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 Something that changed my life and perspective years ago was journaling
Specifically journaling statements that started with “I am” Looking back it’s amazing how many of the things I wrote “I am” before have now literally become who I actually am You may feel uncomfortable with it at first, as though you might be lying to yourself or making up stories Sometimes you begin to believe it much faster that other things Sometimes you have to work through a LOT of resistance to believe and achieve it (which is why coaches and mentors can be so influential) But overtime, working through those mental blocks and continuing to commit to the identity I wanted, the person I wanted to be, and now the growth continues I can remember writing things down that I wanted to achieve as though I already had “I am so happy and grateful Xyz has happened because now I am able to abc” Doing this can be a game changer What do you want to achieve? Who do you need to become to achieve that? When you journal in this way you are priming your mind to see it as very achievable and already part of your present reality It creates new upper limits in your mind too Then you can even do mindset work on your mindset work like now that i have achieved xyz I am committed to achieving xyz For example: I am so happy and grateful I placed first in my national show and won my pro card! Now I am committed to bringing my absolute best to my pro career and get on that Olympia stage by next year What you think about and focus on will continue to Influence your actions Because if you have written “I am ___” Then you will create an identity. And going against that identity will cause your brain to think “wait that doesn’t make sense if you are ___” Just journaling about emotions and feelings isn’t the same or as effective as intentional mindset work Want to uplevel your mindset? Try this! Send me a photo of your journal if you wish 🙂 Getting stuck? Reach out, I’m happy to help Creating the life you love is possible when you become the person who creates the life they love and has the life they love
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 Have you seen it too?
Competitors Immediately going to the dessert table or digging into the bag of treats after finals? Girls posting food or the first bite of a donut before they even acknowledge the way the day went? Coaches standing backstage with their girls biting into huge cookies with them or teammates putting piles of accumulated treats together to all share? Maybe this has been you? Looking forward to that post-show cookie for weeks Dreaming about what the promoter will have backstage or hoping your friends surprise you with treats Maybe you’ve immediately taken a photo with your trophy while holding a piece of cake Or you’ve packed a big bag of treats to have after the show to pick from like a kid on Halloween Trust me, I get it. I’ve been there, done that But the shows I’ve not done this at, were the shows I felt so much more connected to MYSELF & the JOURNEY Because my mind wasn’t fixated on what I could fit in my mouth right after I got off stage The show days where I left thinking “I don’t really care what’s for dinner” or “I just want to go home & shower” or “I just want to celebrate this & have one nice meal with my loved ones” were the best Because every time I dove into the treats immediately, It wasn’t out of the decision to eat because I needed food & was hungry It was out of this feeling of finally satisfying what felt like an indulgence into freedom or fantasies When in reality, it had always been my choice. To eat the plan I was given, to do a prep, to compete & it damn sure wasn’t so I could obsess about eating a donut after That’s not why we get into competing but it so quickly can become ones’ focus Fixating on foods you can’t have or fit into your macros or your Coach has eliminated because “soon” you’ll “be able to have them” . It is NOT healthy . Calysta Upperman inspired this post today. We had a podcast interview a few months back on “Confessions of a Bikini Pro” touching on this and since then we have chatted and vented about it expressing our concerns and raising awareness to our audiences Since the work I do with competitors is heavily focused on their relationship with food, I pick up on a lot of these self-destructive thought patterns & behaviors quickly If you’re looking forward to the food more than you are the achievement, there’s an underlying issue that is more important to address than stepping on any stage You will get there! But don’t do it at the cost of allllll the commitments you’ve made your entire prep Yes, enjoy, indulge, and savor the moments after your show But don’t allow that to be your free pass to binge If it is, then again, there’s an underlying issue and it is going to rear its ugly head if you don’t get ahead of it I know this may seem like a rougher love nudge from me than usual, but it’s serious and important and chatting with Calysta gets me even more fired up about it! If you’re struggling with this or have been struggling with your relationship with food post-show or throughout your prep, send me a message. Let’s see if or how we can work together through this It could make all the difference in the way you feel about yourself, develop your physique, and create a lifestyle out of this Lots of love 💓💓💓 I witnessed one of the most important people in my life hang on to their life by a thread, revived back to life by doctors, only to continue fighting for weeks
