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I write a new blog almost daily! Feel free to comment, share, and connect with me! I love hearing from my readers!
We came together as strangers and left as sisters, gathering with hope in our hearts for inner transformation, knowledge and growth.
When I walked into the doors of the Bayside Conference Room to see a beautiful view of the water, boats, and warm sunshine peaking in, I knew magic was going to unfold.
Envisioning this event for years, going all in planning and promoting for it this summer, and seeing it come to life this fall was an absolute dream.
I set powerful intentions each day for my event, leading up to it I especially spent time visualizing transformations occcuring, breakthroughs ensuing, and connections forming.
As each woman walked in the doors I could feel the energy strengthen in the room; each and every person served a purpose there that I will always remember.
I was amazed by the ways that each individual held space for the others, how they listened to each other, honored one another, and supported each and everyone there.
I loved how they asked questions, spoke up about what they were going through, shared openly, and came with completely open minds.
We cried, we laughed (a lot actually), we meditated, we walked, we learned.
As much as I was the host and the leader of the workshop, this event taught me so much as well.
As we discussed self-love, body image, food relationships, and mindset related topics I could FEEL shifts happening in the room.
The energy in the room when we left it was even more beautiful than when we arrived.
I have an overwhelming feeling of joy, gratitude, and purpose welling within me not only when I reflect but as I write this.
Many of us didn't even want to leave!
I am so grateful, so happy, that people traveled near and far to come to the event. We had girls from Florida, South Carolina, and Arizona! We had people drive from different parts of California too. All to come together and BUILD MORE THAN JUST A BODY.
That my friends, is what wakes me up in the morning.
If I could express how I feel it would be in the form of art with a heart exploding colors and lights.
I have no other words to express what happened in that room other than, you really need to experience it for yourself to know.
Where should I bring the next Build More than Just a Body LIVE Event?!
I posted a poll on my story and have already received some great suggestions! Let me know where you want me to come next! :D
Thank you so much to EdgeSupps and Ingrid Romero for Giving us SO many amazing supplements, apparel, and even DVD workout videos to support my attendees in their journeys, there was absolutely NO edge supps left. They CLEANED UP! lol!
BamBody Nutrition and Stefanie Antorcha, Thank you so so much for providing us with your delicious Protein treats
Hydration Junkie for gifting us 2 transporter jugs that I was able to giveaway to two of my Attendees that LOVE them
OMG Custom Bikinis for so generously giving us TWO rental competition suits! SO Excited that two of the ladies are going to have suits for their next show
I APPRECIATE YOU ALL FOR BELIEVING IN ME, THE VISION, AND THESE WOMEN.
This event was even MORE of an experience because of all of YOU
and THANK YOU Robbie for being my rock and support system through it all. More to come on his amazingness later <3
CAN'T WAIT TO SHARE PHOTOS AND VIDEOS FROM CORY HAGEMAN WHO DOCUMENTED THE EVENT, I KNOW IT IS GOING TO BE AMAZING <3
Overcoming An Unhealthy, Reactive, Toxic Relationship with Food Without Punishment or Empty Promises
It’s not the chips that are triggering you, it’s you who is seeing the chips as a trigger
Rather than throwing all your nut butters, chocolate, candies, or even fruit away because you “can’t control yourself around it”
Challenge yourself to change the thoughts that are creating that pent up desire and urge to go crazy on them!
To say “I’ll never have xyz again” is like an automatic promise to struggle in the future
Make a more realistic commitment to YOURSELF and for your choices rather than forming negative thoughts about food or blaming it
When we have experiences with food, we take away a lesson, then that lesson impacts future decision making
Pay attention to the experiences you’re having with food and what you’re taking away from them
A healthy relationship with food is one that is conscious, not restrictive, shameful, or punishing
You can also work backwards, Pay attention to your behaviors and ask yourself, “where is this coming from, what is driving this?”
And from there you can shine light on the negative beliefs and thought patterns that don’t serve you and learn NEW lessons
If you’re struggling with your relationship with food YOU CAN GET THROUGH IT, YOU’RE NOT A LOST CAUSE, YOU CAN MAKE PEACE
Apply for my 5 Week Food Relationship Healing and Discovery Program HERE
What do you think?
Do words really carry so much weight?
Is the way we speak to people really that important?
Do we need to be so mindful of the language we use?
How we say things, does that even matter?
Well of course it does!!! We are all human! And we developed language for a reason! To express ourselves!
