"I am so happy and grateful for my transformation and happy for hers too"
This came out of me while journaling in gratitude this morning. 
I was really connecting to a feeling and just writing as gratitude flowed through me and I almost crossed this out because I thought, "who is this 'her'?"
Then I realized. That 'her' is my soul.
I am happy and grateful that my soul has transformed with me. 
That she's shown herself. 
That she's opened up. 
That she's appeared in the world and is standing up for herself and her beliefs. 
That she's healthier. 
That she's more free. 
That she's happier.
The crazy thing? 
I didn't consciously think to write this down. 
I consciously thought to scratch it out as a mistake.
I then realized who really wrote this...
My soul took control and decided that she belongs in every aspect of my life.
I thought she had. 
She thought differently.
So she showed up and she made it known that she deserves to be recognized and acknowledged.
I fought the idea thinking, well technically she is me. But this was just to cover up the truth that sometimes my soul and I have space between us that's filled with a bunch of emotion either serving or limiting.
And this was her way of letting me know, "I am here. I transformed with you. Be grateful for me because I am grateful for you."
So it hit me.
When I would and do feel intertwined with my soul it is natural.
When I am only acting from my headspace I do not feel 'one' with her but rather like we are just holding hands on the journey.
That's it.
It's not only about knowing my soul is apart of me and choosing to sometimes showcase her or listen to her or become her.
It's about truly recognizing that she and I are the same. 
Every day. 
Every minute. 
Every decision. 
She's been here.
And I am grateful that she has transformed with me. Even when I neglected her consciously I took the time to connect with her when I felt that I was neglecting her.
This was a beautiful reminder to not just 'connect' with her. But to become her. And truly embody her. Because she is me at the deepest rooted level there is.
I am grateful she naturally came out of me today without me even consciously realizing immediately what happened until she stopped me from crossing it out and I took a deep breath and saw it for what it really was and felt her strong presence actually flow out of me, naturally.
This would never happen if I didn't recognize her power and love and abilities and strength and spirt.
Because I have. She has too.
We are transformed together. 
We are no longer just connected every now and then. 
We now seek oneness over connectivity. Because oneness allows us to show up together consciously and unconsciously;naturally.
❤ Your Soul and she will ❤ you back more deeply than you ever knew possible.
Xx
Building More Than Just a Body