I was looked in the eye by this person after asking if they were happy to be saved & they shook their head no I sat in a chair in a cold hospital while a person I loved so much was slipping away & couldn’t even speak So many tears, fear, and darkness The worst part about it honestly is how much shame surrounds this subject To the point where they don’t ever want anyone to know or to ever discuss it It isn’t my story to tell. But the way I was impacted, is my story A very small, protected, minuscule fraction of a horrible time in my life It is indescribable what it feels like to drive someone you love to the hospital after finding them in a distressed state It is indescribable to hear voice mails expressing ‘I love yous’ that were meant to be ‘goodbyes’ . It is indescribable to hear them admit to harming themselves when the nurse asks It is indescribable to hear crying screams echo in places you are used to having peace It is indescribable to know someone you love died & was brought back to life It is indescribable to express how suicide impacts the people around us Rather than sharing my own story and struggles with depression, suicidal ideation, my attempt, and the incredible transformation, mindset, and life shifts I’ve had since that dark time in my own life, I share the story of almost losing a loved one to suicide Because on Worldwide Suicide Prevention day, sometimes we need the reminder that it can hit anyone, at anytime, even the strongest people who have seemingly endured it all, they need to be checked in on too Show grace, love, and understanding to people or don’t show anything at all Releasing judgment and stigma is an important step no matter if it’s someone who has those thoughts, has had an attempt and recovered, or who has been battling for years ❤️❤️❤️ I witnessed one of the most important people in my life hang on to their life by a thread, revived back to life by doctors, only to continue fighting for weeks I was looked in the eye by this person after asking if they were happy to be saved & they shook their head no I sat in a chair in a cold hospital while a person I loved so much was slipping away & couldn’t even speak So many tears, fear, and darkness The worst part about it honestly is how much shame surrounds this subject To the point where they don’t ever want anyone to know or to ever discuss it It isn’t my story to tell. But the way I was impacted, is my story A very small, protected, minuscule fraction of a horrible time in my life It is indescribable what it feels like to drive someone you love to the hospital after finding them in a distressed state It is indescribable to hear voice mails expressing ‘I love yous’ that were meant to be ‘goodbyes’ . It is indescribable to hear them admit to harming themselves when the nurse asks It is indescribable to hear crying screams echo in places you are used to having peace It is indescribable to know someone you love died & was brought back to life It is indescribable to express how suicide impacts the people around us Rather than sharing my own story and struggles with depression, suicidal ideation, my attempt, and the incredible transformation, mindset, and life shifts I’ve had since that dark time in my own life, I share the story of almost losing a loved one to suicide Because on Worldwide Suicide Prevention day, sometimes we need the reminder that it can hit anyone, at anytime, even the strongest people who have seemingly endured it all, they need to be checked in on too Show grace, love, and understanding to people or don’t show anything at all Releasing judgment and stigma is an important step no matter if it’s someone who has those thoughts, has had an attempt and recovered, or who has been battling for years ❤️❤️❤️I witnessed one of the most important people in my life hang on to their life by a thread, revived back to life by doctors, only to continue fighting for weeks I was looked in the eye by this person after asking if they were happy to be saved & they shook their head no I sat in a chair in a cold hospital while a person I loved so much was slipping away & couldn’t even speak So many tears, fear, and darkness The worst part about it honestly is how much shame surrounds this subject To the point where they don’t ever want anyone to know or to ever discuss it It isn’t my story to tell. But the way I was impacted, is my story A very small, protected, minuscule fraction of a horrible time in my life It is indescribable what it feels like to drive someone you love to the hospital after finding them in a distressed state It is indescribable to hear voice mails expressing ‘I love yous’ that were meant to be ‘goodbyes’ . It is indescribable to hear them admit to harming themselves when the nurse asks It is indescribable to hear crying screams echo in places you are used to having peace It is indescribable to know someone you love died & was brought back to life It is indescribable