Sometimes when someone is thinking these things themselves they don’t need someone else to come in and say it to them or remind them of it
It can worsen, create, or perpetuate an already unstable or unhealthy thinkers mind especially if they are working to mend that💜🧠
I really believe it is important to speak with intention, consideration, and love
What you say can be a reflection of what you believe so think before you speak and consider how someone else might feel
Of course, I’m definitely not perfect at this but I have come to understand better ways to communicate with people
Especially since I became more conscious of how others were speaking to me
Being aware of their situation, not making assumptions, and just genuinely caring about them goes a long way
In elementary school they used to repeat “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all”
Which I think has always stuck with me!
Of course, we don’t always know how to talk to someone or we don’t think what we are saying is bad at all
Which is just a learning opportunity for you and a boundary setting opportunity for them
Which means both parties have to communicate with each other
I’m sure some competitors read this infographic and thought, “none of that has bothered me before??”
But I’m also sure there were many more competitors who thought, “OH MY GOSH THANK YOU YES SERIOUSLY”
So for them, I made this 🙂
If you’re a competitor who has dealt with this, speak up, share your thoughts with others, and be very clear with what you need
And that’s another thing IT IS OK TO ASK FOR WHAT YOU NEED (I’ll save this for another day lol)
Would love to hear your thoughts!
Do you find these statement replacements more helpful and kind?
Would you prefer to hear what’s on the right side than the left?⬇️💓🙂
Just a little reminder to you, amazing soul💓🌞😊
Today is a GREAT day to focus on what makes you YOU and use that as your guide to establish a healthier self-concept!
While all of these things in this image can play a role in what we do, who we become, what we accomplish, how we feel, and the way we see ourselves...NONE of it truly defines YOU
Self-worth is such a wild concept
Most research concludes that basing self-worth on external factors is not conducive to improved mental health
It can be so difficult to disconnect from the external world and really look within
But the more time you spend with yourself, asking yourself questions, evaluating where your current programming is coming from, your core values, and choosing to focus on what makes you a unique soul in this world, you’ll find it gets easier and easier
Much of this doesn’t equate to a number and some weird statement of “I’m worth xyz $”
It’s more about cultivating a deeper sense of self that will help you in boundary setting, relationships, prioritization, communication, and overall life
It’s important to strip all of this away and ask ourselves things like what is left, how has this changed me, what is it about me that created these results, where am I really shining in life, what do I really care about without all of this, what am I doing anything for, what type of life do I desire, who do I have to become to be able to equate my worth to more than what I can tangibly experience?
Become inquisitive, become introspective, and of course... Build More than Just a Body 💜💙
Need some help with this? Contact me, let’s talk☕️🧠💜
How is it that my very first event that I’m hosting is 7 days away already?!!
I feel SO incredibly grateful, happy, and excited. I cannot contain myself😭❤️ Of course I have fears too but I’m not feeding them
I’m hyper focused on the intention of this event and making sure the attendees are left truly feeling like they have some of the best tools to Build More than Just a Body
I am so ready to greet the amazing competitors who are coming to learn about the personal development & psychology behind creating the most fulfilling & empowering improvement seasons and preps
We’ve got 5 hours of deep inner work, learning, growing, and most importantly IMPLEMENTATION
Anyone who knows me knows I’ve got lots of fun practices up my sleeves and you bet I’ll be sharing many at this event
I sometimes get caught up in exactly HOW things will go and this event has already taught me to detach from the outcomes and go with the flow
Anyone who knows me also knows I am a MASSIVE planner, down to a T & nothing less
But of course, this is a live event & what’s most important is connections, transformations, and the overall experience
I have decided that to celebrate being sold out, I’m going to sell 2 more seats
It sounds silly maybe but I’d rather know that not a single seat is wasted and what if someone doesn’t show up?! That’s taking away from someone else who wanted to be there
So I’m opening up 2 more seats, maybe you’re the reason for this? Maybe one of those seats is meant for you?