[Vulnerably emotional share]
"No thought, just feel" 
Closing my eyes again I reconnected to my heart and discovered pain which I had repressed for so long and convinced myself it was 'not my pain to feel' despite its immense affect on my life, my beliefs, my choices, and my overall well-being.
I have always known I was afraid of being alone, loneliness, or loss of connection. I knew I had a lot to work through; there was healing to be done.
I always keep things real here and I want you to know, despite the way I show up online, I actually don't have a ton of close friends. And I haven't felt very 'connected' to people in person in a very long time aside from my boyfriend.
There are not a lot of people I can call out of the blue and open up fully to, or at least I haven't allowed myself too (I am going to get into this). My boyfriend is my closest friend of all but I don't really have more then 2 close girl friends who I feel I can really turn to.
This has been hurting my heart lately as I have felt so reliant on myself and I felt so distant from others, even family.
While I recognized this and came to many of my own conclusions I never opened up to the depth of which this pain and this problem stemmed from...
"I sense you still have some depression"
"Do you often get a sore throat or a cough?"
"I am getting sadness and grief around your heart..."
"...Does any of this resonate with you?"
Me: I don't feel that depressed anymore but when I do it is triggered by the potential of losing someone or something or me wanting to run from a confrontation that could cause this in fear of it happening. I don't normally get a sore throat or cough, no. Sadness and grief in my heart, I am not sure.
I knew what was happening. He was tapping into the energies with my chakras.
Then, we went deep. 
Shit got real, real fast. 
Heartache was uncovered.
Attachment was released.
And 3 beliefs were woven into me from all of the breakthroughs and deep discussion through the healing process: 
1. It is safe to trust
2. It is safe to love
3. It is safe to forgive
I am still sitting with all of this but I feel so much more open and light after this healing session.
I realize that cutting the ties between these 2 significant people's energies to forgive them is going to allow me to be more open in life to receive.
Wow? Sound familiar, Celeste? Just yesterday I did a video on "What do you need to release in order to receive what you truly desire?"
Apparently, I too needed to do a lot of releasing, we all do though.
I had to release energy that was not serving me and which I had pent up in what I have always been told to be my strongest chakra--my heart. I couldn't hold that there if I wanted to show up as my highest self...
I feel more open to: 
--New friendships (deep ones)
--Loving new people in my life deeply and strongly without the fear of losing them or going through all the fallouts I used to have. 
--Forgiving more freely and openly with loads of acceptance and true objectivity.
The past month the word "healing" has been coming up a lot for me. Then all these different types of healings have showed up for me, of course.
Today I was grateful to be guided through a Theta Healing Session with Mike Marschhausen. I appreciated his willingness to go all in with me and to create a space for me in which I felt open, comfortable, and confident in sharing deeply so I could heal.
While I am still getting my bearings after the session, I can say I feel there was a necessary shift which occurred for me, which I cannot deny or neglect.
I highly recommend you reach out to Mike and ask him about his Theta Healing. In all honesty, I didn't even know what it was, I just did it. And, I don't think I could even explain it now if I tried! All I can say is massive energetic healing.
Any action towards bettering yourself, your life, your body, your health, and your relationships is an act of self-love.
Every day I have the blessing and privilige of helping others live a life rooted more deeply in self-love while truly freeing themselves from self-loathe.
To care for yourself, to allow yourself to heal, to truly understand and listen to yourself, that is self-love.
When we look at the world we can all have very different perspectives. I respect them all. I find that perspective is highly based on your beliefs, your mindset, and the energy and love in your own heart and soul.
I truly believe that the more love we have for ourselves then the more love we can radiate out into the world and thus, the more love we can receive.
Any amount of outwardly, worldy, universal 'peace' must first come from inner peace.
I invite you to join me on my Self-Love Creation and Self-Loathe Liberation workshop.
All the information is on the page which I am linking in the comments below; you can register there too!
10% of every registration will be donated to YMCA-Miller Family and Big Brothers Big Sisters of Ventura County
I can't wait to see you there...
<3
P.S. If you felt touched by the story I shared and feel like you could really use some in depth healing around this I again encourage you to reach out to Mike Marschhausen he specializes in Theta Healing and does it full time. If you need me to connect you to him I can or just message him on your own :)
Xx,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit

