Why I Stopped Forcing Myself to Journal Every Morning

I will probably get some push back for this, some reach outs from people trying to ‘fix’ me, and a lot of confusion, so please read this and hear me out first.

I have been wanting to share this for awhile but have had fears and doubts about doing so but now I feel like it NEEDS to be heard because of the FREEDOM I have found from my decision.

A few months ago I shared my morning routine with everyone, every detail and I just gave it all away which to me seemed like a lot of value.

In August, I stopped journaling every morning and really haven’t been doing structured journaling since. 

Here are some breakthroughs I had that made me say enough is enough and put the pen and paper away;   

1. NO MORE ENJOYMENT OR POSITIVE ENERGY.
I wasn’t enjoying it anymore so I was literally just bringing negative energy and resentment into an exercise that is supposed to be powerful and magnetic. This was then causing me to surround my gratitude, intentions, and identity work in negative thoughts which meant I was doing a better job of manifesting more of the bad stuff than the good.2. CONTROL AND MANIPULATION.
I felt like the only reason I was journaling was to have CONTROL of every aspect of my life and to paint this perfect picture and yet the whole point of true manifestation (at least in my eyes) of what we want comes from LETTING GO and TRUSTING the universe/God/Source/whatever you believe in. So instead of trying to squeeze the life out of everything I ever wanted, hoped, and dreamed of I ACTUALLY, ACTUALLY, ACTUALLYYYY decided it was going to be mine regardless of if I wrote it down or not. 

3. MISSING OUT ON THE PRESENT MOMENT.
I was missing out on work that could and needed to be done, people I wanted to see, things I wanted to do just so I could journal about what I am grateful for (yet neglecting to write about it therefore being a total contradiction), what I want to become/am aligning for (yet totally straying from as journaling was getting in my way of actually doing the work), and setting clear and powerful intentions (yet feeling like I couldn’t wait for the journaling to be done so I could go and DO something thus limiting my ability to bring positive power to intentions). I was literally neglecting my urge to CREATE just to write about how much I wanted to do and create and would manifest…does not add up!!4. JOURNALING IS NOT THE END ALL BE ALL TO MY ACHIEVEMENT OF ‘SUCCESS’.
I finally listened to the voice in my head that I shut out for so long who told me “Celeste, you are already in constant gratitude, you literally set intentions like a badass, and who the eff said you had to write something down every day to actually make it happen? Success is what YOU make it, not what THEY have taught you to believe” Just because so and so from such and such who had done this and that and is ‘wildly successful’ doesn’t mean I have to do that to get there. I will pave my own path and find what works for me; thank you very much.5. THE UNIVERSE AND I ARE ALREADY BFFs.
​I acknowledged that fact that I am an amazing woman as it is and I have so much power within me to literally create WHATEVER I want and the universe has NEVER let me down and the ONLY time I haven’t gotten what I wanted was because I either wasn’t ready, had to learn something first, needed to create space for it, or I had negative energy surrounding the reception or creation of it.


So, if you are reading this and thinking I am absolutely mad, or bonkers, or out of my mind to think that I am actually capable of creating and living a life I love and which allows me to make a profound impact and provide for myself WITHOUT JOURNALING…

 
…just know that I UNDERSTAND and I was once in your shoes. I thought people who didn’t journal were crazy, I told myself I would never go a day without journaling in my life and if I ever did I would make up for it and I would do everything in my power to journal until my hand fell off because ‘whatever it takes’ right? NO.

 
What was once a fulfilling, freeing, and empowering ritual became a mundane, monotonous, unfulfilling, creativity sucking, controlling task that I resented for taking time away from my life, the outdoors, my loved ones, and my passions.

 
Don’t get me wrong, I still journal, I just DON’T FORCE MYSELF TO JOURNAL EVERY MORNING OR NIGHT ON THE SAME THINGS EVERYDAY BECAUSE ‘’THAT’S WHAT IT TAKES TO BE SUCCESSFUL AND CREATE THE LIFE OF YOUR DREAMS’’

 
I have been finding SO much more fun and freedom in journaling on questions that excite me or provide me with a breakthrough I need in that moment. I find that I am moving through blocks and limits faster because I am not stuck on them and I can just journal on what I need to.

 
Everyday I am rooted in gratitude, literally at any given moment I find myself being so thankful for my life, the people and the things I have and when I am not feeling so grateful I flip the switch and can rewrite the story.
 

Best part? SO MUCH MORE HAS BEEN COMING THROUGH FOR ME. I have manifested more successes, more fun, more breakthroughs, more love, more opportunities, and more inner peace than I have in the past few months all because I FINALLY let go of control and did what I WANTED to do again.

 
Did journaling help me get to the point where I can do this? YES. And at one point it was my way of letting go and releasing.
Do I think everyone should stop journaling? NO. I just think you should always do what provides you with joy, fulfillment, empowerment, love, and all things positive ESPECIALLY when you are in the midst of calling things into your life.

 
I got to the point where I had to ask myself, “what good am I doing if every time I sit down to journal I am hating it, resenting it, and writing with this rushed energy just to get through it?”
 
The further I connect to MY truths and MY passions and MY lifestyle the further I connect to what I TRULY need and the further I DISconnect from anything which doesn’t make my soul light up in love and excitement to show up and serve the world at a high level with passion. 
 
 
My point?
You don’t HAVE to do what others have done for success or to get where you want to be (this is true in fitness and health too by the way).
You don’t HAVE to neglect your soul and the voice in your head so a controlling subconscious belief can keep you from what you ACTUALLY want.
You CAN put an end to things that you have followed or been consistent with or been a part of for so long so that you can honor your soul and find fulfillment elsewhere.
You CAN choose your own way.
You CAN have breakthroughs in many ways.
You CAN create in many ways.
You CAN be successful through many ways.

YOU HAVE THE POWER TO CHOOSE YOUR LIFE EVERYDAY.

If what you are doing, practicing, or preaching TAKES that away from you or pulls you out of the present moment then ask yourself if it is really worth it?

Life is so beautiful and amazing and to waste a single second of it doing something that I not only don’t want to do but also don’t HAVE to do is such a waste of energy and the precious time I have been given to show up and LIVE.
 
Please know that You are not wrong for journaling, and you are also not right for it; you just ARE. And this alone gives you all the power to decide if what you are doing ACTUALLY makes you feel amazing, inspired, empowered, and fully rooted in love, light, and positive energy so you can make the most out of this life.
 
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and hear me out. I want you to KNOW, like REALLY know, how POWERFUL of a being you are and how CAPABLE you are of creating your reality how YOU desire and the IMPORTANCE of doing so with joy, positivity, love, and excitement because THAT’S how you attract more of the GOOD stuff 😉
 
 
FIND YOUR LIFESTYLE

For online coaching inquiries in self-love, confidence, mindset, fitness, and lifestyle email me at celeste.rainsturk@gmail.com

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