Welcome to my Blog
I write a new blog almost daily! Feel free to comment, share, and connect with me! I love hearing from my readers!
Welcome to my Blog
I write a new blog almost daily! Feel free to comment, share, and connect with me! I love hearing from my readers!
1. Even if your best is not better than the rest, it’s still your best and worth celebrating for your own improvements & the opportunity to stand next to others and see what needs to be done to do even better
2. Life can change really fast, take advantage of time with people you love whilst catching the darts that get thrown at you along the way
3. Waiting for opportunities is only a result of limited belief in the value We bring to the table, I’m taking more time to own what I bring and reach out for those things I want & that align with my vision
4. I’m also learning how to better express love and appreciation or kudos to other women in hopes I can make them feel the way they’ve made me feel—empowered, supported, seen, and appreciated. Thank you guys for always cheering for me!
I find it so easy to just work work work and focus so much on growing, expanding, improving... But I need to remember to PAUSE, BE PRESENT, & ENJOY THE FRUITS OF MY LABOR
Between clients, school, business development, my podcast, prep, & everything else life brings I tend to get caught up in always “getting ahead” or staying ahead because then I can “chill later” but it’s a fallacy I’ve made in my mind
I don’t always take advantage of the time I’ve created for myself
I often just find more to do, get carried away by ideas & inspiration, or justify why I shouldn’t plan something or do something outside of the norm of my day to day
The good news is I love everything I do in my life and day to day so its great to have a lifestyle I love & be surrounded by so many great people & opportunities
But at what point am I just working & working to work?
I find I am able to fulfill my values of freedom, impact, and love EVERY DAY because I’ve built this life of choices & abundance & passion & amazing people
I don’t always “need” to find it elsewhere. I don’t question how much I do each day because it’s natural for me & my passion
I love learning more about psychology, counseling, competing, business, etc
I love dedicating time to my clients
I love competing
I love writing blogs, captions, & making content
I love prepping episodes & hosting my podcast
I love all the people in my life so don’t often go out of my way to find more haha
I just am so full of love internally & receive lots of fulfillment externally
But I deserve to feel freedom and love and impact outside of my work even though work doesn’t feel like work all the time
Riding the bike around San Diego really reminded me of this & now I’ve gotten really excited about all the competing & truly making weekend “vacations” out of it & taking in LIFE & LIVING
I do things for myself daily but much of it is habitual / ritual
I also want to tap into my spontaneous adventurous side that LOVES travel & new experiences
Have you ever struggled with pressing pause in order to “play”? Especially when you love your life & aren’t trying to “escape”?
BUILD MORE THAN JUST A BODY
I used to dread the way my back shot looked because I knew it was a weak point of mine, now I get excited to see it!!
At one point I thought I may never have the lines or the tie in I needed
So, I went to work in the gym every day to prove myself wrong
I focused, with great intent, on the engagement of every muscle fiber I wanted to recruit
When I took time off to grow it was for all around shape but I knew I didn’t wanna come back & have the same back shot
So I would hit weights heavy! I did lots of compound movements & used progressive overload
If I couldn’t progress in weight, or I did and it sacrifices form, I’d progress with tempo, reps, & pauses
I remember repeating sets if the engagement wasn’t exactly how I wanted it/knew it needed to be
Eventually I could just turn those muscles on without having to hyper focus on them which was a huge sign of progress
I still did band work, cables, and ankle weights—mixing up my approach to leg days along the way but made hip thrusts, lying hamstring curls (thrusting hips into pad of course squeezing glutes whole time), RDLs & sumo deads a major part of my routine staples to progress in
I am SO proud of the growth I created & when I started working with my coaches again after the improvement season I had put on a lot of weight but you could see the developments I made!
We focused on conditioning & still are. It’s a team effort to balance keeping muscularity & creating the nice lines you want
I’m so grateful to have the guidance of @teamedge1 for so many years now because we have evolved so much together & will continue to over the years!
We are 11 days out from @sampsonproductions ace of stage & when I say I’m giving it my all still, I mean it
Even more than before because the goal in body building is not just to improve in improvement season but improve every day in some way
I measure improvements in energy, sleep, training, mindset, sprints, runs, control, ability to listen to body, relationships, pushing limits, stress management, life balance...lots of ways to improve
I believe ALL of them do add up & do reflect on stage
BUILD MORE THAN JUST A BODY
SO grateful I get to live this lifestyle, and now travel to shows again! I can’t wait to do this on an international level 1 day too!
I am so happy I got to be up there last week & I can’t wait to do it again in 13 days!
It’s awesome to finally really see the muscle I’ve built under stage lights!
Now we are focused on dialing in conditioning even more & making sure I make the most of my time on stage
I felt sooo good up there, calmer and more confident than ever but still went a bit too fast when I could have taken my time more
The more I look at these shots the more proud I am! At first I was critical but now I am really just grateful
I‘ve been living this life regardless of circumstance
My body, brain, and finances have all been in a great position to continue! So why not?!
