Updates from My Bikini Competition and Hopefully some Fitspo for You <3

8/29/2017

This past Weekend I Placed 4th in Open Bikini Class C at my Competition!! I'm not even sure how to put my emotions into words.

17 weeks of prep, hours of cardio, hours of posing practice, hours in the gym, and probably about a ton of chicken, veggies, thousand+ dollars, and the works for this moment here.

When I decided to compete again it was because I felt a huge pull in my soul to do so. It was like I needed to and I had to honor that part of me. I put a lot of energy into healing myself and doing personal development work so when I got the nudge, I knew it was right.

I have never pushed so hard in my life. There wasn't one day where my legs weren't sore. There wasn't one cheat, not one bite, nothing. I was ALL in, because that's the only way I work.

I committed to bringing a better package than my last show but I gotta say, I really wanted to win a medal.

I journaled about how it would feel to walk on stage, to hear my name called, and to have a medal placed around my neck.

Though it would have been amazing to get top two, I am so frikkin proud of myself for placing at all. My main goal was not only to show up better, but also to get a medal bc why wouldn't I want that!?

After pre judging I was really hard on myself because I didn't feel my presentation was as good as I'd practiced.

I still showed up and gave it my all and had so much fun throughout the entire day. I remember on stage for finals I was just smiling out of pure joy that I made it up on that stage and I gave everything and this was the last moment I'd have on stage until my next show and I embraced the present moment so deeply.

There's nothing like working your ass off and actually reaping a real award for it.

I am actually dying to get back on stage again but am going to take the rest of the year to grow, condition, and build something better so that when I step on stage (hopefully multiple times) in 2018 I can get higher placings and hopefully even a national qualification to further my growth in the sport.

I am not afraid at all about the post show situation because I went into this show with the right mindset and prepared myself for this journey. I have so many people to thank and will continue to post more soon
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Thank you all for all your support and encouragement!
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