I Never Shared How Sick I was Before my Last Bikini Competition

​I never shared this about my last competition... 

I pushed my body beyond the limits of the limits of those limits limits and I am SO proud of myself because I got that national qualification I went for even though it led to me being uncomfortably weak and sick. 

I took this photo that night after finals being sooo excited and feeling awesome!😍

But what you might not know is that the night before my competition I had a pounding headache that radiated through my whole body. 

I had aches that I couldn’t even ease no matter what I did. 

I couldn’t move, breathe, or sleep without pain. 

I could not swallow my own saliva without pain, I couldn’t open my mouth to speak without pain, and every breath Burned my throat.  

I couldn’t have water because of water cutting and depletion for the best package. 

I felt stress pulsing through me and I knew that wasn’t good for me either. 

I didn’t know if taking meds would mess with my stage aesthetic so I didn’t take anything, I didn’t want to wake my coach or teammates up so I didn’t text anyone, and I felt sooooo sick. 

Luckily my mom was with me and helped me with cold compress and I was able to sleep all of maybe one hour only to wake in the same pain. 

I knew my Teammate Jen had an early makeup appointment so I texted her and she was able to send a quick text to our coach since I couldn’t find his number. 

He said meds are okay and told me to sip on warm lemon water. 

The stage adrenaline and show day rush hit me and things seemed to dissipate allowing me to show up 100%🙏🏻

I am making this post because i want to just finally acknowledge myself and say i was and am SO proud of myself for hitting the stage despite how I felt. 

For recalling all the pain and struggle I faced to get myself up there again. 

No amount of pain or setback could hold me from achieving my goals. 

I got what I went for, a national qualification and an improved physique!

No matter WHAT is thrown your way, when you have a goal you SHOW UP ANYWAYS. 

There’s no maybe, it’s NOW or it’s NEVER. 

When you have a burning desire within you, the least you can do for yourself is honor it and let it set your life on fire in the most beautiful way!

💖✨🔥

P.S. what are you going to to maximize your potential in reaching your goals?

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