to express how suicide impacts the people around us Rather than sharing my own story and struggles with depression, suicidal ideation, my attempt, and the incredible transformation, mindset, and life shifts I’ve had since that dark time in my own life, I share the story of almost losing a loved one to suicide Because on Worldwide Suicide Prevention day, sometimes we need the reminder that it can hit anyone, at anytime, even the strongest people who have seemingly endured it all, they need to be checked in on too Show grace, love, and understanding to people or don’t show anything at all Releasing judgment and stigma is an important step no matter if it’s someone who has those thoughts, has had an attempt and recovered, or who has been battling for years ❤️❤️❤️  WHICH TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP DO YOU WANT TO BE IN WITH YOUR BODY? {Comment Below}
DO you want it to be commensalism? This would be like your body shutting down on you while you read causing you to fall asleep. It doesn’t hurt you because you were already relaxing and reading but your body benefits from the extra rest she wanted No one got hurt, but the body was maybe a little selfish in taking away your reading time This is also similar to when you’re pushing your body past her comfort zone but not injuring or completely ignoring her Not the worst of them & likely inevitable as an athlete Or, you could have Parasitism. Like if you have an injury & decide to train anyways so you worsen the injured part of your body but satisfy your need for an aesthetic gain It could also be like when your body shuts down one of your cycles or organs to preserve your life, but it ends up taking away from another goal or outcome you wanted to go after Your body benefits from preservation but now you have to go through a lot of healing Or if you cause your body to go into preservation mode because you abused her, & she was done with being the host & wanted to then become the parasite Yeah, that’s not a very healthy relationship at all is it?? 🙅🏻♀️ So, what’s the best-case scenario? Mutualism. When both parties benefit You nourish your body, she transports nourishment throughout you, & you wake up with more energy or have more muscle definition at your next check in Or your body gets tired, so you rest Because you eat, your body can function, because you are functioning, you can move Because you stretched, your muscles can recover, so you can use your muscles more tomorrow See what I am getting at? WORK ON BUILDING THAT KIND OF RELATIONSHIP WITH YOURSELF Create a PARTNERSHIP Befriend your body, become her business partner, sign a contract, or get married I don’t really care what you do, But some sort of commitment must be made Even the simple question of, ‘Will this improve or worsen my relationship between me and my body?’ before you eat, move, think, or do anything can really help put things in perspective A mental check ✔️🧠 . What do you choose?❤️  Last time I was in San Diego I went to this beach & asked a random couple to take this photo of me I have a security screen Which makes it INCREDIBLY difficult to see anything on it in bright sunlight This is a pic of me laughing as they tell me they aren’t even sure if they are taking a pic This could also be a picture of me presently being so happy and excited that I have 8 women committed to coming to San Diego with me on October 12th to learn the psychology and personal development tools required to make competing more fulfilling and freeing At my Free event for competitors! And a few spots left to be taken by more amazing competitors (maybe even you?!) We will be diving into how to Build More than Just a Body, and truly make peace with food, your body, and your goals Whether you’re in your improvement season or prep, you won’t want to miss this event I’ll be sharing many of the tools behind my PTG Process I developed just for competitors I am so excited!!!!!!🥳 I would love to see you there It is my first event and you best believe I’m going ALL out (all in?) With it!!!😊💓😭 It’ll be one for the books! Scroll down to see a photo of the cute venue I booked where soo many internal shifts & transformations will take place It is in North Park just minutes away from the beach, convention center (& The Fit Expo is that weekend so you can kill two birds with one stone!), & the famous ‘The Gym’ I’m committed to generating results, sharing tools, & supporting all attendees in such a way that they leave feeling impacted for LIFE Going into topics like body image, food relationship, mindset, post-show blues, prep, goals & values, life satisfaction, & SO MUCH MORE It’ll be a close knit group 😍 . Of course we will also be making deep connections, having fun, & enjoying our time together! Want to join us? CLICK HERE TO RESERVE YOUR SPOT NOW The event is free w/ a $35 butt in seat fee that I will pay back to you upon your arrival 🙂 . 9-2pm on Sat. October 12th I can take on 2-3 more people given the venue I booked has a 12 person limit I know everyone who shows up is meant to be there & I can’t wait to meet YOU😍🧠😊   Contrary to popular belief that tells us we need to CUT OUT as many foods as possible or run from the peanut butter jar or hide all the junk food...