My goal is to get a national qualification again so I can finally compete to earn a welcome into the IFBB pro league
Since my last show I’ve really allowed myself to feel emotions & work through various thoughts & feelings I was experiencing
I reflected on how INCREDIBLE the experience was and how grateful I was to be able to do this and to be living a life I love—eating, training, doing what I love supporting others, running my biz, and making a big difference all while furthering my education to expand my ability to serve, support, and advocate in this space!
What’s not to be grateful for!?
I feel SO much more detached from the outcome because I’m creating the space to remember there’s MANY reasons why I do this
Of course, when I win it’s gunna be amazing and fulfilling and rewarding in SO many ways especially because I’ve prioritized my internal validation & fulfillment
This sport calls for continuous growth & improvement which is one of the things I love so much because it keeps you PRESENT and focused
I’m so happy to be in such a clear head space ready to continue making the most of this season & honoring the person I’ve become since I very first even started my fitness journey back in high school
Change is an inevitable, guaranteed continuum so why not embrace all of it & CELEBRATE YOURSELF along the way for creating the change you want😍👏
Morning gratitude to my boyfriend Robbie who’s made me feel so so loved every day since we first met—yes, met
This is his bday month so get ready because I celebrate his life more than he does around his bday🤣😍
He is everything I ever dreamed of and more
I have never known a more upfront, patient, kind, loving, & thoughtful man
He’s taught me about what it means to have balance, to let go, to truly be present and okay with going with the flow—I’m still learning but he’s the balance that helps me
Robbie literally blows me away with how supportive he is and how willing he is to help
He did so much to make my show weekend run smoothly but more than that I didn’t have to ask him to do anything
He and I were talking about posting about our relationship on social media and how we don’t do it as a crutch or to make up for anything or to prove something
I told him I often post about him so other women know they too can accept incredible love into their life
Often it’s even a reminder for me. I use blogging to reflect & share and when I get to thinking about him I can’t help but feel overwhelmed with gratitude
Robbie makes me feel so loved every day through his actions and words
He is consistent & knows me so well (arguably in some ways more than I know myself)
This man does nothing but stand by me and cheer me on and he does so in way difficult for me to put in words
The most special moments we share together are curled up giggling, poking fun at each other, talkin nonsense, or just being present
We reflect together, have grown together, & both are committed to being better as individuals for one another
I believe it’s important to love ourselves and be examples to the people in our life of how we want to be treated & expect to be treated
I also believe we can go the extra mile for others when we do this
Just sharing my love & appreciation for him being such a light in my life & all the amazing things he did to support me at my show!
He helped me diy tan & made sure it was PERFECT, encouraged me through doubt, got me fries just in case coach said to have, took pics, & was there right before & after-to name a few things
Love you bubble😘
Champions are not defined by their trophies or medals or titles but by their actions, commitments, and missions
In my eyes, I left today a champion in many ways;
Of & for myself—this is the best prep I’ve ever had; the most free, empowered, & successful in terms of mindset, overcoming challenges, & persisting
Truly a lifestyle for me more than it has ever been before
From Sep 2018 I worked to improve for this show & I did! I brought my best
2 years off the stage & in incredible prep with my most amazing coaches at @teamedge1 @joediscuillo who never gave up on me & encouraged me since last April when we started the prep & @ingridromero1 who I’ve been blessed with encouragement, guidance, friendship, & strength from
I am a champion for my family, friends, & my boyfriend
The support & love from loved ones was amazing. Their unwavering support & belief in me is incredible
They’ve seen it all & never doubted me. They don’t support me because of a record but because they know I love this
I am & will continue to be a champion for mental health—especially in the competitor space
I live, breathe, & represent my mission to help others #BUILDMORETHANJUSTABODY and this is something I do every day in my life & will continue to advocate and promote here
I am so grateful to be supported in every way by so many of you
I was blown away by the DMs I received from so many of you supporting me, cheering me on, & even reflecting on this journey I’ve been on over the last couple of years with me
This was my 7th show I’ve ever done. That’s not that much in the grand scheme of life & I will take many W’s & more L’s along the way in terms of placing. This was the 2nd time I haven’t placed aside from my first show ever. It stings but it’s making me stronger
I started tearing up when I walked into the venue & saw the stage
I felt like I never left when I stepped up there. I was peaceful. I wasn’t shaking like a leaf or worried. I breathed through it & reminded myself I’ve done this every day & today is no different
There aren’t enough words to truly capture how I feel right now but for now I’m enjoying my time in San Diego with Robbie my sister & her boyfriend 💆🏻♀️🥰
Counting down the days till it’s show time🥳🤯🤩⌛️
This peak week has generated some serious changes in my body thus far and we just keep moving forward every day!
One more full body workout today then fasted cardio in the morning and I’m donezoooo
SOOOO frikkin excited to do this you guys—I get emotional when I visualize or think about it
I know the moment will feel like time is standing still, repeating itself, and going fast—still because so intense in emotion, repeating because of all the times I’ve seen myself do this, and going fast because of the rush
Thank you all so much for following this journey and all the support along the way
I am grateful for those of you who have been cheering me on!
