I can look at my body & see more tissue, fat & muscle.
On surface level, I can perceive how I look differently than someone else might perceive it.
Same thing applies in a prep.
But at the end of the day, only I know what has truly happened to bring me here.
It goes beyond what you eat & how you train. There are so many variables!
I finally feel I’m at this point in improvement season where I’m comfortable with letting go of the ideas that won’t serve me & to only focus on what will.
I have to be real with myself & I am grateful my coach is real with me, too.
This week when I saw him he really reinforced that I’m fine where I am & a year of growth will be much more beneficial to me than trying to mini cut, build, mini cut, build...
I really appreciated that reminder because it’s so easy to get caught up in our fears.
For me it was fear of having not built muscle since my show (literally nightmares of me looking the same or smaller on stage meaning none of my hard work mattered—deeper lessons for me to focus on here honestly), fear of losing what I’ve built, fear of more discomfort & weight gain that sometimes feels out of my control despite my positive efforts.
But that’s it, positive efforts.
I can’t fear what I need for success.
In growing my business there’s been times where I want to change things or back track just to be comfortable, but when I would it would only set me back.
Same thing with bodybuilding.
Entertaining distracting ideas will only detract from the growth I am committed to.
I feel more at peace with that & can acknowledge my efforts in the gym will rationally pay off, my commitment to my dreams will come to fruition because I’ve found sustainable measures, my body will continue to change & I accept that.
I am willing & ready to keep doing the work to grow and the more I focus on how much more effort and drive I have in the gym than I ever have before, then the more likely I’ll be to incur more of that drive and set a new normal so next prep, I can make strides toward that goal with a level head & clear vision.
Who else is in improvement season? What do you choose to focus on?