[VULNERABLE SHARE--RAW TRUTHS ABOUT MY PAST UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD]

[VULNERABLE SHARE--RAW TRUTHS]
I had been so hard on myself (and in all honesty sometimes I still am) telling myself since I've been working on my fitness since 2012 things like: 
 'I should have abs by now' 
'even some of your clients have abs now'
'You are doing it all right but they aren't showing up, what's wrong with you?'
'Why am I still able to squeeze certain parts of my belly?' 
'You should be doing x or y...'
And the list goes on.
As you can see, I don't have blocky abs that stand out when I'm flexing (not right now anyways). I definitely don't have abs when I am not flexing. I don't have popping obliques or a non-grabbable belly.
But I'm sharing this photo with you today because I actually love the fact that despite not having extremely visible abs or a poppin 6 pack; I am free.
--Free from the judgement that my fitness and health is solely based on having abs (still working on abs though) 
--Free from the belief that because I don't have abs then 'I'm not good enough' 
--Free from the comparison and jealousy of not having abs like that girl or that model. 
--Free from feeling like it's because 'I am doing something wrong'
I struggled to admit that I have had issues with food. I'd tell myself things like: 
--'You can't say that or people won't want to work with you' 
--'If you have a bad relationship with food people will try to force things into your mind and down your soul when all you want is support and love' 
--'You can't say you had a negative relationship with food because you've already supported it so much' 
--'You can't admit that this is a problem because then youll seem like you don't get it'
Oh, I get it.
I definitely 'get it'
--Forcing myself to workout after every meal or snack I ate because I didn't want to 'eat too much' 
--Forcing myself to never have a bite because 'I might as well have it all at that point' or 'It won't affect me but not having it will make me strong, disciplined, and I'll see better results' 
--Forcing myself to eat asparagus or other foods that I actually don't enjoy or which hurt my body and the way it digests or functions. 
--Forcing myself to only wear loose clothing because 'if I'm so fit I have to look really lean all the time' 
--Forcing myself to wear tight tank tops while I ate so I wouldn't be 'too big or bloated after' 
--Forcing myself to eat when I was bulking even when I wasn't hungry. 
--Forcing myself to take on so many habits of the people with aesthetics I love without truly understanding that that is NOT a healthy relationship with food.
I finally forced myself to release this and recognize what i was truly doing, feeling, experiencing.
Just because I was fit, healthy, lean, strong, and felt awesome doesn't mean I had everything straight.
I see fit people promoting unhealthy food relationships every day. Sad thing? They aren't even aware of how massively unhealthy it is. (There are reasons for every decision and not all are bad or unhealthy and some are very purposeful based on situation so please don't take this out of context)
Now? 
I am fit. 
I am healthy. 
I am strong. 
I am lean. 
I am building. 
I am growing.
The difference? 
I have a healthier relationship with food. 
I am kind to myself and my body. 
I listen and love myself. 
I am not obsessive. 
I am not forceful. 
I am love. 
I am love in the way of which I flow, I trust, I let go, I believe, I listen, and I treat myself.
I love myself enough to recognize I can have everything I desire in life with the proper focus and mindset. 
I believe in Building More Than Just a Body through aligning inner work with physical results.
None of these realizations or breakthroughs could have happened without introspection.
Best part? I am shedding excess fat weight off healthfully while growing muscle mass. I am seeing better results in my fitness now than before.
Why? 
 Freedom. Love. Choice. Honor. Respect. MINDSET.
None of this is actually about diet and exercise. 
If it was you'd eat the healthier foods more often like you know you need to and you'd workout like you know you need to and you'd be on it.
But that's not it. 
You are human. 
You are much more than a physical being. 
You are a deep soul, much deeper than surface level, which lives, breathes, and functions through a physically and beautifully manifested body. 
So when I say it's about 'Building More than Just a Body' I mean it really, really is. Because YOU are so much more than that.
I am on a mission to help others achieve long term results by emphasizing the importance of mindset, self-love, self-confidence, and self-esteem building strategies alongside the proper training and nutrition regimen.
I believe in diving deep and truly recognizing and releasing anything limiting you or holding you back. I'm talking CORE deep. Things you may not even be able to fully spot or feel yourself. I'm talking serious layer shredding. Full on. Because I believe that the only way we can truly grow is by changing and the only way to truly change is to see where change is necessary.
I am now accepting 3 more VIP 1:1 clients to truly go deep in this. I work with my clients online from all over the world. And If this spoke to you and you feel called to work together 1:1 to improve your lifestyle on a DEEPER level, by focusing on YOU, then message me now and let me know you are serious about making this shift and We will see how I can help you.
I am so happy I could share a very hidden but meaningful part of my story with you.
If you feel compelled to share this with others please follow that nudge and do so.
I know that someone out there is going to read this and feel it so deeply that it inspires a shift.
I am grateful for that opportunity.
I'm here for you
Xx, 
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit
www.celestial.fit