I wore a crop top to the gym today because I want to be more open with my body outside of being competition lean.
After developing a poor relationship with my body in the past I now prioritize checking in with how I’m feeling about my body and the reasons I have for feeling these ways.
Often times, I find that negative thoughts towards my body are coming from standards I’ve set for myself or which I think have been set for me.
I recently realized that I have been waking up feeling lean and muscle curvy and wanting to just be naked bc I feel so comfortable in my body which I’ve worked hard to achieve for years day in and day out (I am being super real right now i know but i know this will help at least one other human)
but then I eat so much and drink so much that I don’t look as lean so I am like “oh I have a roll I should cover” which is just plain silly bc I work so hard and I legit LOVE on my body day in and day out through exercise, nutrition, and positive mindset practices that help me to optimize my experience as a soul in this physical body
and I want to showcase that you can and should love the shape of your body at every stage in the game ESPECIALLY when you are putting energy and effort into it consistently.
When it comes to standards, I find that I am always critical of myself in EVERY area of life which can be and has been a VERY awesome domino for my successes.
However, sometimes I set standards based on what I think others will think of me which I have to recognize in my check in processes with myself.
So, I might not wear the crop top because then I’ll be ‘bigger for a bikini competitor’ to someone who doesn’t understand the lifestyle or my journey which i remind myself of and then feel fine.
Or I think that if I’m not the fittest in the room then I’m not the best option for coaching which also isn’t true because I’m damn good at what i do and am literally changing lives daily with my coaching systems involving self love, mindset, confidence, behavior change, and of course Fitness and nutrition.
I’m a badass who genuinely cares for people and my body represents someone who takes pride in herself from a space of love, therefore, my value is not correlated directly to my physique and appearance but rather to my expertise and application of this knowledge.
I write this because I want you to know that even I struggle with these things.
As a self love coach, I value self love and placing emphasis on this work every day, this doesn’t make me weak, it makes me stronger.
Saying someone who works on loving themselves more can’t be a self love coach is like saying a professional who works out at the gym or on the court to improve their physique or skill even more doesn’t know what to do.
Life is a constant practice and those who continue to see value in growth are the ones who end up growing.
What do you think?
Can you relate?
Does this help put things in perspective or give you ideas for your negative thoughts?