The robot who realized she is human

I'd be lying if I said I haven't been a ball of emotions the past week or so. 

And I feel compelled to express a fraction of what I've been going through with all of you right now because even if it helps 1 person I'm happy. 

While I have a really strong handle on myself, my feelings, and my ability to move through resistance and blocks, 
Sometimes I forget I am human. 

And honestly I am okay with that. 

I like bein a little unusual and a little more whatever You could say I am. 

Even though I forget I am human I never stop having emotions. 

I've always been deeply emotional. 
I used to be darkly deeply emotional and brightly. 
Now I usually air on the brighter side. 

Rarely do I feel 'dark' 

I've had quite the roller coaster ride of emotions the past week. 

I have been SO HAPPY. 
I have been SO PUMPED. 
I have been SO GRATEFUL. 
I have been SO EXCITED. 
I have been SO PROUD.
I have been SO DRIVEN. 
I have been SO INSPIRED. 
I have been MANY THINGS. 

But I'd be lying to you guys if I said I didn't feel sad, confused, disappointed, and all over the place, multiple times this week.
I went through and continue to go through some 'stuffs'. 

I actually love feeling. 
I think I base most of my decisions off a feeling. 
I'm not really into the whole 'logical' thing these days I pretty much just decide what I want or how I feel and I just act on it. 

Lately I have been confused because my feelings have been bouncing from one high to one low and to and fro (lmao) 

Anyways, what am I getting at? 
I don't know. 
I'm kind of just sharing because, well, I know it can help people out there. 

And I want you to know. 
I have experienced loads of success the past few months and it makes me really happy and excited about life. 
And I celebrate that and I celebrate my personal wins. I do love myself enough to recognize the work I've put in. 

Here's the thing though, even with growth, even with more success, even with bursts of 'holy shit I love my life' there can still be pain, confusion, sorrow, hurt, guilt, anxiety, doubt, and more to say the least. 

The cool part? 
When we work so much on ourselves, it takes power away from anything outside of us because we truly realize everything is within us and we don't have to relinquish our inner strength to an outer factor. 

I can't make you do anything. 
Nor would I want to. 
In order to benefit from a decision, it has to be yours, it has to come from something inside of you, it has to be a conscious effort to pursue that decision. And it has to be for you and for real. 

I can only share what I've been through and what I know. 

And what I know is that without all the personal development work I've done and all the action I've taken and all the jumps I've made and all the investments I made and make even when it makes no 'logical' sense or maybe wouldn't be considered 'smart'. 

Those are the decisions which have led to my growth. 
Those are the moments where even with blood pumping, heart racing, scared out of my pants shaking, I grew. 
Those are the decisions that moved me forward. 

Those decisions have allowed me to grow into someone who can move through resistance, release blocks faster, and even be a more powerful human with more powerful results me more powerful inside strength. 

Without those decisions I'd prob be crawling into a hole (yes I considered this) right about now. 
But crawling into a hole doesn't let me live out my purpose or share my message. Crawling into a hole isn't very empowering or fulfilling. Crawling into a hole makes me feel like death and I am not about to give into that. 

So here I am, crawling into my NEW (early birthday gift from my mom) FUZZY JACKET and STRUTTIN IT and I am allowing myself to feel happy about this. I am allowing myself to smile and be happy. I am allowing myself to be me and be in my fuzzy jacket and get shit done. 

I want you to be able to do this too. 
I am on a mission to help others to know and understand that we can literally have, be, achieve, and accomplish anything we want in life with the proper focus and mindset. 

If you want to be able to do this and you're serious about being able to do this and you are excited by the thought of this, then I want you to message me saying 'I want to feel warm and fuzzy' or something more to your liking, just tell me you're in and I'll be in it with you every step of the way; it comes from your decision to act on your feeling. 

P.S. 
If you feel compelled to share this post please do, your lil urge in your belly knows best. Feel it and act on it and I will virtually hug you. 

Xx,
Celeste Rains-Turk
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