Suicide Is Not As Easy as a Facebook Post: A more in depth look at my personal History with Depression
I saw this photo on a facebook post and had to share my Thoughts...
I want to talk about my own personal experience with depression. I do not want to go into all the details because I am not completely comfortable with sharing them yet. What I can tell you though, there was nothing better than getting help from a therapist.
I ignored my friends who told me it would be a good option. It took them basically reporting me before action was taken. Why? Because when I was at this point of my life, it was EXTREMELY difficult to think rationally and want to get help.
I thought, it's not going to be as bad as it was, I won't hurt myself again, I won't listen to my negative thoughts that come out of thin air. I will believe that it is not treatable and I can't change this. It will always haunt me. These were all things I thought about when I went through these mental setbacks.
Once it was brought to the attention in a way I would have NEVER wanted (but obviously needed), I was able to finally get the help I really needed. Deep down I knew therapy would be good, but I was not sure how easy it would be to discuss this. I always felt like a burden or like my problems were so small and just causing myself pain. I did not think it was humanly possible for someone to EVER understand how I could feel so much, without cause, reason, or explanation. But I went. It was the best thing I have done for my mental health.
I will always recommend therapy to anyone who needs it because it provided me with a completely different mindset and approach to my setbacks. I would never wish what I went through in my head on anyone. But I also would never tell someone experiencing it that "it will be okay" or "we all go through it". I would tell them to turn their life around, ask for the help they need, pay for it, and implement it, because even if you don't think you are valuable enough or worthy enough to feel better or even live, you at least owe it to yourself to try to feel better, live, and find your worth and value that everyone says you have.
It's time to stop running from it, and it is time to start dealing with it and making the most of it.
|Celeste Rains-Turk; Celestial_Fit International and Building More than Just a Body||