Have you ever been self-conscious of your spleen?
Self-consciousness is an interesting thing.
We do not become self-conscious of our internal organs the way we might be self-conscious of our body shape.
So now the question is, why?
Well, our internal organs have no relation to others the way our physical body shape might.
Without others, there would be no self.
There is no reference to your spleen compared to someone else’s unless it wasn’t functioning well & you sought support from others.
As competitors this awareness of our body is heightened as its intertwined with our identity “I look strong...fit...lean...fluffy...bloated...”
Can only be a statement in reference to other people. But why?!
Because, as soon as we reference something in this way we bring it into the real world which then means we bring our self-consciousness into it.
Self-consciousness, is really just heightened awareness of the self as a unique individual
So, when your body becomes part of you, it becomes part of the world which means it becomes comparable to others “Oh, so I’ll just see my body like an organ”
Ah, if only it were that simple
When something becomes part of your self-consciousness, it takes on imaginative forms which guide us to feel GOOD or BAD emotions relative to it
The reflection in the mirror does not illicit gratification or disappointment.
It is the fact that we relate the reflection to the way we see ourselves in other people’s minds
We seek a mold to fit or an identity to be known for that embodies specific characteristics based on what we’ve seen or accepted as true
Bikini Competitors want to be seen as in shape, disciplined, in control, 1%ers, proportioned, relentless, etc
So, if you see yourself in the mirror, not fitting the expected form, you feel ashamed or inadequate
Thus, being self-conscious is a reflection of an identity disconnect expressed through shame, guilt, or other negative emotions.
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