing Emotion = energy in motion Let it flow, so it doesn’t stagnate and get stuck somewhere in your body or show up in other areas of your life I shared about how I was feeling this morning on an IG live today (celestial_fit) Tbh, I was just so overwhelmed Which I RARELY ever feel since I thrive off of having something to do all the time & I love everything I do But I know that overwhelm is an identity disconnect so I started by reconnecting to who I AM and who I need to BE in order for this to pass I also expressed my feelings, getting them out of my system so they don’t feel like some weird thing I have to hide like an anomaly—we all feel lol Then realized how much practicing gratitude daily and being present in the awesomeness of each day and each month helps me Because as soon as I got into my day I was like oooof I LOVE this shit And my overwhelm began drifting Plus, crossing things off my to do list made me feel super empowered and productive giving me the strength to face the rest of the day! And of course, the universe has a funny way of protecting us and sometimes we take for granted how amazing it is to have a packed day that when part of that gets taken away we are like damn, but also okay I will be grateful for all the time I have and whatever fills it Just want you to know it’s ok to be a badass boss babe and have a day where you’re just like “omg I don’t know if I can show up today” because guess what, that’s part of being human Everyone faces it but it is much easier to move through moments like that when you have proactive and consistent daily rituals or practices and thought patterns established that make shifting as easy as snapping your fingers  It’s been a minute since I said “hi” on here and really just shared a bit about who I am behind the internet
Thought I’d shared some new things & some things I’ve not shared just for fun Would ❤️ to learn something about you too! Comment below for fun😍 🗒My mission is to help people build more than just a body. I didn’t pull this mission out of thin air though it really came from my own personal struggles & it continues to evolve beautifully 🧠I earned my bachelors degree in psychology and focused most of my studies on disordered eating, self-affect, body image, mindfulness, and other related topics 🧠I earned my associates in science degree and studied dietetics for a year but knew my passion was not in telling people HOW to eat 🧠I’ve always been a NASM certified personal trainer & my business started as strictly online training 4+ years ago & has changed since then All of this education really helps me serve my clients at a high level & I don’t regret getting my college degree even though I live in the generation of “just run your own business, college is a waste of money” it’s NOT if you spend it on the things that inspire you & can impact others 🦋I used to be very depressed & this gave me anxiety. But now I rarely experience depression, anxiety, or suicidal ideation 👫I’ve had more boyfriends than I’d like to admit over the years for many different reasons but then I found my person Robbie Robbins & it’s been 4 years of amazingness 💪🏻Competing didn’t bring me the lifestyle, the lifestyle brought me competing 😻I crushed hard on Steven Tyler & Aerosmith is my fav🤘🏻 😳 I would rather have a horrible period every cycle for the rest of my life than none at all Almost a year ago I was told I was basically in menopause, I was 21 I cried for hours on end over multiple days thinking I would not be able to have kids one day Dr.s told me I had to take birth control like my life depended on it. Well, it made me suicidal, I threw it away & I got my period on my own a few months later & now am on my 6th consecutive month❤️🥳 🥤I haven’t had soda in over a decade Tell me something about you!⬇️  These 4 different factors can be massive contributors to mental struggles
Which means they can also be massive keys to moving through them Each of these plays a role in many of the struggles we face From disordered eating, negative body image, anxiety and depression, need for perfection, exercise abuse, self-loathing, & more Not just for “diagnosable” disorders but for many of our day to day challenges All four of these factors are can influence our decision making Including things like what we eat, how we treat others, the way we see ourselves, the way we work, the way we LIVE But when we take ourselves OUT of what we are dealing with and do not IDENTIFY ourselves within it We can find some of the keys to resolving the struggle It can make a big problem seem much more tangible and solvable when we do this Identifying with our problems connects us to them in a way where it feels like we are inseparable from them But identifying them with root causes such as a past experience as a child, an emotionally stressful situation, a negative thought pattern, or even your brain chemistry That turns something from “omg I can’t get through this” to, “ah, here’s the next step for me” much better! But we can’t always do this alone. Often times having an outsider perspective is the best thing we can do It is important to talk to people who understand what you’ve been through & have the tools to move through it It’s not so simple as we want it to be but when we talk to someone and face it, it is much smoother of a process Ready to make your breakthrough? Send me a Message saying “breakthrough” & if I believe I can help you then we will set up a time to chat & have ourselves a mini breakthrough coaching session We can work through part of what’s going on for you and take it from there Looking forward to it❤️ If you’re wondering how these calls work feel free to reach out, you also can see my testimonial playlist on YouTube or my testimonial section on my website celestial.fit Chat soon xx  When you’re in your improvement season, you no longer look in the mirror & see new lines or a leaner body
You see a rounder fuller shape At first it can be really hard watching the lines you worked hard for fade and the muscle slowly be covered in a small amount of fat every month that passes The scale goes up, measurements change, and you’re clothing isn’t so loose anymore Sometimes it can be really uncomfortable In the beginning we often blame ourselves like we are doing something wrong or we shouldn’t have eaten what we did or taken a break or gotten a little more relaxed We paint this perfect picture in our head of how we “should have been” instead of seeing where we really are Sometimes this makes us spiral out of control with food or our workouts Some people hide in shame Others go back to what they’re comfortable with, hopping into a prep or a mini cut Even though the off-season is where the body is built for the stage Many do this because they get scared Like you’ve “gained too much” or “gone too far” or “have lost all discipline” when really You just need to shift your identity & create new standards for yourself After a prep, you’re still in “prepping for a show” mentality from your “competitor in prep” identity Until you switch that to an identity that serves you for the improvement season or a little time off It will continue to be the root cause of much of your guilt & decision making Here’s what you can do: 1. Before your prep is over set realistic standards and mini goals for yourself that don’t have anything to do with “staying super lean”, “getting smaller”, or “not letting myself go” Positive & realistic goals only 2. Understand that this is a new phase which means a new version of you is required So ask yourself, “What does the improvement szn version of myself do to continue feeling healthy & fulfilled in life after a show?” 3. Make your mental health your priority. If your mind is working against you, it’ll be difficult to convince your body to work for you 4. Join my free coaching series going over post-show personal development for the post show blues by clicking HERE  No words could describe how I felt after this show
And honestly, words wouldn’t do that journey there or that day any justice Oooof love that girl. Love her so much that I’m really really really committed to continuous improvement Seeing this photo always motivates the hell out of me I went from 5th place the show before (my first show back from mental healing hiatus) to first place in novice and 3rd place in open in a class of approx 15+ girls I prepped through the holidays and learned I actually loved doing that, and am planning to do again this year! This show was a true reflection of how much I had/was falling in love with the sport I walked off Stage August 2017 like, omg I love this so much I need to do this again! As if i just got off my favorite amusement park ride, the high, the rush! But the rush didn’t die, it fueled me to continue prep all the way to February and from there even more I truly found what I love and it guided me to new depths of my passions The stage is a place I love to be because it, along with the entire preparations & recoveries, has taught me more than I ever could have imagined The stage represents my passion and purpose for me It is like a reminder of all that I’ve experienced, been through, done to and for myself, and have committed to My mind has been keeping the stage in my vision but the girl I see up there in my head requires this growth phase of my journey right now The good news is, I’m still loving ALL of this and I am no longer attached to the chase but instead more committed to the art of creating what’s expected, trusting this path, and believing that the universe’s timing is always perfect ❤️💪🏻❤️ |
Celeste Rains-Turk
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