Holidays, Grief, and Impermanance

I miss the way things were with my whole family ❤️ since losing my momma, things have not and will never be the same

The impermanence of life as we know it is so apparent with every passing day too

When you’re so present with family around holidays or day to day life, it is beautiful because you’re not thinking about the potential of loss or grief or change…you’re just there with them cherishing the moment and making a memory

I’m grateful for all the times we had together that felt like they’d last forever

Looking back, I can see that the time spent with the loved ones I’ve lost was all that mattered

I often find myself wanting to strive and achieve and go for more and more in my life to make a bigger impact and it’s moments like this where I am reminded that that’s important but not at the risk or cost of enjoying time with those we love

It’s hard to separate myself sometimes but spending most holidays alone the past few years and just spending most of the days working on my business projects (which I love to do) has always served as a reminder of what my heart always longs for which is the unconditional love and the warmth felt with family❤️❤️

If you are alone or experiencing the weight of grief or loss or missing people this holiday or going through a challenging time, I hope you’ll allow yourself to feel those emotions as they are expressions of love and values, and I encourage you to make time to find peace with yourself and take comfort in your faith and find the courage to be vulnerable not just with yourself and God but also people who love you and want to be there for you

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