A fu*king 👸🏻 own it 👏🏻
Recognize your worth, your value, your heart. Command respect from and for yourself and be compassionate with your soul. I’ve learned that if I judge my emotions or my experiences too harshly then I block myself from their purpose in my life. If I am open minded, present, in tune, flexible, soft…I can maneuver them more easily and with less shame
It’s not always easy. Especially when you’re a woman who wants what is best for herself and tends to go to great lengths to get as close to the illusion that is perfection
Which is what makes letting go and focusing on doing your best right here and now so powerful. I have a quote in my office that supports me in staying grounded “If you fulfill your obligations everyday, you don’t need to worry about the future”- @jordan.b.peterson
I love this because it puts more emphasis on the execution of each daily discipline more than anything else. It also eliminates the fixation on the future and allows us to see that what truly matters is the experience we are having or allowing for right NOW which ultimately will catalyze future experiences or processes
I currently feel like I’m living the life I always dreamt of. If you read my old journals you’d see I really have brought a vision to life. But this couldn’t have happened without intentional daily effort and belief in myself
I share my process in a book I wrote and released in 2016. You can search for “Believe your way to Badass” and order from Amazon, Barnes and Noble, Google, and More. You can get is HERE!
My life lost all color.
Everything around me was dull and nothing that meant anything to me mattered the same way. People stopped telling me what they always told me & tell me now…that my smile is contagious or I’m sunshine when i walk in a room or I’m always so positive and upbeat or brightening up their day.
I missed these compliments and felt maybe this part of me died with my mom. Maybe I’d never be that girl again. Im glad I was wrong. I don’t know exactly what started to bring vibrancy back into my life but as it returned I felt more like myself again.
I was different. I functioned with a familiar darkness that seemed to have made me more fragile but also more empathetic, reflective, understanding… I don’t believe it was “time” or “space” that brought the light back even though people are quick to say that everything gets better with those two things.
I actually think it was learning to live with and accept what changed in my life and find a path forward with this new normal rather than being stuck wishing for the old life or old me. How unfair to expect I’d ever be the same after such a traumatic life change and experience. When I gave myself grace and compassion and allowed myself to feel I found that more of my light was coming through too.
It felt a lot like clouds passing over the sun, sometimes I was allowed and able to illuminate everything around me & other times it was like something was in my way. I realized that none of this meant my light was gone forever though, it more so meant that sometimes I would have days where I could shine really bright & days I felt more dim or only kept the light to myself.
It’s difficult to really capture in words how it feels to be more myself again because with my grief experience one day I can feel like I turned a new leaf & the next day or week or month I might feel like the littlest leaf that falls on me weighs as much as the entire world & no matter how hard I try to push through it, I have to acknowledge that it is necessary & ok to sit with it all before trying to push. I celebrate the light in my life, my soul…& express the gratitude I feel to see colors again
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This is by far my absolute best look to date
I feel so proud, happy, & grateful to be ending my season knowing I brought my best every day & ultimately to the stage
I had some regrets about the first couple shows of my season because I knew it wasnât my best & I needed to be better but in reflecting, I realize those each served a different purpose for me as an athlete
One was about letting go & the other about accepting a new chapter. They both allowed me to bring a better & a best to my final shows
I nailed it up there & I had SO MUCH FUN! I soaked in every moment, even when I was standing on the sides for callouts I felt so happy & present
I think most competitors at this level want to come out on top. When you âloseâ or donât get the placing you wanted it can either light your fire more, put it out, or have no impact at all
I am somewhere between no impact & fire being lit more
I recognize that Iâll live this lifestyle regardless of the stage but the stage does give me lots to look forward to & work toward because I LOVE & respect it
But this is deeper than what is tangible
I want to represent mental health for competitors on that stage. I love the thought of bringing even more of a platform and opportunity to confidently showcase what it means to #BUILDMORETHANJUSTABODY
I love that every competitor who steps on that stage had to overcome something & theyâve fostered courage, strength, patience, persistence, discipline, & other attributes or beliefs to support their journey
Itâs a mental game. Youâll face challenges day in & day out, nothing is guaranteed, & only 1 person can be the champ which means more will lose than win
BUT it is in the daily pursuit of the tangible goals such as a physique, title, trophy, opportunity that we become the champion for ourselves
Even when you may not get what you want on the surface level, all the validation you need can be found within you, joy is in the moments you triumphed when you wanted to quit, passion is found in your habits, & even though âyour time will comeââ¦the time that counts most is now because in each moment you show up for yourself you are winningâ¤ï¸ðð
This was my 2nd national show ever and my first one with the guidance of @seeyoulaterleaner who I’m going to make this first reflection post about
Adam took me under his wing in May and has supported me with so much passion, detail orientation, insight, and integrity
He is as genuine, humble, and smart as he seems
When I decided to hire Adam, i knew he would be a game changer for me because his level of commitment and belief matched mine
We have made so much progress together and he has taken such great care of me
Training and macros aside, he truly cares. I spent the week at his new house leading into my last two shows
He, @mrsseeyoulaterleaner and @the_fran_chise did nothing but make me feel comfortable and supported
It was really fun and you might think it was all bodybuilding but me and Adam are very aligned in our messages. I always preach to #BUILDMORETHANJUSTABODY and he always says #morethanmacros
We talked about so many things unrelated to sport and had so much fun
Every moment was cherished and I felt so overcome with presence and blessed to be taken into this team with so much love
All my teammates have been amazingly supportive too
I couldn’t have asked for anything better
All my expectations have been far exceeded. It makes it so easy to encourage others to consider working with Adam because my experience has been so positive
He truly peaked me to my best ever and made the whole process feel so easy and effortless
We pushed hard this prep to bring my best and it was all worth it
I may not have placed or gotten the callouts Most of us want but I got what my heart and soul wanted which was my best, most confident package to date
Now I know he is going to take me to the next level with this building season. I know what I have to do now and his guidance as well as my mentality & the pep i still have in my step even after a long season is going to help me have the best improvement season I’ve ever had, I just know it
I will reflect and share more on the entire North Americans experience in future posts, but for now, I just feel so grateful for the support I had to come in at my best💚🙌🏻
Let the work you put in gratify every part of you so that the will to win is powered by the knowledge that you’ve done everything you could for yourself
It is not always easy to “take an L” but taking an L knowing you could’ve done more or you didn’t enjoy every step along the way would be much much worse
As I head into my final show of the season I am celebrating all my work and the passion, love, and gratitude I’ve brought to every workout, minute of cardio, meal, posing session, and allllll the demands of this sport
The lifestyle I live brings me so much joy and empowerment
It hasn’t been the easiest of roads for me and there are many things I’ve had to and am dealing with personally but that makes this road here so much sweeter
I love the process and because of that, I’ll continue to have longevity and peace of mind knowing my time is coming for the gratification of a tangible win to come close to the energy I feel within me towards this journey and my efforts
Love to win every day you put in work and believe / know it is possible for you to win / get the result you want and the rest will follow