Losing the Most Amazing Woman in my Life

I wanted to provide an update since I have been very quiet on here. My heart and the hearts of my family and all of my mother's friends and communities heart broke.

My amazing, strong, loving, and thoughtful mother Jacqueline Rains-Turk passed away suddenly on the 24th of February.

There are no words to describe the hole this has left in me and my & my family’s life along with all of her amazing friends and communities.

Everyone who met my mom, loved my mom

Everyone who knew her, knew joy. Everyone who knew her, knew love. Everyone who knew her, knew faith.

No one met my mom feeling anything less than empowered or happy or more zest for living.

She lived LOUD

She was everything I could have ever wanted in a mother and more

My mother was a woman who wanted the best for everyone and always went out of her way to make you feel loved

There’s so much I’ll miss like our kitchen dances and our “other side” hugs that would go on sometimes for minutes just saying okay other side over and over to hug and sometimes really fast so she (we) could get more🥺

She started my fuzzy sock collection with so many at every holiday, she took me to an Aerosmith concert & rocked so hard with me, she encouraged me to start my podcast when she asked me when I was going to book an interview the moment I told her I had the idea, she sent cute little goodies from miles away after her recent move to carry on her tradition of goody baskets every holiday.

My moms voice boomed through rooms and was always heard in the choir. When I was a kid I knew she was there to pick me up by the sound of her keys rustling, shoes, & her laugh that would fill any void. Every show she was there and she cried when she couldn’t be at a show. She drove hours down to an event I was holding with two friends. She would sit on the edge of my bed until I fell asleep at night or she’d lay in it to make it warmer for me while I got ready.

My moms work ethic on top of her giving spirit was unmatched. And I mean unmatched. She would hold me in her arms when I was crying & now that’s all I want. I’ll never have words to ever express what my mother meant to me or who she is or was to me or the countless memories & stories, Let alone the memories we didn’t get to make that I’ll grieve for a lifetime

I appreciate the respect, love, condolences and advanced offers to help in any way it means so much to see & feel so supported when the most loving woman of my life is gone.

The time since her passing has been really challenging, revealing, and growth inducing. I have never experienced grief like this. I want to celebrate her life by sharing her with all of you though because she believed so much in me and was so so proud of me and always encouraged me to grow and develop as a business owner, coach, and mental health professional.

I am so grateful for her life and am in mourning. I am trying to get 'back into' things this week but it wouldn't feel right to do so without first honoring the woman who had a major part in raising me and encouraging me. I wrote her obituary with the help of my dad and sister, if you would like to learn more about how amazing she truly was.

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