Going to bed feeling sad and upset and like your world is crashing down is not a fun feeling.
When I was extremely depressed it was my normal.
I'd go to bed and often think about how amazing it'd be if I never woke up.
I would resort to sleeping when I was feeling really down because it was an escape from life, it was like dying without the death part.
I used to think this made me ungrateful for life considering my amazing family and all the blessings in my world.
But I believe that our sadness must not be compared to the sadness of another soul.
It breaks my heart to see people hide their emotions in fear that people will judge them for feeling the emotions given they "have a great life, what could possibly be wrong anyways?"
There are chemicals in your brain that just might not line up with the beauty of your life. You can't blame yourself for that. I had to learn this through therapy, research, and extensive inner work.
No one should have to suffer in silence with anxiety or fear that someone might say something like, "there are people who have it way worse than you, cheer up and be grateful"
Sometimes people get sad without any true understanding or reasoning for why; that's okay!
No one, in my opinion, should have to explain their sorrow.
We should embrace everyone who suffers with a loving and kind spirit and rather than seeking to understand why they might be sad, just help them through their darkness.
Every time someone told me that others have it worse, that only made me feel, well, worse!
As a person who wants all of us to feel love, happiness, and a zest for life; wanting to die, hurt myself, or curl up in a ball all day, I never felt like 'myself'.
Until I recognized that it was a part of what made me the brightest me I couldn't accept that darkness.
Once I accepted it I felt a sense of liberation.
I'm not talking about accepting it as your reality, but rather loving that dark side of you and choosing to take the necessary action to shed light on it.
I had to shift a lot of beliefs, I had to change a lot of my actions, and I had to start loving on myself even in the darkest times.
I was no longer making war with myself, fighting feelings and emotions, but rather going through them and growing through them.
When you feel this way, remember, it is okay, you are allowed to, give yourself permission to feel so you can heal.
When you know someone who feels this way, embrace them and lend them an ear of empathy and try not to outwardly analyze or pry for an understanding.
I felt called to write this and hope it helps you or could help someone you know❤️
|Celeste Rains-Turk; Celestial_Fit International and Building More than Just a Body||