I chose self love when...
--I gave up the things which no longer lit me up inside.
--I stopped after one suicide attempt.
--I demanded I go to therapy.
--I snuck out of a verbally abusive relationship.
--I stopped hanging out with people who didn't care even half as much about me as I did them.
--I sat in my car alone at lunch in high school to protect myself from negative energy and feelings I was left with. 
--I stopped putting up with men cheating on me or lying to me.
--I looked in the mirror and chose to start taking care of my body. 
--I turned down party invites which made me feel hurt and uncomfortable
--I stopped allowing people to guilt trip me into doing things for them or 'because they needed me' when in reality they just didn't feel comfortable on their own and would ignore or neglect me when they felt comfortable. 
--I stopped putting up with an environment full of people who didn't 'get' me. 
--I started my health and fitness journey and got a job as a coach to pay for my gym membership
--I started sleeping more and adjusted my schedule after almost crashing my car from nearly nodding off to sleep
--I started cooking healthy meals and pushing my body past its limits.
--I stopped allowing people to make me feel obligated and started allowing myself to trust what I truly felt and gave myself the power to say no. 
--I allowed myself to realize I had an unhealthy relationship with food even when I was at my most fit physique. 
--I allowed myself to heal.
--I invested over $30k in my personal development in one year. 
--I wanted to rest and sleep instead of going to the gym because I knew I'd be too out of it to even benefit.
--I listened and trusted my heart and quit a sport I played for my whole life and even signed to play in college so I could pursue what truly made me happiest. 
--I continuously follow what makes me happiest, not what is 'right' to others. 
--I allowed myself to love and be loved completely
--I focused on my bodies health and function over its look and shape. 
--I could have given everything up and gone the 'easy' way which in my mind would have been so much harder.
I don't need to continuously go on and share EVERY time I chose self love. Because, the truth is, I choose self love everyday, in every moment. 
No, it is not always easy. 
And yes, I do sometimes fail. 
No, it does not require painful work. 
Yes, it does require deep healing, releasing, liberation and creation. 
No, it doesn't have to wait until x,y,or z happens. 
Yes, you can love yourself RIGHT NOW.
It comes down to a choice. A decision. An identity shift that you are no longer a person who loathes, rather you are a person who loves.
I am hosting a Self-Love Creation and Self-Loathe Liberation workshop. 
We will be diving deep into: 
---Releasing Self-Loathe
---Discovering More ways to Love Yourself
---The Difference Between Affirmations and Actions and how to find a Healthy Balance between the two which Supports your growth.
---Digging Deep into WHY it's important to love yourself more for YOU not my why, or so and so's why, YOUR why.
---Daily Mindset Ritual to Align with your Souls inner beauty and warmth while setting you up for a successful day. 
---Specific Self-Love exercises will be walked through during this live workshop
There will also be time for questions of course!
This will be fun, exciting, deep, and potentially quite revealing for yourself.
I am so excited for the people who have already enrolled and locked in their spot.
This workshop would normally run for $97 but I am offering it for $20 for the next 6 days because I want to empower as many people to join as possible so we can empower others since 10% of every registration will be donated to the YMCA-Miller Family and Big Brothers Big Sisters of Ventura County
If you know this is something you could really use right now, why hold back any longer? 
It is no coincidence this opportunity was placed in front of you today...
You can join here: https://celeste-rainsturk.clickfunnels.com/self-love-creation-and-self-loathe-liberation-workshop-registration
FYI: This is a LIVE workshop which will be held in on Sunday, February 5th at 2 pm PST but will be designed so you can access it anytime be it through a replay a few hours later or 5 years from now when you want to revisit it and dive deep again.

My heart and soul have been expanding on levels I have never experienced before.
I have been becoming even more aware. 
​
My consciousness has been on the rise like crazy.

My inner voice has been leading me, pulling me, nudging me, and loving me so much more lately.
I've been listening and trusting so much more and it's magical what shifts I've been able to make.
I am feeling more deeply again. 

I am opening my eyes to things I have shut off or pushed down. 
I am realizing and releasing.

I have taken the time to list out the things which I must focus on healing. 
I had been aware of them but never allowed myself to truly highlight them and go yep this needs some work. 
But I am now. Because I know it's what I need and what I deserve.

I have been following this incredible woman the past few months. She and I connected awhile back through a mentoring group and I can't seem to get enough of her posts.

I had no idea what she was about but something led me to join her group and watch her videos or follow her posts. 
Not because I felt like I had to. I just did.

I found myself being drawn to her spiritual energy and enlightenment. 
Something I craved and sought but couldn't find comfort in.

Reading her writing and connecting with her was like a big AHA moment because it actually started to set my soul on fire, get me thinking again, and deeply realign and reconnect with my soul on an even DEEPER level.
Considering we crossed paths at a time of my life where I was really ready and seeking an awakening it came to no surprise that she gave exactly that.

All my best decisions have been made because of right place, right time, and right feeling.
My best decisions were simply made because it felt right not because it 'sounded good'.
When I made decisions that were not from a soul or love driven place they became poor choices.
But in my life, with mentors, coaches, or supporters I seem to attract exactly what I need to see, hear, or connect to at exactly the right time.

This in my mind, is no coincidence. In fact, I know it is meant to happen this way.

I am so grateful that Eleni Gray showed up in my life. I am so excited to begin working with her. To be honest, I'm not sure what I would say this is. What I know is that this is an opportunity to truly grow on a whole new level. Really expand my mind and my soul. And raise my energy in all areas of life to generate more freedom internally. I know this is the step I am meant to take. The pull has been so strong to truly connect with her and have healing done with her.

I invested in her because I am committed to my growth and serving the world at the highest level I can while continuously living my life freely and in my most optimal state so I can enjoy it to the utmost.

I believe we should trust the nudges we get and follow the direction our soul is taking us because chances are guaranteed that we need this for some particular reason.

This is a journey I am very excited to start.