. Normalizing the foods you fear, crave, & think about all the time or end up “over” eating can reduce feelings of: . Restriction / Deprivation Fantasies / Food porn scrolling Obsession/Stocking up on food for “post diet” or “post show” . & Fixation mindset where you can’t stop thinking about it because it’s likely not on your plan or something you would normally “allow” . But when you actually allow it & say to yourself “I can have this whenever I want & as much of it as I want” . You now eliminate many of the mindsets that actually cause you to overeat, binge, punish yourself, feel guilty or ashamed . ‘But Celeste, I won’t be able to control myself around those foods’ . Valid argument if you have a history of feeling out of control with them But remember, that “out of control” behavior is not stemming from the food itself, it’s coming from your mindset & relationship to that food Remove the labels, superiority, & forbidden mindset so that it actually has no power over you THE ONLY REASON FOOD HAS POWER OVER YOU IS BECAUSE OF THE POWER YOU HAVE GIVEN IT . ‘But how is this going to help me?’ . When you know you can have any food any time in any amount (yes you read that right), then you change the mindset from; “I can’t eat that” To “I am choosing to eat that” . By giving yourself FREEDOM you actually gain back the control you felt you lost Your choices become conscious & because your mind is not clouded by obsessive fixation, you can now consider how eating the food will support your goals, your body, your life, your needs, your standards, etc Want to finally experience freedom with food? Give yourself that freedom Need help and don’t know where to start? Want to work with someone who GETS it & also has a process, tools, and coaching to support you in improving your relationship with food so you can continue improving as an athlete and individual? Click HERE to apply for my Food Relationship Healing & Discovery Program Let’s see if & how I can help you too💜 Click here to be inspired by more testimonials😊  Can’t believe this was 1 year ago
Improvement season flew by & we’re already a few weeks into a prep So much growth occurred for me in 11 months I broke down, rebuilt, recovered, & grew I had so many internal shifts. Really reassuring me that everything is happening for a reason & with perfect timing! It was Sep ‘18 that I felt the nudge to start working with competitors I began having phone conversations with many girls (hi & thank u to those of u who did) to discuss their postshow blues struggles I built a full program using my experiences, knowledge in psychology, & my background in personal development coaching to address these kinds of struggles That transformed a few lives Then my mission grew further (see 👙client highlight for all testimonials!) . I realized that I could do so much more for competitors & I went all in with my commitment to this “niche” . I can now say w/ absolute certainty I found my people. I love serving competitors, being their mentor, supporting them in their journey I truly believe that in order to have the most fulfilling seasons, we have to Build More than Just a Body Now I’m helping competitors heal their relationship with food, their body & their goals on even deeper levels with my very own signature PTG process It feels so good to be doing what I love for people I love knowing it will help them continue to do what they love while loving themselves 😭 . I’m glad I experienced some mental struggles after this show It reminded me why I’m here, why my mission has strong since 2015 I asked for clarity & I was given a big blur to work through to remember what I do best, which then led me to the most clarity I ever had I’m committed to continue shining light on, providing implementable action steps & information, as well as offering my services for competitors Too often the issues of body image, food relationship, feeling lost, mental set backs, & overall personal development outside of physique get swept under the rug No rugs here though, love you girls too much for that😉🧠❤️ . PS- 2 seats left for my FREE Build More than Just a Body event on Oct. 12 in San Diego! DM me for more info & to sign up 😊 .  Comment Below with Some of Your Goals for your Body Outside of Aesthetics or Stats!
It’s so easy to get laser focused on a number or a look, but what about function, mobility, feel, action? One of the best ways to feel better about your body is to acknowledge and appreciate her Like any relationship, it’s not about how it looks on the outside as much as it is about how both parties feel So how does your body feel? And how does she help you function? How does your body function? And how does that make you feel? I would set goals for myself like touch my toes, do a leg workout without needing knee sleeves, gain mobility, be able to run x distance in x time, digestion, menstrual, etc Then I took the time to also recognize what my body allowed me to do already Thanks to those of you who commented a few posts back on what you love that your body allows you to do! Doing this daily has really changed the way I see myself When I felt like I was “too heavy” “too big” “too fat” It was annoying and all consuming Like who even decided that? When did I decide that? I started seeing my body in loving ways and as a result my image of my body also changed! I saw her as beautiful and strong and curvy and fit and just really awesome I liked looking at her Because I knew what she was capable of and I knew I was responsible and doing everything I can! Loving yourself will never be fully satisfied simply through external changes But when you commit to really celebrating your body, the love comes so much more effortlessly! Can’t wait to hear your goals 😍  I was honestly so nervous to ride a bike again. I thought I completely forgot how & I know they say you never forget but sometimes it can be scary to do something as an adult that you haven’t done since you were a kid
