Something only a diary should read

Sharing something that is probably best for a private diary... But here it goes...

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"When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves"

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Sometimes in life we try to "run away" or "escape". But the truth is that no matter what the issue is, if we physically change the circumstance, but do not change our mentality, then we will always suffer the same issues. 

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When we live our lives trying to run from our problems we cannot grow. The growth occurs when we finally take responsibility for the pain, or the problems we face and do something about it. Even when it may not be "in our control" we can respond differently and generate change. 

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I have changed my mentality a lot in the past year and even more so in the past 7 months. I approach life much differently and it has benefited me immensely. 

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My depression is no longer at the level it used to be. I do not feel like I am surrendering to the darker "me" anymore. I used to be consumed by it. It would scare me and cause me anxiety. I would go through a day wondering if soon I would be at my lowest point again and feel like dying or hiding was the only solution. 

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I started to change the way I respond and interact to the people and things around me and my mind began to shift with it. Now outside sources do not have as great of an affect on the inner darkness I sometimes experience and I am able to accept myself for all of these parts of me. 

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I accept and love who I am and when I do that,

I am at peace with all parts of me, including the pieces that are works in progress, or the parts that have the power to consume me. 

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I have reframed these "negative" things. Without them, without those sides of me, I would not be all the other things that make me the person I am. So I am forever grateful to the challenges, the struggles, and the "failures", because those are the things that make me and my life truly amazing.