When you feel drawn to someone or called to work with them, trust that calling and follow it.
Xx,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit
Building More Than Just a Body

[VULNERABLE SHARE--RAW TRUTHS]
I had been so hard on myself (and in all honesty sometimes I still am) telling myself since I've been working on my fitness since 2012 things like: 
 'I should have abs by now' 
'even some of your clients have abs now'
'You are doing it all right but they aren't showing up, what's wrong with you?'
'Why am I still able to squeeze certain parts of my belly?' 
'You should be doing x or y...'
And the list goes on.
As you can see, I don't have blocky abs that stand out when I'm flexing (not right now anyways). I definitely don't have abs when I am not flexing. I don't have popping obliques or a non-grabbable belly.
But I'm sharing this photo with you today because I actually love the fact that despite not having extremely visible abs or a poppin 6 pack; I am free.
--Free from the judgement that my fitness and health is solely based on having abs (still working on abs though) 
--Free from the belief that because I don't have abs then 'I'm not good enough' 
--Free from the comparison and jealousy of not having abs like that girl or that model. 
--Free from feeling like it's because 'I am doing something wrong'
I struggled to admit that I have had issues with food. I'd tell myself things like: 
--'You can't say that or people won't want to work with you' 
--'If you have a bad relationship with food people will try to force things into your mind and down your soul when all you want is support and love' 
--'You can't say you had a negative relationship with food because you've already supported it so much' 
--'You can't admit that this is a problem because then youll seem like you don't get it'
Oh, I get it.
I definitely 'get it'
--Forcing myself to workout after every meal or snack I ate because I didn't want to 'eat too much' 
--Forcing myself to never have a bite because 'I might as well have it all at that point' or 'It won't affect me but not having it will make me strong, disciplined, and I'll see better results' 
--Forcing myself to eat asparagus or other foods that I actually don't enjoy or which hurt my body and the way it digests or functions. 
--Forcing myself to only wear loose clothing because 'if I'm so fit I have to look really lean all the time' 
--Forcing myself to wear tight tank tops while I ate so I wouldn't be 'too big or bloated after' 
--Forcing myself to eat when I was bulking even when I wasn't hungry. 
--Forcing myself to take on so many habits of the people with aesthetics I love without truly understanding that that is NOT a healthy relationship with food.
I finally forced myself to release this and recognize what i was truly doing, feeling, experiencing.
Just because I was fit, healthy, lean, strong, and felt awesome doesn't mean I had everything straight.
I see fit people promoting unhealthy food relationships every day. Sad thing? They aren't even aware of how massively unhealthy it is. (There are reasons for every decision and not all are bad or unhealthy and some are very purposeful based on situation so please don't take this out of context)
Now? 
I am fit. 
I am healthy. 
I am strong. 
I am lean. 
I am building. 
I am growing.
The difference? 
I have a healthier relationship with food. 
I am kind to myself and my body. 
I listen and love myself. 
I am not obsessive. 
I am not forceful. 
I am love. 
I am love in the way of which I flow, I trust, I let go, I believe, I listen, and I treat myself.
I love myself enough to recognize I can have everything I desire in life with the proper focus and mindset. 
I believe in Building More Than Just a Body through aligning inner work with physical results.
None of these realizations or breakthroughs could have happened without introspection.
Best part? I am shedding excess fat weight off healthfully while growing muscle mass. I am seeing better results in my fitness now than before.
Why? 
 Freedom. Love. Choice. Honor. Respect. MINDSET.
None of this is actually about diet and exercise. 
If it was you'd eat the healthier foods more often like you know you need to and you'd workout like you know you need to and you'd be on it.
But that's not it. 
You are human. 
You are much more than a physical being. 
You are a deep soul, much deeper than surface level, which lives, breathes, and functions through a physically and beautifully manifested body. 
So when I say it's about 'Building More than Just a Body' I mean it really, really is. Because YOU are so much more than that.
I am on a mission to help others achieve long term results by emphasizing the importance of mindset, self-love, self-confidence, and self-esteem building strategies alongside the proper training and nutrition regimen.
I believe in diving deep and truly recognizing and releasing anything limiting you or holding you back. I'm talking CORE deep. Things you may not even be able to fully spot or feel yourself. I'm talking serious layer shredding. Full on. Because I believe that the only way we can truly grow is by changing and the only way to truly change is to see where change is necessary.
I am now accepting 3 more VIP 1:1 clients to truly go deep in this. I work with my clients online from all over the world. And If this spoke to you and you feel called to work together 1:1 to improve your lifestyle on a DEEPER level, by focusing on YOU, then message me now and let me know you are serious about making this shift and We will see how I can help you.
I am so happy I could share a very hidden but meaningful part of my story with you.
If you feel compelled to share this with others please follow that nudge and do so.
I know that someone out there is going to read this and feel it so deeply that it inspires a shift.
I am grateful for that opportunity.
I'm here for you
Xx, 
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit
www.celestial.fit