If you want to dig into self love, body image, food relationships, mindset & identity work, & all things making peace with food, your body, & your goals then send me a message
The event is on October 12th from 9am-2pm in San Diego
It is for female competitors or women who have an interest in competing & see how important 🧠 work is
If that’s you, Contact me to reserve your seat
The seat is $35 to reserve but I’ll be giving this money back to you at the event (for accountability purposes)
& to everyone coming, I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET YOU!!!😊
Eating is Not Just About Willpower, Self-Control, and Discipline; Why we Need to STOP Thinking this Way
Eating isn’t always about how much self-discipline or control you do or don’t have
Sometimes it’s about taking steps to mend your relationship with all food and remove the rules and labels
Sometimes it’s about enjoying it because you want it and truly know that one thing isn’t going to ruin your progress or life
Sometimes it’s about learning how to make more conscious choices for your body
I notice a lot of people in the bodybuilding community want to pass off their decisions to how much ‘self-discipline, willpower and control’ they have
I can’t help but think this is an ignorant approach to food and eating
Eating something off plan or outside of your macros doesn’t always have to do with willpower or discipline
I work with competitors
Women who go months without even thinking of taking a lick of food off their plan
Women with so much willpower that you couldn’t even tempt them with extra peanut butter
Women with so much self-control that they eat what’s measured and move on despite tummy growls
Only to come out of a prep and suddenly “lose all control”
You want to tell me “they (or maybe even you) just don’t have the discipline”? Lol, that’s not the problem
I mean, it can be in some cases, but with a competitor like that, it’s probably not
Fixation mindset with new found ‘freedom’ mixing with the commitment to be ‘on point’ with their reverse?
Long term deficit & restrictions?
No more ‘tangible goal’ like a show in mind?
Feeling a sense of identity loss being off prep?
Having stressors or negative patterns of their life & within themselves revealed to them now that the distraction of prep has been taken away?
YES, all of this is MUCH more likely to be the reason for these “out of character” behaviors
But lack of willpower, discipline, and self-control...ehhhh probably not
The feeling of lacking those three things is usually just because that’s how it appears on surface level and how we are conditioned to define our behaviors
“She can’t say no to food so she has no self-control”
“Stuffing your face for weeks post show is just being irresponsible and shows a lack of willpower”
“Falling off your reverse diet shows how little discipline someone has, they have no respect for their coach”
MEANWHILE the competitor struggling with this is thinking;
“Why can’t I stop thinking about food?...How come I keep eating and can’t stop myself even when I followed macros all day?...I am so ashamed that I let my coach down too...”
This is why I believe Passing off VERY serious problems as a lack of discipline is just ignorant
Not to mention some women only follow their diet to the letter because they are so filled with fear of any fat gain, are craving freedom so badly but are too afraid to give it to themselves, have no control over anything else in their life and this is there only sense of it, would rather use a diet as an excuse for unhealthy beliefs about food than actually address what’s happening beyond surface level
WE JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON IN SOMEONE’S HEAD BASED ON HOW THEY EAT
SHAMING OTHER PEOPLE FOR THEIR CHOICES WHEN YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY ARE GOING THROUGH OR NEED IS PART OF THE BIGGER PROBLEM
I am NOT saying competing doesn’t require discipline because it absolute does
But I AM saying that its not the only thing that gets tested or brought to the surface in this sport
Build More than Just a Body
My Client, Nichole & I Discuss How we Worked Together to Develop Self-Love & Mend Her Relationship with Food
I LOVE my clients so so much and connecting with them in this way, hearing about their breakthroughs and their reviews of my program means so much to me.
My Client Nichole & I Decided to Make a Video to Discuss How we Worked Together to Develop Her Self-Love & Mend Her Relationship w/ Food in hopes to help and inspire someone like you to do the same if you are also in a similar dark place to where she was.
Nichole opens up about her experiences post-show and what she was going through before reaching out to me to begin my Food Relationship Healing & Discovery Program
We discuss some of the breakthroughs she made & even give insight into how she made them
Working with Nichole has been and continues to be awesome. She is a great example of how trusting the process (and your coach) goes a long way
Thank you for the amazing words Nichole and for committing 100% to this journey!
I am so happy you had such a positive and empowering experience! I’m excited to continue seeing your internal shifts and growth😍
To learn more about and apply for this program send me a Message now or click here: https://forms.gle/cvfaUAg7M5YQ2VNi7
In case you need even more reassurance that this could be for you Here are some more testimonials❤️: www.celestial.fit/testimonials
Always finding yourself hungry for more food? Like you can never get enough?
Especially after a long day, an emotional or stressful event, or when you just want to relax?
Turning to food over & over & over again wondering, “why do I keep doing this?”
