⏰wake up at 12am & stay up until 11:59pm eating all day as my “cheat day” then hardly eating during the week
🥗 choosing the healthiest thing in front of others to uphold this “fit” identity only to go home & binge on everything else I could find or stop for treats on the way home
🍩order extra donuts so I could eat all of them & still have a full box for others
🤫sneak food from the bulk stash in the garage because then no one would notice I ate it
🙅🏻♀️say I was full because everyone else was done eating only to then think about food the rest of the meal
🐿️pack a bunch of food I wanted to eat post show or that was limited edition to shove down throat after finals
🗑️trashing food I was afraid to binge on only to grab it back & eat it swearing to never buy it again
👩🏻⚖️judge myself for eating something others would deem as bad but also judging myself for not being able to have control
😏use “going on prep” or “going on a diet” as my excuse to be able to turn down food I was afraid to be around
🥣sneak bites of food out of everything my fam was cooking after telling them I’d have my own but all I wanted was to be able to eat what they were having
🥸mask that I hadn’t eaten all day just to be able to “afford” a meal out
🤥tell people I already ate when really I just couldn’t figure out or have the energy to go out & risk not being “perfect” on plan
✍🏻only log food I wanted to take responsibility for eating but then feel guilty knowing I didn’t log everything
🤰🏻eat myself so uncomfortably full that even laying down was hard
📺use tv as a means to curb cravings for foods by watching all sorts of food network shows even while doing cardio
🏃🏻♀️force myself to complete exercise before & after eating anything
✂️cut out major foods in an effort to create a false sense of control & peace of mind
I share some of what I did in hopes of reducing shame & to be an example that you can get through it & be so far removed from these behaviors that it becomes a distant memory for you like it has for me
Learn more & apply to work with me at www.celestial.fit/foodfreedom @celestial_fit ❤️
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