I AM SO GLAD I WENT THROUGH THIS...
Lately I’ve just been feeling totally on fire. On fire with my workouts, my nutrition, and my business.
But, I know it’s no coincidence that I faced some very tough times from September-December that I’d come out stronger and more creative than ever now.
After my show I struggled a lot! I honestly didn’t think I would. I did sooo well for the first couple weeks then shit just sort of hit the fan.
I spent so much time confusing myself and trying to be perfect that I did the exact opposite.
I stressed over problems I faced and tried to fix them super fast which led to a less than conducive result.
But I don’t regret any of it.
I don’t regret taking some time off measuring every morsel of food, following a very specific meal plan, or gaining weight.
I don’t regret any binges, even though it had been forever since I had one.
I don’t regret any negative thoughts or self talk.
I don’t regret trying everything to get my period back even when it meant faster and greater fat gain.
I don’t regret spending hours trying to make myself the perfect plan.
It taught me something that I needed to see and probably wouldn’t have been soooo aware of had I not gone through it.
I realized that I had been putting my needs on the back burner in terms of beliefs and mindset.
Everything I was teaching to my clients or even through my content were lessons that changed my life in the past!
Yet I was sooo resistant to applying them because I knew it was going to be painful and my brain said, “it’s so much easier to be in this pain than that one.”
But after suffering, I said “EFF THAT! I’m tired of feeling this way, this isn’t me, this isn’t my life! This isn’t my story!!”
I knew I deserved to feel better and I have a mission that deserves me (and needs) showing up at the highest level possible.
I thought of all the competitors who struggle post show, I thought of all the girls who can’t bear to look themselves in the mirror, feel comfortable with their body changing, or be able to enjoy themselves and food.
I thought of all the nights I cried, the doubts I had, the moments of pure frustration and guilt.
I thought of every time I begged others for validation, wanted to punish myself, compared myself to other people.
And i knew I couldn’t sleep at night knowing I didn’t do my part in bringing peace to these women who are going through what I’ve been through.
I’ve held back sharing this as I thought I would be less trustworthy as a mindset, food freedom, and personal development coach.
But the truth is, my growth required some growing pains, and every single one of us is human.
No matter what we know, who we are, or what we study or do. We all have darkness and demons. (Unless u a robot)
And it’s a conscious choice daily to get through them!
Some days/months/years at a time are smooth sailing and sometimes you face a few storms.
But your strength, knowledge, and experience can help you navigate through the roughest seas.
And that’s when I thought about all the times a meditation, journaling, essential oil, reflections, rituals, breath work, energy and chakra healing, reading, bubble bath, alone time, nature, incantations, love, friendship, and passion work changed my state.
I’m not here to FIX anyone or anything, really.
None of us are.
But I am here to raise the level of self-love on this planet and teach the strategies and rituals and practices which work so more women can find freedom within their bodies, make peace with their mind, journey, food, and their lifestyle.
I made 2 somethings for anyone struggling with post-show blues or loving themselves.
If you click HERE you can find them!
One is a 7 day free coaching series for competitors struggling post show who want to mend their relationship with food, their body, and the transition to an improvement season!
The other one is a cute printable with 18 ways to love yourself through action :)
|Celeste Rains-Turk; Celestial_Fit International and Building More than Just a Body||