Your brain has so much more capacity & wiring for fear as an adult As a kid there is not as much maturity in the brain development so we take more risks and do things usually without full consideration for consequences or outcomes As an adult we are master storytellers & do an incredible job of convincing ourselves to stay safe This was a fairly irrational fear of mine. Especially because I’ve been craving the feeling of riding a bike for awhile now. I knew I had to go do it! I had even put this on my list of 22 things by or at 22 for my last birthday I also always fantasized about riding a beach cruiser! So this past weekend I did it!!! Not only did I get on a bike for the first time since I was a kid, but I got on a bike I’ve always wanted to try riding but never have! Luckily I had the support of Robbie who always brings such a light heart and fun spirit to everything which made me feel even more safe and happy I could not stop smiling I looked forward to doing this all week and now that I’ve done it I wonder why I kept convincing myself I may not be able to This served as a powerful reminder for me to continue embracing my inner child, face the fears that have been created from past experiences, & expose myself to the things I want to shy away from I definitely wouldn’t say I’m going to become an avid biker or start doing things just to do them But if I get the nudge & fear comes up, I’ll know it just might be a good idea after all Sharing this because I really hope that if there’s something you’ve been wanting to do or are afraid to do or unsure of...that you now choose to do it If you don’t love it, that’s ok no one says you have to But maybe you will! & that’s worth a shot 🙂 What can you commit to doing? Let us know so we can all cheer each other on! 😊🥳👏🏻 Overcoming a Negative Relationship with Food Post-Show & on Prep; Stephanie M. Testimonial and Story9/1/2019 This video from my client totally made me cry. Nothing is more fulfilling than seeing my clients win I am going to share a really awesome story from my client Stephanie who was able to transform her relationship with food in 5 weeks with me. She said goodbye to overeating, binge-like behavior, negative self-talk, mindless eating. guilt, and the post-prep struggles with food that had crept up during her prep and worsened when she stepped away from a prep. Which she shares in her video here. Stephanie was riddled with guilt, shame, embarrassment and self-loathe every time she ate off her plan. She would automatically feel fat, body check, and hate herself. Then, she would let this control what she would do the rest of the day leading to restrictive behaviors. Stephanie saw this impacting her relationship not only with herself but others as well. When she reached out to me she was really concerned that she would never be able to move past this. She was very focused on her body, and saw food as a path to perfection rather than to health. She is now so happy to eat what she wants, has been more conscious to what she is eating, enjoying date nights, and has not binged. Want to know how she did it? Watch her video below (captions are up to date so if you can't listen, you can read :p) P.S. I gotta admit, this made me cry. To be recognized for the commitment, heart, time, and energy I put in to my clients makes me feel so warm and fuzzy. "I felt like I was her only client...I have never worked with someone who is so available for her clients...I am tearing up because... I truly felt she was there for me 110%, her coming into my life couldn't have come at a better time...words cannot actually express how awesome she is and the freedom she has given me..." -Stephanie M. Christchurch, New Zealand I am truly so happy with the progress Stephanie had during my 4 Week Food Relationship Healing Program for Bikini Competitors. In her review video below she not only shares what she accomplished but even some of the ways we worked together to work through it all. Stephanie got results because she was committed to the process, trusted me, and went all in! If you can, take some notes because she does share bits and pieces of my PTG process ;) <3 I translated the audio into written format to create captions and put it all in the bottom of this email bolding some important details, takeaways, and other insights she shared that I thought you might resonate with or find helpful. If this is a program you are feeling called to participate in and really commit to then fill out this form to apply for the program: https://forms.gle/VFUVJdf43FSf7aDK6 Once you hit submit I will review and reach out to you within 24 hours to chat about your specific situation in more depth, and then decide if this is the best option for you moving forward. You can watch her review video here: STEPHANIE'S TESTIMONIAL WRITTEN OUT:
"Hi I'm Stephanie and I'm from Christchurch New Zealand and I am very fortunate that I got to work with Celeste Rains-Turk and oh my gosh I can't even remember what life was like before I started working with her. So what happened was was I was prepping for a competition then two weeks out when I was on the crux with my Prep the show got cancelled and I was just so eager to get onto that stage that I committed to another show fourteen weeks out from that point and I've got a month into that prep and I was just yo-yoing like I was just going round around in circles and I would hear the weight of just say 63.4kg and then I'd increase back up to 63.7 kg and then I dropped back down to 63.4 kg and it was just a huge struggle. When I was finding it quite hard and I was in the context of being restricted and I just got really anxious and overwhelmed and really upset at myself and really wanted to focus on my mental mind frame going into the second prep so I contacted her and then shortly after I started working with her I made the decision not to do a show and Celeste really helped me with my mindset in my transition from going full-on prep to being reverse dieted And you know the reverse dieting lacked integrity heaps I didn't follow the plan 100% and she got