This prep has been different than any other prep before and it’s been amazing to see the body I spent so much time building slowly reveal herself
I feel love & gratitude on overdrive today
I’ll be giving updates on Friday and show day on my Instagram story too!
This prep has been rewarding because it has been challenging
Seemed like Right when things were getting better or going to plan, something goes wrong or gets thrown off
I swear I am being tested sometimes
Or maybe just given the strength I need for my future, my mission, the work I do...
Regardless, persistence has been an ongoing theme for me
I remind myself I am worthy of pushing & overcoming because of all the overcoming I’ve already done
There have been many times I really thought I may not make it, I may not be able to do what I need to do despite my best efforts—I’ve proven myself wrong many times
But those aren’t the toughest struggles for me
It’s the ones that you don’t have as much control over & have to change expectations or switch things up
No one told me the gyms would close in the third month of the year or my shows would be cancelled or postponed over and over again
I didn’t know I’d have to run and run and run daily because I had no other options
But what sucks is yesterday it felt like my foot started breaking—really after all these weeks, days out I get this!?
I can hardly put weight on it now, I keep reminding myself I’ll be okay & I’ll find a way
I heated the pool to swim and my sis has a spin bike I used this AM, & I’m modifying to make it work!
I felt defeated like how after prepping for over a year & a half can I be a few days out & have this happen?
How will I walk on stage? How will I do my plyos? How will I finish my final week with everything I got left?
I felt the fears & the doubts
But I’m an athlete & this is bringing out the champion in me—& I can still function which is worth celebrating🥳
I’ve never been one to give up or stop playing just because things get tough
That’s why I immediately started figuring out ways to make it work & focused on my inner dialogue & what I can control
I AM CAPABLE, WORTHY, & DESERVING OF THE RESULTS I DESIRE IN ANY & EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE
I BUST THROUGH LIMITATIONS
I AM MY OWN CHAMPION
I OWE IT TO MYSELF TO DIG & KEEP GOING
I have been so POSITIVE through pain & so grateful for this experience I CHOOSE TO OVERCOME & GROW THROUGH THIS too
I BUILD MORE THAN JUST A BODY
I just realized that when I step on stage on August 29th it will almost be exactly 2 years since I’ve been up there
This photo was from my last show, September 1, 2018🙀🤯
I’ve been so focused from the moment I got off stage
From prioritizing health, to building the muscle they asked for, and practicing posing like crazy while studying the industry always and of course killing this prep since April 2019 now!
It is going to be so so so sweet and magical the moment I feel those stage lights warm my nostalgic smelling skin and have that rush through my body that transcends a physical experience
To finally have a culmination of all my discipline, commitment, and triumphs over challenges come to fruition
It almost seems surreal to think it’s actually going to happen in 13 days!!!
After all the postponements, cancels, and question marks I’m excited to REALLY DO THIS THING—I don’t even care what it requires of us with restrictions, or how diff the show runs, I’m doin this thing
I have a feeling I won’t even recognize the version of myself I’m bringing!
But better than that?
This has been the best prep ever. I’ve truly honored myself, my needs, and my goals the whole way
I’m celebrating that and using that energy to kill these last couple weeks
Upgrade coming soon👀😅
I truly believe everything happens with perfect timing and I will continue embracing each moment as it passes so when my moment comes I know how to be fully centered and present in it, I deserve that!
2 weeks out from my next show!🥳🤩
Little prep update for today! If you watched my stories then you’d see how I’ve been feeling hungrier, more tired, and definitely noticing a shift in energy
But I don’t complain about this, drag my feet, or feel sorry for myself
I am honestly CELEBRATING these feelings
It feels good to be experiencing changes in hunger and energy because of changes to the plan
It allows me to say THANK YOU to my body for continuing to support me in giving my all to every cardio, lifting, and posing session despite running on lower fuel!
I am finally so close to a show that changes are happening daily and it hasn’t been cancelled or postponed—we weren’t making it past the 4-5 week out mark without changes so this is REALLY exciting
After all these months, I’m grateful to know I am really going to get the chance to bring my absolute best!
I took a lot of time off to recover, build muscle, stabilize health, and have a slow prep
I am so thankful to have my body support me in pursuing these dreams and allowing me to see what I’m capable of
I feel so much mental peace knowing I am executing and have done everything this prep necessary for it to be my personal best one yet on every level and the results have spoken for themselves—on every level again
I have never seen my body like this outside of my visualizations that i brought with me every day to the gym while in a building phase and of course through prep and now at home for months now which is very empowering to see her come to life
When I feel the prep feels, I CELEBRATE because it has been so long since I truly got to get this close to the stage and FEEL them
They remind me what a powerful communicator and supporter my body is for me which only pushes me to be even better and go even further!
Complaining about prep doesn’t and never will make sense to me. I love this lifestyle, the sport, the challenges, the triumphs
It truly is incredible as it consistently requires me to be on top of my mental game and give everything even when all the brain and body wants to do is preserve
AGAIN, I AM GRATEFUL!