Worldwide Suicide Prevention Day; perspective of a loved one

I witnessed one of the most important people in my life hang on to their life by a thread, revived back to life by doctors, only to continue fighting for weeks


I was looked in the eye by this person after asking if they were happy to be saved & they shook their head no


I sat in a chair in a cold hospital while a person I loved so much was slipping away & couldn’t even speak


So many tears, fear, and darkness


The worst part about it honestly is how much shame surrounds this subject


To the point where they don’t ever want anyone to know or to ever discuss it


It isn’t my story to tell. But the way I was impacted, is my story


A very small, protected, minuscule fraction of a horrible time in my life


It is indescribable what it feels like to drive someone you love to the hospital after finding them in a distressed state


It is indescribable to hear voice mails expressing ‘I love yous’ that were meant to be ‘goodbyes’
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It is indescribable to hear them admit to harming themselves when the nurse asks


It is indescribable to hear crying screams echo in places you are used to having peace


It is indescribable to know someone you love died & was brought back to life


It is indescribable to express how suicide impacts the people around us


Rather than sharing my own story and struggles with depression, suicidal ideation, my attempt, and the incredible transformation, mindset, and life shifts I’ve had since that dark time in my own life, I share the story of almost losing a loved one to suicide


Because on Worldwide Suicide Prevention day, sometimes we need the reminder that it can hit anyone, at anytime, even the strongest people who have seemingly endured it all, they need to be checked in on too


Show grace, love, and understanding to people or don’t show anything at all


Releasing judgment and stigma is an important step no matter if it’s someone who has those thoughts, has had an attempt and recovered, or who has been battling for years ❤️❤️❤️
I witnessed one of the most important people in my life hang on to their life by a thread, revived back to life by doctors, only to continue fighting for weeks

I was looked in the eye by this person after asking if they were happy to be saved & they shook their head no

I sat in a chair in a cold hospital while a person I loved so much was slipping away & couldn’t even speak

So many tears, fear, and darkness

The worst part about it honestly is how much shame surrounds this subject

To the point where they don’t ever want anyone to know or to ever discuss it

It isn’t my story to tell. But the way I was impacted, is my story

A very small, protected, minuscule fraction of a horrible time in my life

It is indescribable what it feels like to drive someone you love to the hospital after finding them in a distressed state

It is indescribable to hear voice mails expressing ‘I love yous’ that were meant to be ‘goodbyes’
.
It is indescribable to hear them admit to harming themselves when the nurse asks

It is indescribable to hear crying screams echo in places you are used to having peace

It is indescribable to know someone you love died & was brought back to life

It is indescribable to express how suicide impacts the people around us

Rather than sharing my own story and struggles with depression, suicidal ideation, my attempt, and the incredible transformation, mindset, and life shifts I’ve had since that dark time in my own life, I share the story of almost losing a loved one to suicide

Because on Worldwide Suicide Prevention day, sometimes we need the reminder that it can hit anyone, at anytime, even the strongest people who have seemingly endured it all, they need to be checked in on too

Show grace, love, and understanding to people or don’t show anything at all

Releasing judgment and stigma is an important step no matter if it’s someone who has those thoughts, has had an attempt and recovered, or who has been battling for years ❤️❤️❤️I witnessed one of the most important people in my life hang on to their life by a thread, revived back to life by doctors, only to continue fighting for weeks

I was looked in the eye by this person after asking if they were happy to be saved & they shook their head no

I sat in a chair in a cold hospital while a person I loved so much was slipping away & couldn’t even speak

So many tears, fear, and darkness

The worst part about it honestly is how much shame surrounds this subject

To the point where they don’t ever want anyone to know or to ever discuss it

It isn’t my story to tell. But the way I was impacted, is my story

A very small, protected, minuscule fraction of a horrible time in my life

It is indescribable what it feels like to drive someone you love to the hospital after finding them in a distressed state

It is indescribable to hear voice mails expressing ‘I love yous’ that were meant to be ‘goodbyes’
.
It is indescribable to hear them admit to harming themselves when the nurse asks

It is indescribable to hear crying screams echo in places you are used to having peace

It is indescribable to know someone you love died & was brought back to life

It is indescribable to express how suicide impacts the people around us

Rather than sharing my own story and struggles with depression, suicidal ideation, my attempt, and the incredible transformation, mindset, and life shifts I’ve had since that dark time in my own life, I share the story of almost losing a loved one to suicide

Because on Worldwide Suicide Prevention day, sometimes we need the reminder that it can hit anyone, at anytime, even the strongest people who have seemingly endured it all, they need to be checked in on too

Show grace, love, and understanding to people or don’t show anything at all

Releasing judgment and stigma is an important step no matter if it’s someone who has those thoughts, has had an attempt and recovered, or who has been battling for years ❤️❤️❤️