[THE SHOCKING TRUTHS THAT COACHES LIKE CELESTE WON'T TELL YOU *HACKED*]

Are you suffering from patterns of:
--self-love
--healing
--relaxation
--introspection
--healthy living
--soulful relationships
--or any other thing which could be considered ‘valuable, positive, ground breaking, transformative, or dare I say, LIFE changing’
?????
If you are then KEEP reading!
Hi, I am the Cel antipode and I like to consider myself a pretty hateful person and I specialize in helping people hate themselves, abuse their bodies, and truly feel terrible and some would even say trapped in their own skin.
You know, I suffered with self-love and confidence for a long time.

I was constantly looking in the mirror thinking all these ridiculously positive affirmations or sometimes even flexing at myself and admiring my body for all that it ‘gives’ to me—yikes!

I listened to it and fed It what felt good and I took time for myself daily. I even trusted my soul for awhile…
I would even go as far to say I loved myself so much that I was radiating love into the world and then I was constantly receiving more love, NO THANKS (amiright?)!

I spent years of my life changing myself to become more loving and now I am thinking, ‘what the hell was I doing, total waste of time you know!’

I mean I was so depressed and anxious and I was even less healthy before I started delving into the dark depths of self love.
Did you know I even started to fuel my body with things that actually made me want to do MORE?!

I even went to the gym or enjoyed the outdoors everyday.

I meditated a few times.

I also took time to put on face masks, paint my nails, get a massage, or sleep. LOL!

I want to make sure that you NEVER have to experience this type of life.

After I spent time truly changing the way I felt about myself I thought to myself, ‘wow, that was the worst decision of my life, I need to get back to my self-destructive ways’

This is when my idea of Breaking down MORE than just your body was born.

I even created a guide all about how to ‘negatively drain yourself to fatass—the interactive guide to destroying all serving beliefs, developing self-loathe, and manifesting your way to your worst most drained self’
I was shocked at the amazing response I got! I actually felt great making others learn to feel worse.

This was the exact guide I used to fuel my own negative self and I just knew I had to give it to others.
Heres the thing.
Hating yourself is actually a lot more difficult than it seems.
I thought loving myself was pretty easy compared to this and we all know I can’t stand that anymore, I prefer the hard road.

Here are some things I do to show my body (and soul) just how much I cannot stand it:

1. Tell it it is ugly, out of shape, and gross. (sometimes I even squeeze it just to anchor these feelings in but that is more of an advanced tip)
2. Feed it a LOT of processed junk. F balance and moderation, I am going all in all the time. I like to spend hours with stomach aches, head aches, and lots of bathroom trips. My favorite part of this is the low energy and fatigue it brings me. It is like I have become addicted to it.
3. When my body tells me it does not want these things I make sure it knows I don’t care by fueling it with even more junk. This is one way I abuse my body. I never listen to it and I don’t allow my intuitive self to shine. Sometimes I don’t eat just to punish myself because I love a good ol fashion punishment.
4. The only time I go to the gym is to compare myself to others. I will go and I don’t ask anyone how to use anything and I sometimes throw around weights or jump on the cardio but I don’t really care if my form is off and I get hurt. I usually just deal with it and try not to ask anyone. I like to consider myself fat, weird, and incapable compared to the others so sometimes I just don’t go at all. It is easier to stay here anyways, you understand. A lot of times I even go on social media and fuel my jealous rage by telling myself I will never be like that. But that’s just because I don’t care anyways.
5. I force myself to listen to sad songs when I am sad or upset. I even will go as far as locking myself in my room and hiding.
6. Whenever I am tired or fatigued I force myself to stay awake and active. I NEVER listen to my body. This makes me perform worse at my job, for my clients (they love it though), and I am a complete Horror to my family (which I love being).
7. Anytime I think of changing my ways its like something comes over me and so I just brush it off, push it down, and continue doing my thing because, well, it is easier.
8. OH, and when I undergo a bad experience I actually thrive off it. I try not to move on and instead I beat myself up over I or I fuel the fire with fire because I can.

 
The list goes on, but I can’t give you all the secrets to this, you have to just get the guide if you are still looking for more ways to do this too.
What I realized is that truly hating yourself is so much more painful than loving yourself. BUT, I love the pain. It feels good to suffer in my own skin and feel myself dying physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
 
I have never felt as terrible as I do right now but it is okay because well, I don’t ever want to have to go through the trouble of showing myself love anyways.
 
This one site I was on that had changed my life for the worst when I was on my journey before this revelation was even trying to encourage me to love and care for myself (GAG).
It was soooo focused on things like:
--Self-Love, Confidence, and Mindset.
--Long Term Success Building
--Wellness Development
--Behavior Change Modification Planning
--Nutrition and Exercise

I just couldn’t stand it. I was like, “WHY the hell are you making me have breakthroughs and taking me through all these empowering exercises and giving me all these strategies?!” I was so done with that, I wanted to be miserable instead. So I cancelled. Luckily there was no added join fees or cancellation fees so I only had the small price to pay (which was even discounted—lame right) and then I left. WHY would I want to do that forever.

This girl was adding videos to it EVERY week. Constantly flooding me with self-love and mindset, and all these tools that I just had to ditch it because, why would I want to feel good anyways. It was such a WASTE of my time and energy and definitely a waste of my money.

Not to mention the other people in the ‘support’ group she had.  Encouraging me, welcoming me in to some sort of loving cult, yeah no thanks, I didn’t want to be a part of that.

OMG she even would ask us what we wanted to see and I was like “I wanna see you get the f out of here with your positive vibes and energies and all that other stuff you have”

Anyways, whatever you do, don’t join www.celesterainsturk.com  it is likely to make you go from loathe to love and we all know that is NOT what life is supposed to be like.

When you have the opportunity to choose between my life and hers, choose mine, it is much safer anyways. Plus, you don’t have to worry about feeling amazing, having better health, or growing in your personal development at all.
I hope you enjoyed my rant full of tips and tricks for a more loathing and crumbling lifestyle.
 
P.S. you are the worst.
 
Hate always and forever,
The Celeste Antipode