I cry all the time. 
I really do. 
I used to cry almost every day consistently for reasons I couldn't even explain. Sometimes I still cry inexplicably or out of nowhere. 
But a lot of times now, when I cry, I know why I'm crying. 
I cry when I'm grateful. 
I cry when I'm happy. 
I cry from laughing too hard. 
I cry when I'm upset. 
I cry when I'm in love. 
I cry when I'm heart broken. 
I cry when I'm hurt. 
I cry when I'm grieving. 
I cry at the thought of pain. 
I cry at the sight of something so beautiful and small or so large and awesome. 
I cry when I see people. A person. 
I cry when I am hugged. When I am loved. 
I cry when I share. 
I cry when I post sometimes. 
I cry before I share things because I'm overwhelmed with powerfully charged emotions. 
I cry just to cry. 
I cry when I think about a time I have cried.
I love to cry.
Crying is so amazing.
Sometimes the tears are burning hot on my face. 
Sometimes they are oddly cold. 
Sometimes they aren't even there because I have cried myself seemingly empty.
Crying is emotional and important. 
I used to keep myself from crying often. 
I remember sucking in the tears because I had believed it wasn't the 'right time or place to cry'. That always hurt because I couldn't express myself.
Crying is a form of expression. Emotional expression that is so deeply felt when released.
Crying frees me. It makes me feel lighter or fuller depending on the type.
You may be wondering what I'm getting at.
This was very much a personal share but for a very specific reason.
You are more than the layer we so easily put on for the world. 
You are more than the labels, than the words, than the limiting beliefs. 
You are more than the world makes you out to be.
You, are a soul within a miracle of a body built to do amazing and sometimes even inexplicable things all with purpose to serve, protect, and keep a safe house for your soul.
The amazing thing is, you are here, in this day, in this body, reading this post, and maybe even feeling like you can relate or you know
Someone who can or you have been there and it's all because you have made it this far.
You're alive. You're living. You're a soul in a body and you are here.
What is that worth to you?
Truly. 
What does that mean to you? 
Really. Deep down. 
Why does that matter? 
Your soul. Your body. Your life.
The body can only take us as far as we allow it to and condition it to. Our souls are so powerful in this process because ultimately it is the reason for our body.
So, I challenge you to ask yourself some questions right now:
Am I treating my body the way it must be treated in order to create the ultimate home for my soul to grow, share, radiate, and feel amazing? 
Am I truly loving myself? 
Am I really expressing this love through awareness in action and thought and decision making?
When we allow ourselves to release the layers all around us and get in touch with our soul and really feel it and listen to it we can find so much freedom, so many answers, and so much peace within ourselves through acceptance, love, and expression.
Amazing. Isn't it? All of it.
I can't get enough. 
I love everything about this life. 
I used to not feel that way but now, I do and everyday I am grateful to know this.
I love that I work with so many amazing people who value themselves enough to set up so they can love themselves more, take care of themselves better, show more love, give themselves permission to live in the body they desire, immerse themselves fully into the depths of their mind in order to move forward in their journey of life with growth and development.
I work with 5 people each month closely. 1:1. Online. Like the best friend, trainer, support, and mindset mentor all at your fingertips.
Because I get it. This is a journey. This is about you, your soul house, and your soul in the long term.
You care enough to make things happen and that is what matters.
I cared enough to change and so do the people I work with.
I focus on Building more than just a Body with my clients by emphasizing the importance and placing immense love, value, and worth on yourself daily through mindset, wellbeing, behaviors, fitness and nutrition.
This means we align the inner work with the physical result so we can embody the whole being that we all truly are. You are more than surface level.
I want to invite you to reach out if you feel like now is your time. If you feel inspired by this, called in, and moved to do this for yourself now.
I have 2 more spots for my VIP 1:1 coaching where we dive deep, you and me, in it together so you can start Building More than Just a Body.
Like I said, if you know it's calling you, and you know it's your time then this is for you.
I work with people who are serious about themselves.
Message me now to apply to work together 1:1. I can't wait to chat with you and hear about your goals.
❤❤☺☺❤❤
P.S. There is NOTHING wrong with loving yourself but there is EVERYTHING wrong with hating yourself
With lots of love,
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit
Building More Than Just a Body
www.celestial.fit

