Our Bodies Don't Determine Our Complete Happiness

​When I took this photo I was so happy! I could see all my dedication, discipline, and commitment paying off!

The results of pushing harder than ever brought me the most aesthetic body I’ve ever had. This was the leanest I’ve ever been the day before my February 3rd show and I had no idea when I took this that I’d get even tighter, leaner, and bring an even better package to the stage back to back the following week.

But I wasn’t just happy because I was ripped or could see my abs or had a booty outline and could wear tight shirts and crops that made me feel free and sexy in my skin.

Most of the happiness I had from this time didn’t come from my body.

In fact, my body was really bringing me down in the sense of function, energy levels, and fatigue. I was constantly sore every day (no exaggeration), cried a lot, and couldn’t even sit down on the floor without a pad underneath me, I was weakening and fragile. This didn’t make me thrilled.

Obviously to win and place and grow in this sport you HAVE to build a top notch physique or you lose.

It Takes extreme levels of commitment and desire and action to make this happen.

BUT! To win, internally, to be fulfilled and empowered comes from something entirely different... I’m more committed and driven than ever to my goals of being the BEST athlete i can possibly be, to one day step on the Olympia and the Arnold stages, by the idea of taking myself to new limits I didn’t even know existed for me to then smash through and grow more.

I’m happy in this body in this photo just like I’m happy now, growing and strong and still healthfully lean without putting on too much harmful body fat too quickly.

But these variables are such a small part of the equation. Sometimes it even drives me insane that I care soooo much and love it sooo much and am sooo committed.

When reflecting on why, it always brings me back, this is for ME, my personal growth journey, my wants, my desires, my satisfaction of overcoming the challenges and taking a W both on stage and in life from my own mind for giving my ALL every damn day.
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Oh, and just because I show extreme lifestyle habits, ABSOLUTELY DOES NOT MEAN YOU SHOULD. 💜✨💜

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