Only 3 hours ago I was curled up in a ball on the couch crying...
I was just feeling all the feels.
You know the ones that sometimes come out of no where.
I'd be lying if I said I haven't been riding a rollercoaster of emotions the past week or so.
My energy levels have been all over the place which I can equate to my weird sleeping patterns, intense workouts, and non stop school work.
Today it hit me.
Mind you I've been listening to my body still. Taking naps, going outside to just be, sitting and doing nothing, getting sucked into viral videos, avoiding social media, doing what feels good for me in the moment.
I hadn't taken the opportunity to just feeeeel.
I was masking really well but feeling I was not.
So I allowed myself to curl up into a ball and cry on the couch because I am human.
Then I evaluated myself and what I needed.
It was like I wanted to go to the gym to get my workout over with but I didn't want to go because I was still sore from my last leg day and it seemed neverending.
But I was hungry and going to the gym started sounding better and better as I imagined how good it'd feel to be done earlier than usual (usually I go to workout late at night) and come home to shower and get a nice restful evening.
So I ate my meal, got dressed (this was hard because pjs were my comfort at this moment), and drove myself to the gym.
When I got there I was foam rolling and felt every bruise on my body, every sore muscle, tight muscle, hurting joint, and fatigued body.
Once I started though, things started looking up.
Despite feeling like I might die in my workout there is always something super empowering about putting that work in and showing up for myself 100%.
I acknowledged myself for still pushing myself, challenging my limits, and doing the work.
What's even better is with every superset knocked out my mood began going up even though my body was definitely breaking limits.
Before I knew it it was already time for cardio. Only 10 minutes today!!
I frikkin went all in. Despite almost feeling like my legs were gunna give out, I smashed it.
My energy was higher, for the first time in a long time, my mood went up, it was like I could feel the endorphins pumping through me.
I even sang on the way home which was totally not my vibe on the way there.
I got home and filmed an absolutely KILLER video for my membership site members about releasing subconscious fears that could be holding them back from achieving their goals without them even knowing it.
I hopped in the shower and felt so refreshed.
I filled myself up with love. And for the first time, felt even more inspired to write a blog post. It's been too long. I'm committed to showing up 100% in everything I do and my creative energy hadn't been flowing the way it normally does but now it is and I felt compelled to write this post.
And I share this with you today, right now, because I want you to know that even if you don't think you can show up for yourself 100% on even your worst days, you absofrikkinloutely can. And when you do, you'll feel fulfilled and empowered by your commitment to yourself, your goals, and your growth.
Focus on Building More Than Just a Body and everything will fall into place. I promise.
Ps. I decided that If you want access to the video I mentioned I filmed about fear holding you back subconsciously from achieving your goals then just click here: https://celeste-rainsturk.clickfunnels.com/bmtjab-official-site-homepage 🤗