This prep has been rewarding because it has been challenging
Seemed like Right when things were getting better or going to plan, something goes wrong or gets thrown off
I swear I am being tested sometimes
Or maybe just given the strength I need for my future, my mission, the work I do...
Regardless, persistence has been an ongoing theme for me
I remind myself I am worthy of pushing & overcoming because of all the overcoming I’ve already done
There have been many times I really thought I may not make it, I may not be able to do what I need to do despite my best efforts—I’ve proven myself wrong many times
But those aren’t the toughest struggles for me
It’s the ones that you don’t have as much control over & have to change expectations or switch things up
No one told me the gyms would close in the third month of the year or my shows would be cancelled or postponed over and over again
I didn’t know I’d have to run and run and run daily because I had no other options
But what sucks is yesterday it felt like my foot started breaking—really after all these weeks, days out I get this!?
I can hardly put weight on it now, I keep reminding myself I’ll be okay & I’ll find a way
I heated the pool to swim and my sis has a spin bike I used this AM, & I’m modifying to make it work!
I felt defeated like how after prepping for over a year & a half can I be a few days out & have this happen?
How will I walk on stage? How will I do my plyos? How will I finish my final week with everything I got left?
I felt the fears & the doubts
But I’m an athlete & this is bringing out the champion in me—& I can still function which is worth celebrating🥳
I’ve never been one to give up or stop playing just because things get tough
That’s why I immediately started figuring out ways to make it work & focused on my inner dialogue & what I can control
I AM CAPABLE, WORTHY, & DESERVING OF THE RESULTS I DESIRE IN ANY & EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE
I BUST THROUGH LIMITATIONS
I AM MY OWN CHAMPION
I OWE IT TO MYSELF TO DIG & KEEP GOING
I have been so POSITIVE through pain & so grateful for this experience I CHOOSE TO OVERCOME & GROW THROUGH THIS too
I BUILD MORE THAN JUST A BODY