My perspective has shifted so much since my first show…the way I can critique myself or receive feedback, my patience, & I have way more respect for the process now than ever.
I am different than the girl in every photo & I love that the stage captures these moments in time as an athlete.
I can look at these photos & remember how I was feeling or thinking going into or coming out of the show.
by the photo & show order…
1: 2015, 1st show, thought I should’ve done better bc I was used to winning in sports & got a wake up call. I also hid behind disordered eating.
2: fire was re lit in 2017 after I spent time healing internally. I went to this show thinking wow I’m proving to myself I can do this & I have the power to choose my perception.
3: so much more confidence than ever. I never felt so ready to compete & after an incredible reverse diet from the second photo show, I felt improved on so many levels. I won my novice class & I fell short on the open division where top 2 qualified for nationals. I got 3rd in a big class! I was so proud.
4: I was on a roll. It was my first double peak, I was better than ever, I knew I’d get my NQ & I did.
5: I didn’t feel confident at this show I didn’t like how I looked & knew it wasn’t my best but it was good to see body in different shape.
6: I remember going into this show feeling like yes this is my best this is what I came to do. I wanted to end that season at my best so I did this show. I knew I wasn’t ready for nationals. I began to accept what my coach always told me: patience.
7: finally on stage after all this 2020 craziness I’m so happy to be here.
8: I improved but can’t fall short again. I’ve worked hard to be more competitive & I know I can be I want feedback from more judges.
9&10: my first national show. I need to take this step as a competitor & prove to myself I have another level in me. I was so proud of myself for the prep of that year & how far I came. This show revealed to me so much room for growth.
Since then I’ve trained the best I ever have, prioritize recovery & health in a new way, & embrace the fact that I will get where I want to be bc I love the work.
I’d love to hear something you’ve learned!
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