I am contending with the idea that I may never be this lean again and navigating what that means to me right now. 

I don’t know exactly how to articulate the feeling or mental shift honestly. 

It’s strange, when I was super lean I would say how much I missed being fuller. 

I don’t necessarily “miss” being super lean for stage but it is still a wild thing for me to consider that the days of my life of pushing for this level of conditioning are over. 

Sure there will be a very healthy leaner version of me but what’s more of a priority is faith, family, function. 

I need to be able to use my body to build a family and that comes with changes that are inevitable. 

And I want to live a healthy and driven life applying my discipline to other areas but also recognizing the value in letting go of some of the connection to the identity that was attached to my body. Plus I will say, I like being curvier. 

It’s funny, bodybuilding has really taught me to love my body at all phases because it’s always changing. 

BUT I will say this transition has been a LOT different than any other one I’ve had before…. More on that to come.

I did do a season review podcast with my coach @seeyoulaterleaner detailing our 2025 prep, how we used the improvement season to get us ready to bring my best, and some of our strategies. 

I’ll be doing another podcast on my decade long journey in this sport soon…. I am still collecting my thoughts and am open to more of your questions and topic suggestions to add to the already amazing list that yall have given.