Like a curse that you can’t break
No matter what diet you’ve got or plan you’re on or how hard you are trying to just ‘stick to the plan’ or ‘eat more mindfully’ or eat when you’re ‘actually hungry’ it seems like food finds its way in to your life
It gets under your skin like the devil on your shoulder
Going from being ‘on point’ to suddenly reverting back to that ‘I don’t really care’ mentality
Soon you justify the actions you are taking or you eat so much so quickly as though it’s the last time you’ll eat this way again
It feels naughty but also so good
Then you stop, & the shame, guilt, anger, & frustration comes over you to affirm that you ‘failed’ again
It’s a horribly overwhelming feeling, & it tends to feel completely unresolvable
But the truth is, you can get through it
While the game plan for getting through it is not the same for everyone, there are some commonalities
Have you ever asked yourself what you’re
r e a l l y
hungry for, craving, or needing...Out of life itself?
You know, the emotional starvation, soul deprivation, & complete voids in your life that never seem fillable or are far too deep & too dark to even look at or go near?
Those soul needs
Could be the reason you’re continuously eating
In order to address the eating, we must address what you’re really hungry for
Important to note again that this can look different on people. Some don’t eat at all when experiencing this—for another day
With the clients I work with & process I take them through I focus on many factors
Here are 3 simple ones that sum up this post that you can start with:
2. Identify the void & its origin
3. Address the void
Of course, there are important sub steps to each of these which makes having a mentor to help you, very beneficial
If you’re looking for support w/ your relationship with food, send me a message now to see if & how I can help you
If you are a competitor, I invite you to apply for my 5 Week Food Relationship Healing and Discovery Program for Competitors here 💜
If you are not a competitor but ready to take action to heal your relationship with food now, sign up for my 4 week food freedom academy here
Can’t help but look in the mirror and see myself like modeling clay
A lil here, lil there, less here, more there
Then it all starts to reveal itself and I think okay now a lil more here and a lil more there
The process is really never ending
One of the greatest rewards bodybuilding has given me is patience
You can work your butt off for months on end building and building, step on stage, and realize you got more work to do
Isn’t that life though?
Always room for improvement?!
I believe it’s all about how you look at it
Some people will be told to bring more to the table and think
“Are you serious!? More!! I’ve given so much and this still isn’t enough!?”
While others will say,
“Yes! Omg thank you for recognizing & encouraging me to see that more growth is possible! I’ll take on the challenge because I love this. I am enough now & know that because I’m enough I can bring even better!”
Very different energies
Very important to recognize which space you’re in most frequently
I hear a lot of people of all sorts of professions or hobbies say they’ll stop when they don’t love the game anymore
But I think that many people never have strong reasons or find their reasons to love the game they’re playing in the first place
Which ultimately, in my opinion, allows that love to last a lot longer
It has to go deeper than surface level, all games of life, whatever game you’re playing, it can’t just be about the game or winning or doing something fun or even negative motives like filling a void
Has to go DEEPER, do you agree??
There’s a reason you’re showing up day in and day out, right? So, what is it?
I will be going through some powerful exercises, with my event attendees next month, to help you really peel back the layers & bring you to your core reasons (you can click here for event details if this interests you)
Also, I am getting closer and closer to launching something I’ve been working on for the past couple months now
I can’t wait to introduce it to the competition world. Nothing like it exists yet
I have a few clients testing it out for me first to give me their first impressions and review their experience
Lots going on, stay tuned 🤩
Outside of competing, who are you?
What do you love to do?
What lights you up?
What do you spend time thinking about?
What other goals do you have?
What other roles do you play?
Who are you?
Even though competing is day in and day out and many would still live this lifestyle or one like it if the stage didn’t exist, I still find myself wondering who are these people??
I scroll online and see so many amazing women who share powerful messages for others and yet, I don’t know who THEY are
This was one of the inspirations for starting my podcast “Confessions of a Bikini Pro” but I connect with so many of you every day and find that even online we stay wrapped up in our world and identities of “competitors”
So share something with me about you!
Maybe you’re an avid book reader, love making art, enjoy a specific subject, can’t get enough nature, love to dance, or you work outside of the industry or you flip houses or invest in the stock market or love going outside every morning or you have quirks about you
I’d love to know😍😊
Comment something below and share
Let’s remember together that we are so much more than this sport or this lifestyle
And let’s be prepared to continue doing more outside of this sport and our passion for it
Because if one day you couldn’t do it anymore, what would be left?
It’s a strange thought
It would be like a part of you dying
And when we contemplate our own death, we tend to strive for even more in our life
So this conversation might do just that😍
But my hope is really to just learn more about you guys and see what else is happening in your world
We can love and live this while also loving and living so many other things
It’s easy to forget that there’s more to other people we follow than this lifestyle
Can’t wait to hear 😍!
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