Blog

blog image

Eating Problems I Used to Have that Others are Embarrassed to Admit to Me

October 13, 20232 min read

celeste sitting in a chair

⏰wake up at 12am & stay up until 11:59pm eating all day as my “cheat day” then hardly eating during the week


🥗 choosing the healthiest thing in front of others to uphold this “fit” identity only to go home & binge on everything else I could find or stop for treats on the way home


🍩order extra donuts so I could eat all of them & still have a full box for others


🤫sneak food from the bulk stash in the garage because then no one would notice I ate it


🙅🏻‍♀️say I was full because everyone else was done eating only to then think about food the rest of the meal


🐿️pack a bunch of food I wanted to eat post show or that was limited edition to shove down throat after finals


🗑️trashing food I was afraid to binge on only to grab it back & eat it swearing to never buy it again


👩🏻‍⚖️judge myself for eating something others would deem as bad but also judging myself for not being able to have control


😏use “going on prep” or “going on a diet” as my excuse to be able to turn down food I was afraid to be around


🥣sneak bites of food out of everything my fam was cooking after telling them I’d have my own but all I wanted was to be able to eat what they were having


🥸mask that I hadn’t eaten all day just to be able to “afford” a meal out


🤥tell people I already ate when really I just couldn’t figure out or have the energy to go out & risk not being “perfect” on plan


✍🏻only log food I wanted to take responsibility for eating but then feel guilty knowing I didn’t log everything


🤰🏻eat myself so uncomfortably full that even laying down was hard


📺use tv as a means to curb cravings for foods by watching all sorts of food network shows even while doing cardio


🏃🏻‍♀️force myself to complete exercise before & after eating anything


✂️cut out major foods in an effort to create a false sense of control & peace of mind

I share some of what I did in hopes of reducing shame & to be an example that you can get through it & be so far removed from these behaviors that it becomes a distant memory for you like it has for me

Learn more & apply to work with me at www.celestial.fit/foodfreedom @celestial_fit ❤️

Celeste Rains-Turk

Back to Blog

Celeste Rains-Turk; Celestial_fit

Let's Build More than Just a Body

Categories

Privacy Policy

Disclaimer