to help me through the mental mind frame and the mental spaces that I went through due to my lack of integrities and also my thought patterns around food because I'm also an ex anorexic and binge eater from like 5-7 years ago and so during this period all of those thought patterns were coming up really strongly And so she got to help me through that And how she improved my life, the biggest thing is really acknowledging that even when there's a plan in place sometimes you aren't going to have 100% integrity and it's just being able to acknowledge the actions that you took acknowledge the reasoning behind those actions like why did you take those actions learn from what it was that had you take those actions and then recommit to your goals And instead of like my usual where I would indulge and the action and then be riddled with guilt shame embarrassment I'd start self-loathing myself I'd start hating myself what I ate if it was off the plan and then I would automatically feel fat I would automatically be body checking and I'd automatically be feeling fat I would be hating myself what else it would determine my future food actions for the day and also would determine how I felt and how I was being in life So if I ate off my nutrition plan if I had eaten off my nutrition plan, if I was out of integrity with my nutrition everyone around me knew because I was this arrogant righteous person picking on everyone because I was just so angry and upset at myself that I then projected that on others around me and so Celeste really gave me the freedom to be able to make mistakes and then learn from them and it's been very freeing to the point that I'm happy to eat whatever I want and I haven't binged in this period I've been very conscious to what I'm eating and so the weird feeling is is I have over eaten like I've had large portions of just say ice cream for fun on my date nights and stuff but I've been conscious to every mouthful And with that consciousness I've subconsciously or unconsciously eaten less however having the same experience of eating more than enough and I've maintained my weight give or take a couple of kilos which is extraordinary to think that my body can cope with that sort of thing And it is all about mind frame like my mind frame was determining how I felt and this freedom was just great so I can allow myself to have fun and eat off the plan but consciously and it's beautiful and one of the things I love about the work that I did with Celeste was like we had to do a mealtime ritual before every meal and one of the questions that gets asked is does it move you closer or further away from your goals and I had a vast range of goals like ones related to my body ones related to show next year goals in relation to building a community being an awesome nurse etcetera etcetera And so I get to just say if I have this piece of brownie so yeah I get to say that it moves me further away from maintaining my weight further away of heading integrity with my nutrition plan further away of getting closer to that stage in May however it moves me closer to having a social life having fun having freedom and learning how foods reacts with my body so even though it moves you further away from some goals it moves you closer to other goals which makes is really exciting to think that food doesn't always have to be about one aspect of your life it can transfer into other aspects and it was just really cool to see there and get that it's not all about body image and you can have fun with food and and yeah I hope that's translating And Celeste oh man I have multiple coaches I have a nutrition coach I have a personal trainer I have a life coach I have Celeste and I have a business coach so I have many coaches that far out Celeste is 1574.937434762% available you know I would message her every night with my daily reflection she'd always get back to me acknowledge what was awesome get curious with no judgments ask me questions so that I can reflect further then I would get back to her about that so she really created an opening for self-reflection and opening for self-discovery and with no judgment and she was just absolutely beautiful to work with I really felt like I was her only client I really felt like she was my friend rather than a paid client coach relationship just extraordinary I've never worked with someone who occurs and is so available to her clients and I want to keep working with her THIS PART MADE ME CRY EVEN MORE!!!! And it's just extraordinary like I've been listening to her podcast since I cant even remember but maybe when It first started and I'm tearing up because this is because I'm just so moved by who she is as a person I'm this Joe Bloggs that lives here in New Zealand and Celeste to me is someone who's extraordinary has an amazing podcast and I follow her on Instagram and stuff and so she's like my she's my famous person you know cause If I see her on the street I would just assume that everybody would wave at her like they would the Queen um and for me to have the privilege to be able to work with her and actually feel like a friend and feel like someone that she wants to dedicate time to irrespective of whether I paid for it or not I really felt like she was there for me 150% and it's it it just humbles me to think that someone who I think so dearly actually feels that I'm worthy enough to spend time with and yeah her coming into my life couldn't have come in at a better time and I'm definitely wanting to spend more time with her and work with her for more and yeah I words can't actually express how awesome she is and in the freedom that she's given me there's still more lessons to be learnt and there's still more discovery and there is no one else I would rather do it worth than with her and her support yeah so that's me and touching the hearts and minds of people in New Zealand like this extraordinary that a human being can do this so thanks Celeste" |
Celeste Rains-Turk
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