Bodybuilding as an Outlet

Apparently bodybuilding doesn’t solve our problems 🧐😳😫🙄


But it can be an excellent distraction...


I learned the hard way.


I was pushing so many of my feelings about my life away to focus on the one thing I could control completely;


What I ate and how I moved.


Once I came off the high I realized I had shit to work through still, apparently it doesn’t just disappear?


I had to come to terms with the things I was running away from. It was time to face them and make changes.


Sometimes a bandaid can do the trick, but only for so long until you risk infection, and it grows and grows...


I know it’s pretty graphic but that is what’s happening with the emotions/pain you cover up by controlling your physical world


It just starts getting worse in worse but you don’t realize it because you can’t even see it under the bandaid.


Then when you rip the bandaid off it’s suddenly a big “OH HELL NO HOW DID THIS EVEN HAPPEN?!!”


You finally realize you HAVE to do something about it before it kills you...


I never thought that competing would keep me from entirely seeing everything I was hiding from.


But it was doing such a good job I couldn’t even tell!


(Sneaky lil chicken n veg eatin, stair master climbin, booty kickbacker, bikini wearin’, sparkly devil)


So when the shows stopped and things started slowing down and the reigns were loosened ever so slightly...BAM


EVERYTHING HIT ME AT ONCE!


All I wanted to do was crawl in a lil shell!


Because, even though I wanted/needed to make improvements for my next prep...


I also felt like the heaviest weight I was lifting was the weight of my emotions, doubts, fears, and pain that I ignored.


But there’s beauty in this. I was able to fully reconnect with myself.


I could finally Go into the pain knowing it would be tough but necessary


I had to remember the pain of staying where I was


(depressed, anxious, feeling down in the dumps)


was only going to get worse and be harder to deal with than if I just moved through the pain of getting over it now!


I’m so glad I did. I try to become very aware of when my habits are healthy...


Or if they are a result of me wanting to “run away” (even if it is to a healthy outlet, it is still an outlet!)


Sometimes a gym sesh really can pull you out of a lil rut.


But full on emotional turmoil and pain can’t just be solved through the control of our physical world.


We have to go within!


That’s why my mission is to help others build more than just a body!


I absolutely love the sport and cannot wait to start another prep. A big reason i love it so much is for all that it teaches me!


Have you experienced anything similar? I’d love to hear about it!


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