[I AM NOT PLANNING TO DO A SHOW ANYTIME SOON--HERE IS MY WHY] 

I decided I don't want to train to compete in a show anymore. 

I decided I really want to train to just feel my best, love how it feels, Look forward to it every day, and look better than I have ever looked. I want to be dying to get back into the gym, and competition prep wasn't doing that for me. 

So here's the thing, the training to actually prep is very regimented. 

There were things I REALLY missed that weren't part of my prep training (heavy squats for lower reps, deadlifting, benching) and as a trainer I KNOW I can still achieve my goals with these lifts however I also wanted to look forward to going to the gym again. 

I wanted to do cardio because I wanted to, not because I felt I haaad to (you feel?). I want to be in the best shape I've ever been consistently without having to do bulks or cuts (there will still be growth and define stages). 

I am on a mission to get to the point where my stage body is only 3 weeks away. Basically what I mean is id be walking around with a body that would really only take some extra conditioning and a water cut to tighten up to be considered "stage ready". 

I enjoyed my first show a lot and definitely wanted to get on stage again and again. 

But then I realized I wasn't enjoying a lot of my prep and it kinda screwed with my metabolism if I'm Being completely honest.

I went from 135 Pounds to about 115 pounds or so for my last prep. It didn't take me more than a month and a half to get to 150 pounds from 115 pounds (yep 150) during my bulk. 

Granted I could've done things differently and more diligently in terms of how I worked my way into it. 

But still. 

I honestly put so much on just in two weeks. (Keep in mind I was still eating a great amount of food before my show-- I wasn't starving myself and my cals were still fairly high, my training was frikkin CRAZY tho). 

Also remember, weight is just a number and that didn't bring me down it was the way my body changed. I still loved myself because I was way stronger and I was putting on lots of awesome muscle mass too. Although I'd be lying if throughout my show prep and after comp I didn't go through body image lows. 

And here's the thing, in my " second competition prep" my body wasn't changing much. 

The reason for this I believe was purely because I wasn't enjoying it, I wasn't aligned with it, I questioned it, it didn't feel right. 

Now that I'm following a program that makes me feel amazing and empowered again, guess what? 

RESULTS - this is why we MUST focus on the inner strength in order to generate the outer strength. 

Our minds and our bodies need to be loved. Not separately, not at two different times. But always and all at once and fully. 

I want to just feel amazing and go back to where I started which was just always improving daily. 

So here I am, I'm here to improve, to love myself, and to get love out of every step of the process. 

My message and purpose on this earth is to help other start Building More Than Just a Body And that's exactly what I check myself with daily. 

If you love that message I would love to have you in my free Facebook tribe (tagged above)

Fitness is my life and my lifestyle. I enjoy and love it and that fire won't burn out as long as I respect and listen to my body, mind, heart and soul. 

Your fitness routine should fit your lifestyle not the other way around. 

There's so much out there telling you that you must be restricted, you must be in pain, it must be hard, but that's all SOOO wrong 

I chose to listen to myself and my heart. I knew what was best for me and my body. 

If this message inspired you to take action to have a program which fits your life and feeds not just your body but your heart, mind, and soul, then I want to hear from you. 

Message me on fb now or comment on this blog post and let me know WHY you want to commit to a program like this

Xx
Celeste Rains-Turk
Celeste Rains-Turk: Celestial_fit